I'm looking forward to taking my meds, grabbing something to eat and shutting my mind down as much as possible tonight.

[3rd rock]

I'm trying to give away all my ebooks for free in a bid to spur increased interest. I've gotten a few downloads so far. I hope it works out. Like in all things, I'm deeply pessimistic. I guess I'll have to wait and see.

[Rose76]

I didn't do amymore sorting and organizing in my apt. I felt tired and sore. It's nice to have TV again. Feels less lonely here.

[Rose76]

Here I am waking up at 3:28 a.m.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by Rose76

Here I am waking up at 3:28 a.m.

I been waking up early to

[Buffy01]

I just want to stop feeling down because of the name calling.

[Yzen]

Not sure where to find motivation and energy lately. It would help me right now.

[Rose76]

Still depressed.

outlook again, isn't good

honestly emotionally I have had a **** day, and physically, I hurt so much I am surprised that I can still feel my body.

things are not going anywhere for me. at least anywhere positive

[will19]

First thing this morning a woman made an upsetting comment to me. I was making coffee for myself and then she said, "coffee can cause cortisol levels to rise and create belly fat". This woman is always corrective with people. She comes on like a health expert and yet she doesn't look good. Her body is built like a refrigerator. Why is it that people who don't look good are such experts on health, that they have to tell everyone else what they are doing is wrong?

Other than that, it was very slow at work. I worked out after work. That's about it.

I can't seem to sleep. So i got up to read here. Finding it hard to bite my tongue at this moment. ahem

Ups were I got along better with my son today, downs, he needs to relax too much and I don't know if he gets the seriousness of our situation. Hoping the doctor will make a home phone call this week as he didn't follow up with getting my son a psychiatrist yet.
I wish I could sleep but I'm not going to take more meds than my limit. I'm hungry too for some real food. Been living cheap on mr. noodles and crap, but it's food and I'm grateful for even that, annnd, I think all people can't be judged by a few comments.. we have no clue how one thing might set someone off, and change the course of their lives. Life is tough enough isn't it? The only thing I know we can control is how we react.. and right now I'm so tired I can't stop reacting, but I will. I needed to eat something and I pray for sleep tonight and to forget the world. Hardly any sleep now for the second night. But I'm not pity partying, what good does that do?

[Rose76]

Went to Walmart for some groceries. While shopping, I was crying behind my mask, realizing I'll be cooking just for me, and I'll be eating alone. I miss making dinner for two and feeling so glad when my s.o. would enjoy what I made. I'm kind of scared of this new life where I will be alone so much. It feels lonely.

Looking for a very part time job is exhausting. I can't work too many hours in my condition and everything I look at is above and beyond what I can do. I'm feeling like letting go and resting and now I just got notice of an inspection very shortly where I'm at. I'm so sick of life handing me crap at a time I can't deal with it. I guess I'll straighten things out tonight I'll stay up drink coffee and make it as clean as possible. THe idea of strangers seeing my own personal things makes me ill.

[3rd rock]

I don't think anyone's downloading my books, not even for free. I bet I couldn't even pay people to read my books. Oh well.

[Breaking Dawn]

It's hard to say where I am right now. Part of me, at least, is feeling confused. Another part of me might be experiencing a growth period. I wish I felt safe enough to say more than that. I realize I'm somewhat closed up. I'm trying to have more faith & trust in others. I think that might be one of my major problems. And these kinds of thoughts seem to be part of this apparent growth period I'm experiencing.

[Cocosurviving]

It’s raining 🌧 again which I know rain is good/important. I just wish it did not cause me to have flare ups. I’ve been battling a fever since early this morning. I finally ate a bowl of cereal to take some Tylenol. I don’t have much of an appetite. Soup sounds good right about now.

I'm under a lot of pressure, I don't know what the future holds. Ups are I did get some organization under control.

[Rose76]

I'm sinking into despair.

[3rd rock]

They're now making masks mandatory at Wal-Mart. This isn't even a government regulation, but a corporate initiative. So now I won't shop at Wal-Mart anymore.

[Rose76]

Originally Posted by 3rd rock

They're now making masks mandatory at Wal-Mart. This isn't even a government regulation, but a corporate initiative. So now I won't shop at Wal-Mart anymore.

That's good! Good decision.