[T4bbyCat]

Couldn't get out of bed all day. Thanksgiving has come and gone. The sprint to Christmas has begun. Every year is the same as the last. (That's not a bad thing, given the potential for something far worse.)

[The_Bear]

Woke up feeling down and pissed off. Gradually lifted.

Felt down at work. Anxiety over a combination of 2 issues: The first is my girlfriend - we recently broke up (my fault) but now I desperately want to get back with her; and the second is uncertainty over my work contract, which there is a chance won't be renewed this year, due to my organisation's cost-cutting. I did speak to one of the senior managers about this mid-morning and the things he said alleviated my concerns to a degree, but I’m still worried. A lot of people in my organisation are worried about their jobs at the minute.

Afternoon was similar. Just generally very down. Checked to see if my ex wanted to have dinner tonight or tomorrow but she said she’d be back from her work too late. Still unsure how this whole thing will play out with her. A lot of uncertainty at the minute. I told myself at lunchtime that whatever happens, things will turn out OK in the end. I do think they will, and this helped me relax a little.

I’ve decided that in the event my (ex)girlfriend doesn’t want to continue or my contract doesn’t get renewed (or both things happen!), I’m going to go back on Paroxetine. Life will be too hard without it. I'd prefer not to go back on it, but I’m looking at it as a safety net, should things go south.

Got home and managed a good rowing workout which I was pleased about. Then had porridge and Snickers for dinner. Evening was much better than the daytime. Rowing session, hearty dinner, getting some tasks done, a bit of piano – these all helped. Managed to get to bed at 10pm too.

[Sunflower123]

I’m going back and forth between being slightly depressed and depressed with SI. I have therapy today and my NP next week so I’ll be in good hands. I just wish it wasn’t so darn painful.

Hugs to all who are struggling.

[3rd rock]

Work sucks.

[Deilla]

My cat is sick and I'm really worried about her.

[Sunflower123]

My therapist told me about some guided sleep meditations on YouTube by the Honest Guys. It worked for me last night in winding down and getting to sleep. It was great! They have other meditations as well. Just FYI.

[Sunflower123]

I’m feeling much better today.

[Buffy01]

I been feeling really depressed especially during the holidays. I tried to distract myself with listen to a self help Lisa A Romano video and doing some laundry today.

[Deilla]

I have some energy this morning and I feel upbeat. I will try to take care of my chores while I'm feeling good. Then I will rest later.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by Deilla

I have some energy this morning and I feel upbeat. I will try to take care of my chores while I'm feeling good. Then I will rest later.

I wish that I had some energy today.

[Rose76]

I've been improving daily.

One thing today was hard. I listened to old, saved voice messages on my older, mobile, flip phone that I haven't disconnected. There was a saved message from my boyfriend that I was surprised to find. I re-saved it. Then I cried.

[Deilla]

I'm trying to decompress. I had a stressful day. I may go to bed early.

[will19]

I've been feeling pretty down lately. There's been little things at work that has been getting on my nerves a lot with lots of complaining I have to deal with.

Just last night my friend and I agreed to split up. There are some regrets from the both of us on this. It's just that our phone conversations haven't been going well and not much of a chance for us to see each other. It's very hard for me to lose an only friend that I have here locally. And it's going to be very hard to replace him.

[Deilla]

I'm having a hard time sleeping. It probably didn't help that I had coffee before going to bed.

[Mountaindewed]

I’m legit depressed but not sure exactly why.

[Sunflower123]

I wouldn’t call it depressed but I’m feeling like my life has no significance and I’m not contributing in any meaningful way. I’m just going through the motions.

[Deilla]

I'm feeling a little depressed at the moment. I just finished up a chore but I have one more to do. I really want to deal with it tomorrow. But my inner critic is beating me up cause I'm not taking care of it right now. So I feel sad. I need to tell my inner critic to 'bug off' and leave me alone.

[OutOfMyMind75]

Just came out of my suicide mindset. It was pretty bad today. Going to live another day, but seriously considered. Good that I am alive still.

[mugwort2]

Jennifer : Wish I could help you feel better.

[will19]

The usual day for me today. Later in the afternoon I felt very sad, like I always do. But this time it's different because my only friend that I have and I had split from each other. So that has added on to my grief a little bit. Also I've had a headache all day. I've had all-day headaches before.

This evening has been very weird. The Jacuzzi at where I live is closed because of COVID. It's a mandatory order. And then my fire alarm in my unit went off, but it was nothing. No smoke or anything. Feeling very bad now tonight.