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Old 06-28-2020, 10:03 PM   #1
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Dearest friends, warriors,

I am taking so many pills and yet I donít seem to improve, I still get depressed and afraid and anxious. I go down and up and I donít know how to keep a job anymore. Iím to sensitive and people Today are aggressive or passive aggressive or may be a little more than before, but that really affects me. I am losing myself in despair, I cannot still see my kids, I cannot even get a picture and yet I wonder what did I do that was so wrong to deserve this.

I am losing my kids and there is nothing I can do. My mother is slowly dying and my country is destroyed. What am I doing here in Japan, when Japanese never want foreigners, most racists people.

Cruel society. And the world is a mess and know where should I be

Please help me
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I'm sorry for what you are going through. I don't really have any advice. I just wanted you to know that someone was listening. Keep reaching out
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I am so sorry for your pain, neo. Do you have to live in the greater Toky metro area? I useed to work in Shnjuku ane Shibuya. It is very, very stressful living there, as you know. Someplace like Kyoto or even Yokohama would be far more relaxing. Just a thought.

I hve dealt with severe depression for most of my life. I know what it is like. What are your current meds? DO you trust your psychiatrist? Is ketamine available in Tokyo, by chance? It can work when nothing else does. That was the case for me.

Sending you strength and support and love. You are not alone. Spend some time here, post some feelings and share. You will find a lot of support here.

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I am so sorry for your pain, neo. Do you have to live in the greater Toky metro area? I useed to work in Shnjuku ane Shibuya. It is very, very stressful living there, as you know. Someplace like Kyoto or even Yokohama would be far more relaxing. Just a thought.


I hve dealt with severe depression for most of my life. I know what it is like. What are your current meds? DO you trust your psychiatrist? Is ketamine available in Tokyo, by chance? It can work when nothing else does. That was the case for me.


Sending you strength and support and love. You are not alone. Spend some time here, post some feelings and share. You will find a lot of support here.


Love and hugs!!!!!!!!!


Thank you my friend, I take many meds will check on ketamine, when life carved out my children out of my life it really broke me and made me so sad, it really broke me. But I canít leave my kids are here and I want to show them I am here waiting for them.
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Thank you my friend, I take many meds will check on ketamine, when life carved out my children out of my life it really broke me and made me so sad, it really broke me. But I canít leave my kids are here and I want to show them I am here waiting for them.


Sorry to hear you also suffered this In Japan.
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Thank you my friend, I take many meds will check on ketamine, when life carved out my children out of my life it really broke me and made me so sad, it really broke me. But I canít leave my kids are here and I want to show them I am here waiting for them.
Ihad a huge catastrophe due to bipolar psychosis twelve years ago and spent 5 years in the hospital. i have not spoken to my precious son in ten years. I really relate to what you write and my heart is with you.

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Oh I am so sorry you are struggling and are in such a hostile environment. What country are you from originally?
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