Because: typing on a phone is something to get used to.

[Rose76]

I'm recovered from how unwell I was this past weekend. I feel pretty good now.

[will19]

The weekend is here. During the week I have been feeling like I'm in a rut and nothing is going to change. Maybe there's an aspect that it's a good thing; that things stay the same instead of a crisis. I just wish that something different would happen; like hearing from a lost friend or something like that.

I'm dreading next week. I have phone meetings (or webinars) everyday of the week that I'm not looking forward to and then a dental appointment on Saturday. By now I could have had the dentist and my doctor appointments over with and be on "cruise control" if it were not for that stupid virus thing. Those appointments had to be put off for two to three months.

I'm wondering if there's something wrong with my connection to this site. Now that I have to use my phone it doesn't seem to be showing posts the same way. Anyways I'm exhausted from being left in a position where I have no family that understands, my son and I both could be soon on the street but I'm doing everything I can to find help.and shelter. It's lonely, i have onily one good friend but she is busy in her own life. Making more friends earlier in my life would have made a huge difference to my situation. Hug to you all.. seems like the forums are bare but I'm always grateful for this site.

[will19]

It was a typical Saturday for me yesterday. Got mad at myself when, around 11AM, realizing I forgot some items at the store. So after lunch I drove out to the store to pick up those items. I hated to drive over to the store (having to stop at seven red lights and being hot) to pick up those measly couple of items when I should have done it earlier.

This morning, my sister called. She had one bit of good news to share with me. My brother wanted to talk to her and make "amends". They hadn't spoken for 14 years because he was mad at her. She said that he asked for my phone number when she spoke to him. I don't know if he will ever call me. He and I were never close, but it would be nice if he called. My sister was much closer to him than I was.

Nothing planned for today. I woke up feeling very depressed this morning, like I always do on Sunday mornings. Maybe it was because of a depressing movie I saw last night. I feel much better now. I plan to go bike riding after lunch.

I feel so stressed it's hard to make myself eat. My days are getting boring and I do what I can.. feed cat, play guitar a bit, dishes. But I still have all my few things toppled around trying to figure out where my important paper work is etc. My son continues to be disrespectful.. it's a work in progress but if it comes to me always being treated like I'm nothing I'm going to have to make him find his own way. He's almost 20 and takes tantrums in stores and when alone with me. God help me find the right decisions

[shovelhead]

I've been getting rid of material things, cuz I don't care about having "things" anymore. I have a plastic bin of all my art supplies. I've thought about throwing the entire thing in trash. But I'm thinking maybe those art supplies could possibly help me feel better? I don't know.. I'm gonna try it out, this week for sure.

[Breaking Dawn]

I have been doing pretty good. I do look forward to when this pandemic is behind us. Sometimes it gets me down, so I find something that can replace my thoughts with more positive ones. I like to watch travelogues on tv, or shows about nature, animals, or kids' programs. I like to get my head cleaned out that way.

[tigerlily84]

I was taken off work for depression and PTSD from my employer. I feel like a failure. 6 years ago I was taken off work for about 6 weeks for the same reason. I feel like I haven't learned anything from last time. And guilty for taking time off. I just feel horrible all of the time and wish that this medication would kick in sooner rather than later.

[Rose76]

I am starting to slip into paralyzing anxiety. This is getting me scared. Tomorrow I have to get more accomplished than I did today. Then I will feel less afraid that I'm losing my grip on what I have to handle.

[3rd rock]

Of course I hate myself. I hate everything about myself. I am lazy and stupid and ugly. I'm only a burden on society. I have no one. I'm in an abusive relationship with life: it makes me miserable but I'm too much of a coward to leave it. I'm too psychologically maladapted and damaged to ever have anything.

It's coming down to the fact I have to put myself first instead of constantly worrying about my irresponsibility son. I looked into everything. Hes horrible to me, used me for everything..out of my small amount of $. I'm exhausted

[Breaking Dawn]

I seem to be doing better, & I'm not sure why.

[Rose76]

I'm sliding downhill. Yesterday it was anxiety. This evening it's depression.

[Yzen]

I'm trying to stay in my own circle of hope and not let outside situations with family and work and everything bring me down.

I am really frustrated. I want to buy the dvd box set (seasons 1 to 7) of malcom in the middle

but I don't have the money too. the dvd is £60 on amazon, and that's a hell of a lot of money

but I want it so much. right now it's what I am in to
right now I feel like I'm going to throw a tantrum if I don't have it.

I feel like a spoiled brat

[Buffy01]

I slipped up again. I fallen down the rabbit hole again. Everything hurting me emotionally.

[Breaking Dawn]

This is not my best day.

[3rd rock]

Please God help my books succeed so I can quit my miserable job. I'm trying to use the only gift you have given me but sometimes I can't see the light at the end of the tunnel.

I'm running on empty.. exhausted, not hungry but I know I should eat. Depressed but keeping my head above water.