Trying to keep it inside

whimsicalman · Jul 13, 2020 at 02:53 PM

Today it is tough to keep the irritability that accompanies my depression inside. I can hear it in my voice when I answer the office phone at work. That is not a good thing. I spent most of the weekend sleeping and holed up in my bedroom, trying to watch TV—something I enjoy—in order to keep above the ad feelings. It worked, so some degree. And when I couldn’t keep focused, I just slept. Probably not the best option, but it helped last night when I stayed up later to watch TV but still needed to get up this morning for work. So, at least, I don’t feel totally out of it today.

Just sharing to get it out there. Not sure if I really need any advice. Just felt the need to express myself in a safe place.

Yaowen · Jul 13, 2020 at 05:28 PM

Dear whimsicalman,

That happens a lot to me lately. Some people, I think, don't realize that depression can cause irritability. I myself get 'grumpy' as I get depressed. My heart goes out to you!

Sincerely yours, Yao Wen

bpcyclist · Jul 14, 2020 at 12:29 AM

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Originally Posted by whimsicalman

Today it is tough to keep the irritability that accompanies my depression inside. I can hear it in my voice when I answer the office phone at work. That is not a good thing. I spent most of the weekend sleeping and holed up in my bedroom, trying to watch TV—something I enjoy—in order to keep above the ad feelings. It worked, so some degree. And when I couldn’t keep focused, I just slept. Probably not the best option, but it helped last night when I stayed up later to watch TV but still needed to get up this morning for work. So, at least, I don’t feel totally out of it today.

Just sharing to get it out there. Not sure if I really need any advice. Just felt the need to express myself in a safe place.

Sorry you are struggling, whimsicalman. Been there, just wiht bipolar depression rather than unipolar. Not sure what your med situation is right now. You know, sleep deprivation has been show to quite reliably pick unipolar people up rather quickly. Have you ever tried it? It turns out that sleeping all the time, which I totally get, actually very likely aggravates depression. It has been pretty closely studied.

Just a thought.

whimsicalman · Jul 14, 2020 at 06:56 PM

I'll need to read more on that. If there are any good links, let me know.

peaches45 · Jul 16, 2020 at 06:48 AM

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Originally Posted by whimsicalman

Today it is tough to keep the irritability that accompanies my depression inside. I can hear it in my voice when I answer the office phone at work. That is not a good thing. I spent most of the weekend sleeping and holed up in my bedroom, trying to watch TV—something I enjoy—in order to keep above the ad feelings. It worked, so some degree. And when I couldn’t keep focused, I just slept. Probably not the best option, but it helped last night when I stayed up later to watch TV but still needed to get up this morning for work. So, at least, I don’t feel totally out of it today.

Just sharing to get it out there. Not sure if I really need any advice. Just felt the need to express myself in a safe place.

I am feeling the same exact way. I feel empty and lost. I did take my son to store last night when I got home from work but, by 6pm I was in bed, crying on and off and sleeping. I didn't even turn the tv on just laid there.

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Yaowen Grand Magnate Member Since Jan 2020 Location: USA Posts: 3,618 (SuperPoster!) 4 6,475 hugs given	Jul 13, 2020 at 05:28 PM #2 Dear whimsicalman, That happens a lot to me lately. Some people, I think, don't realize that depression can cause irritability. I myself get 'grumpy' as I get depressed. My heart goes out to you! Sincerely yours, Yao Wen
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whimsicalman Member Member Since Jul 2018 Location: USA Posts: 146 5 105 hugs given	Jul 14, 2020 at 06:56 PM #4 I'll need to read more on that. If there are any good links, let me know.
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