[Breaking Dawn]

Well, like the title of this thread says, ups & downs. Looking forward to going back up again.

[Rose76]

I keep sliding down.

been feeling okay.

not done much (nothing), but emotionally okay

[Breaking Dawn]

Still swimming.

I didn't feel like eating today, just ate and feel better now.

[Sunflower123]

Feeling down and defeated today.

[will19]

I took the day off today. I had made a dental appointment on Saturday some time ago, but decided to do it today instead.

Today was a weird day and some things didn't go well. The dentist was a disappointment. First of all I called the dentist office just before going there at 10 for a quick question. Then the receptionist told me that the appointment at 10 was for Saturday. I thought that I had confirmed that it was today. I rescheduled for a later time, but then got called back and they could take me a little bit earlier. I had saved my correspondence by email to the dentist office from a couple of days ago and it turned out that I was right.

Then I got with the dentist and it turns out I need a couple of crowns. It's been a good while since I needed major work. Also the dentist didn't seem like himself. He's a very cheerful kind of guy but today he didn't seem that way. Something seemed off. Maybe it's because of the virus thing. He was telling me that things have been rough.

After that I went shopping and it seemed like I paid more than I anticipated. And then I went to a gas station to pay a little bit more because it's the only station that has a car wash; and it's a bit out of my way. Well the car wash was out of order. I ended up paying for a car wash that I will use later.

feel like a bit of a failure

I am trying to create a playlist of holiday type music and one of the songs I want on it is a song from the golden sun hotel chain (exclusive to their), and I don't have a copy, can't get a copy, don't know where to find one, so my playlist is basically in complete without that song on it, may as well delete all the rest of the tracks

[Breaking Dawn]

Pretty good. I've been exploring wildlife (especially geese) via the internet. Very enjoyable.

[Rose76]

I feel terrible. I don't think this misery is going away any time soon. I'm afraid I will stay like this. I can feel awful despair spreading over me. I want someone to help me.

Originally Posted by Rose76

I feel terrible. I don't think this misery is going away any time soon. I'm afraid I will stay like this. I can feel awful despair spreading over me. I want someone to help me.

I know you need help with people that can see you in real life, but I'm here to listen if you ever need to p.m. me or something, I can try at least

I'm ok right now.

[Rose76]

I took too much Seroquel and got woozy. I'll know not to do that tomorrow.

[3rd rock]

I'm trying to use the gifts God has given me, but nothing is working. It makes me wonder why God would give me these gifts in the first place if not to use them. He may not have given me the gifts I think He has, or maybe I'm not using them as He intended. But I'm doing everything I know how to do.

@3rd rock

I'm sure your doing the best you can and God knows that. I hope you find some comfort tonight and sleep well.

[Rose76]

I'm a little better than yesterday.

pain wise, not so well. today feels like one of those days where everything has seen better days

you know: back, basically gone. left side, basically gone. balance, basically gone. in terms of pain, my prospects are not good

emotionally I feel like I'm stuck on ground hog day. I just wish something would happen (anything), that doesn't involve me feeling bad, someone else shrugging me off, or severe anxiety/ things going missing.

at least I can say that I have been worse

today I have done some self-care and watched tv, and I can think of plenty of days where I don't even bother with the self-care

[Rose76]

If I make an effort, I can make today better than yesterday.

[will19]

Yesterday was very busy for me. One nice thing that happened was a woman, who lives at my place, and I had a nice chat at the laundry area. She was even generous to put my clothes in for full drying. Other than that, I had a headache and felt dizzy at times. I was watching a movie last night and felt a bit light-headed.

Today was easier for doing stuff and felt better. I made spaghetti sauce; a batch for a month. My sister and I talked and it went OK. She still thinks that my brother will call me sometime. It would be nice if he did. The thing that ticks me a bit is being told someone will do something nice for me and then they don't do it. That's been very typical of my family.