[will19]

Right now I'm just taking a coffee break from my cleaning. No shopping today because that was already done last Thursday. It feels strange to not go shopping today. The last time I didn't go shopping on a Saturday was about a year ago when I was traveling back home from the place I had visited. Though the week before, I went shopping at a store where I was visiting. It felt very different and interesting.

[3rd rock]

I don't have any hope for the future. All the jobs around here pay too little, but I can't go back to my current job that I'm on leave from, not as long as they have a ridiculous mask mandate. So I'm stuck with no way out. There's no reason to work anyway, only to prolong life. But there's no point in doing even that anymore. I used to think I just had to survive until my books became successful, but that's less likely than ever. I have nothing and no one.

I finally got to have a drink from my new mug

I may have had it for 5 days, but I miss placed it and only found it to drink out of recently

better late than never I guess.

it's a white mug with the words jane austin on it. got it from one of those freebie sites

today is really living up to the quiet, sunday = rest day stuff.

not a single car outside on the road, child playing, or even birdy singing. it's so quiet!

I listened to the latest episode of my stories podcast today. it was a good story. I really enjoyed it

not much else though. later on they are going to show a brand new series of family fortunes (or feud in america)

I love that show, and as a child, it was one of my favorites!. some of the answers they give on their are hilarious

I can't wait to see it revived

[pjbockajr]

A tad depressing day . Trouble motivating myself

[Breaking Dawn]

So far so good.

[will19]

Not much going on this morning, but that's alright with me. I got up at 7AM. I thought that I would sleep in a little later, but I woke up around 5:30 and couldn't get back to sleep.

My sister called. She first told me that her daughter was upset but wouldn't go into details. Her daughter is in her mid-20s and living at home. She has major depression and other issues. And then I told my sister about that woman at my job whom had asked me out on a date (I posted it last Tuesday on Daily Check-In). That date never happened because I had told that woman, "I'll think about it". My sister was disappointed that I didn't go for it right away. I wanted to take some time and think it over because I'm not sure if I want to go on a date with her, since I don't know her very well. So my sister and I argued a bit about it.

I plan to go on a longer bike ride today. I have not done it in a while because of the extreme heat we've had plus the fires and bad air. It's more ideal today for a bike ride.

Feeling depressed. I dont know much for ups today. I'm sore but it's from moving heavy stuff so that doesn't matter. I forgot I should have switched pharmacies. I dont like it here but at least I have my cat and guitar. Don't feel like eating anything. I hope life gets better.

[Mountaindewed]

I feel ok depression wise. I don’t know what that whole fiasco 2 weeks ago was about. But I’ve been fine ever since depression wise. The weather has been warm and sunny since. I do worry quite a bit about seasonal depression especially with everything I’ll be going through in a couple weeks.

[Breaking Dawn]

I am doing ok most of the time. I have moments that are quite challenging, but then I turn myself around & things smooth out again. One thing that has helped me is humor here & there, thank goodness!

[Deilla]

I feel a little sad today. I am all alone. Some friends have disappeared. Nothing stays the same. Everything changes.

Hopeless 😩 to believe in the betterment of people. Best is all we have now. No point in bothering anymore. All the answers have been explained clear as day. Can’t seem to find where I put them at this point. Ugh, my life is worth nothing.

[Breaking Dawn]

Most of the day yesterday was difficult, but then things somehow turned around. I feel really good this morning. I hope you all have a good day!

[Rose76]

I'm doing okay.

Yesterday I was awful. Had to hand in the keys to my former residence. Turned into dwelling on the past, but all I knew there came back as if to bother me into feeling like I have nothing and I'm worth nothing. I've turned my mind around now today and do my best to forget the past and keep moving forward even if it's hurtful to think of my future. I only have right now, so I'm trying to rest.

[tigerlily84]

Yesterday I had a phone appointment with the nurse practitioner. She's keeping me on the trintellix. So far it's only caused headaches and sleepiness and nothing worse. Today I think I will give my dog a bath and maybe clean up a bit in my apartment.

[Mountaindewed]

I’m not exactly depressed but I kinda am. If the AGT finale wasn’t on that I’m really looking forward to I’d take a few melatonin and go to bed. But I do want to watch it so I guess I just have to stay up and deal with these thoughts and feelings.

[will19]

Today was a pretty busy day. First time it had been like that in a while. I was able to get some time in to talk to that woman who had asked me out last week. For starters, I'd rather not date or even have friends from those I work with. Well I felt like I got to know her better from talking to her and feel pretty sure that she's not for me. Yes, she's nice, but we seem to not have anything in common.

[3rd rock]

I don't know why I put so much effort into something that earns me so little.

[Deilla]

I'm very sad this morning. I didn't sleep well. My male cat woke me up in the middle of the night. I don't know if more sleep will help but I'm wide awake at the moment. I feel very much alone. I tried to comfort myself, but it didn't work. Maybe I will try some DBT skills.

[Sunflower123]

I’m feeling a bit down today and somewhat less hopeful about life. Could just be the weather. I’m going to work on distracting myself and keeping busy.

Hugs to all.