Just had 2 days break from several weeks of extreme heat and humidity. That helped a bit. My mood is very low. Finally, I'm forced out of a long relationship that wasn't healthy. He left. Unfortunately he left his cat here who has been in heat or anxious or something for months now and the irritation of hearing the thing whining at the loudest it can almost all day and night is beyond insane making.

Also insane making is grieving something that I was constantly given hope for. He made his decision suddenly and is all happily vacationing with family and moving there. Totally not what I expected. But I know and realize how horrible he had been to me. Why does life just get harder and harder. I have no idea how I'm going to afford living. Working is impossible and I'm waiting for some tests to see why I'm having so much pain. Life seems so cruel. I try to find any bits of peace, if I could sleep enough I'd feel a bit better. I tempted to try anything to just sleep for a good 12 hours. I feel like calling animal shelter to say he abandoned his cat just so I can have some peace.

[Nitrous]

Feeling depressed. It's probably hormones, but that just makes me angry. I don't want a reason, I want to feel better.

[T4bbyCat]

Originally Posted by 2daffodils

Just had 2 days break from several weeks of extreme heat and humidity. That helped a bit. My mood is very low. Finally, I'm forced out of a long relationship that wasn't healthy. He left. Unfortunately he left his cat here who has been in heat or anxious or something for months now and the irritation of hearing the thing whining at the loudest it can almost all day and night is beyond insane making.

Always good when there's a break from heat and humidity. Unfortunately, both seem to be coming to my area soon.

Sorry to hear about your relationship... I take it he abandoned his cat as well?

[peaches45]

Feeling sad today. Don't know the exact reason why

Originally Posted by T4bbyCat

Always good when there's a break from heat and humidity. Unfortunately, both seem to be coming to my area soon.

Sorry to hear about your relationship... I take it he abandoned his cat as well?

Yes I was irritable with the heat, it'll be back today but at least I got some things done without sweating profusely..

THe relationship wasn't good for me anyway. I know I loved him so it's painful, but I'm going to be o.k. eventually.

He left in a hurry and figured I'd be fine to look after his cat, although he had said a few weeks before abruptly leaving "i'm going to get it spayed for sure" and he wasn't able to sleep with the noise either...... so I'm feeling like he was a coward for not being honest, saying he'd be back in a month, ending things from far away and moving was never talked about.

I did talk to him, he said he'll pick up the cat whenever he can, could be a few months... I do consider that abandonment if he had no plans for someone to care of it and left it up to me without my ok for what would be much longer that I was told.... feels good to write it out and that someone asked about it, thank you T4bby Cat. Hugs to you.

[will19]

Kind of a weird day at work today. Just before lunch, my laptop decided to not work. So I took it to the IT guy and he knew what the problem was. While he was figuring it out a woman, who works from her home, came to see him about a problem she had. The IT guy had to work with her and me at the same time. I felt like I was not at my best disposition this afternoon. When my laptop got working, I had to do a research on something that happened over three months ago, and I had to go to Security to get help instead of being able to do it myself, in which I hated.

[Teeny30]

I been feeling really down and depressed today.

[3rd rock]

I've had a really bad week. Called in sick on Wednesday, and calling in sick for tomorrow. Sadness, anxiety through the roof. I'll hold on and be better next week, I hope.

Met new HR lady at work. She's very nice and pleasant, and she's also extremely attractive.

[will19]

A pretty bad day today. It was kind of bad yesterday but it all worked out. Today was much worse. This morning I got notified from my managers that I needed to enter in my phone number on a safety app on my mobil phone. I couldn't do it, so I was told to delete the app and start a new one. No problem, I thought. I downloaded the app and it didn't come up with what my managers wanted. So ended up going to the IT guy again today (I spent a good amount of time with him yesterday with the computer problem). He couldn't come up with a solution. The last words from my manager to me, by Instant Messaging, was; "I don't have any more to say". All of this was totally unexpected. There was no pre-warning about this ahead of time.

I'm such a perfectionist; and have a moderate to severe depression. So this doesn't help me one bit. Plus with the way things are going lately with the lack of work and not so great social support.

[3rd rock]

I feel like I'm going to die, like my heart might stop at any moment, or that something catastrophically bad is imminent. I tried to call in sick but the call in line isn't working as if it's been disconnected so I emailed one of the supervisors and CC'd the rep to notify them of my absence tomorrow. But I feel threatened by something very bad like I'm going to drop dead. It's a state of paralyzing fear. It's been a very long time since it's been so bad.

feeling okay emotionally, just in a lot of pain from my shower earlier

ow my back is killing me

[Breaking Dawn]

Yesterday turned out to be pretty successful. I finally completed an important goal, & I did a few other things I had needed to do. So of course I feel glad about that. I'm hoping I can get more done today.

[will19]

A better day than today. Nothing went wrong at work, although I haven't been able to download that app. It's a funny that on Wednesday the laptop didn't work and it was a big deal. It didn't take that long to fix it. But then yesterday that app issue was very minor and unimportant. But yet there was so much drama about it and it has not been resolved.

The weekend is here now, which is nice. But nothing exciting coming up.

[puzzclar]

I have a decision to make. And I'm scared. There is a lot happening and on top of it all I need to decide my future. I need to relax and trust myself. Yet that is Hard.

[will19]

Very busy today. Saturday mornings seem to be more busy than any whole day at work. I got up a little bit earlier. It's nice that I cleaned my place today since I didn't do it last week.

Feeling a bit depressed now. I always feel that way on Saturday afternoons. The only pretty nice thing that happened was that I decided to go to my bank a half an hour before it closed. No problem getting in and no waiting. And then I had a teller whom I haven't seen in quite a while. She's always been nice to me and knows my name, in which the other tellers do not. She and I agreed that things were much better before The Virus hit. The last time I had seen her was before that Virus hit, which was probably more than three months ago.

I've noticed lately that, next door to me, I see the man a lot but not the woman, whom he's married to. I wonder if something happened to her? She's pretty nice to me. Her husband doesn't talk much. I've never felt comfortable with couples when the woman seems friendlier to me than the man does. Of course, I don't feel comfortable being with couples anyways.

[T4bbyCat]

The height of summer, sunny and blue weather (too few of these days in the US northwest). I wish I could enjoy any of it, but the most I can do is look at footage from the traffic cams across the state to see what I'm missing... at least it does put me there vicariously.

[3rd rock]

I am struggling to breathe. I want to sleep all the time. After years of struggle there is only more struggle ahead. But the urge to live is strong.

[Breaking Dawn]

I'm doing pretty good. Life is difficult, that's for sure. But, at least today, I see where I could be & don't want to be & I am somehow finding a special strength (thank you, God) to keep working on myself & my goals.

[Rose76]

I'm continuing to feel pretty well.

[Mountaindewed]

I wouldn’t say depressed is the right word. Bored and uncertain for sure. But isn’t everyone? I spent the day doing nothing with my hair a mess and not showered and in a white t shirt and light jeans looking like a 40 year old guy from the 1980’s. Complete with the bottle. It was prickly pear soda though.