Not sure if depressed or not

I'm unsure what really makes me happy anymore. I used to find some joy in video games and somewhat hanging with friends but I just don't really feel it. I feel like I'm somewhat of a sex addict also because that's the one thing I feel like I enjoy but after it's over which is 20-30 mins then what? Going back to feeling empty?

When I drank a couple days ago one of my really good friends who's a girl invited her friend over who she said was very nice and cute. Anyways we had a few drinks and she was kind've coming on strong complimenting me and well I did the same. Friend 1 (My main friend) and friend 2 (girl that I was meeting) we both went on the couch and we were all sitting together. Friend 2 says I have a strong jaw line... So I kinda layed down on both friend 1 and 2 because I was drunk and it felt good. Well while friend 1 and 2 were talking, friend 2 and I started touching each others legs in a position friend 1 couldnt see. She ended up rubbing my **** at one point while saying "mhmm" in the conversation with friend 1. At this point I knew what was going to happen.

So when I was in the bathroom she ended up coming to check up on me and well I was on floor funny enough, she helped me get up and told me to help her put her tie on her hair and she turned around and started kissing. This happened again when us three were sitting on the couch and my friend number 1 who's a good friend got up and went to the bathroom which I feel like kissing when she's gone is pretty bad enough.

Anyways lets say friend 1 is my main friend and friend 2 is the girl that I was cuddling and had fun with. Friend 2 seemed to purposefully delay her uber ride so she could stay here to watch some stuff and cuddle while my friend 1 went to uber back home, even though friend 2 could have ubered with her. So when friend 1 left, friend 2 started kissing and well I kissed back. We went to go on the couch and watch something and well we started kissing again. That led to neck kissing, kissing her body, ect.. She then got under the covers near my legs, and well... you can imagine what happened. No penetration happened but you get the point. We were both pretty sober at this point. Anyways we left and I asked for her number which I realized I shouldn't have done because tbh I wanted to **** her and she seemed to also want the same but maybe not.

Well we text for a bit, I ask if she wants to hang again and she said yes. We said she wanted to kiss and cuddle again and I wanted the same. She sent me a couple of photos, one kinda showing off her butt and well her. Some things that she said was "Soo cute lmy n ur lips" this is word for word, and before that I said that you turn me on and your looking thicc funny enough. She sent me a couple of other photos after that and I said " I wish I was playing with your hair and massaging your butt rn" which I think might've been a little vulgar I shouldn't have said. Well she fell asleep and then I got a "Good morning text with the :P" and I said good morning how's your morning going? We were planning on seeing other that night but then she hasn't replied yet... I'm very confused and I'm not sure if it's just my ego or if I want sex that bad but I just find it weird to not be responded to for a day after planning something.

Friend 1 also did say friend 2 is bipolar, also friend 2 works a decent amount. Maybe it was meant to be a one night thing? But then why text all of that stuff from the beginning saying you want to kiss again? Idk maybe it's just my ego of being ghosted after all of that but I feel like most people would feel the same. I'm already trying to find someone new but tbh I hate going through the ******** of finding someone new again. I live in area where dating/sex life is hard to find with someone who isn't a complete degenerate.

Thanks for reading if you made it this far, more of rant post than anything. I just wish I had something that also grants me more happiness than sex or cuddling.
I know if I had something else that made me happier than sex, like video games. This incident would bother me a lotttt less than how much it has bothered me. I'm thinking about talking to my parents about seeing a psychologist or psychiatrist but i'm unsure about that yet. Also if I were to be happy doing other things, why would it be such a problem being ghosted? I would just do the other things that make me happy.

Maybe I'm over analyzing the situation but for people to not text back a day or two signals to me there not interested. But I just find it weird that friend 2 said all those things then doesn't text back.

EDIT: So I wrote this yesterday and only feel a bit better today, I was already somewhat feeling empty/depressed before this but this just made it worse. I have no idea what mental disorder I have, I just know it doesn't make me feel good.

Hello & Welcome, Sadman32. To be on the safe side, if your situation permits, get a full medical checkup with blood tests. It is possible to have some sort of physical disorder with symptoms similar to those seen in mental illness, and it is possible to have a physical disorder accompanying mental illness.

My personal experience is that once you have a mental diagnosis, doctors tend to see all symptoms through a psychological lens.

I have no insights to offer regarding relationships.

Perhaps talking through all of this with a mental health therapist might be a useful way to go? It's just my personal non-professional opinion mind you. But my thinking would be that, while you may be experiencing some mild depression, it may not really rise to the level of a true mental illness that would require the services of a psychologist or psychiatrist (unless there's more going on here than you felt you could include in this post.) In the meantime, though here are links to 7 articles, from Psych Central's archives, that may be of interest:

Depression: Symptoms, Types & Treatments | Psych Central

Living with Depression: A Guide for Coping with Depressive Feelings | Psych Central

What Mild Depression Really Is and What Can Help

When You Feel Empty: What It Means & What to Do

I feel Empty Inside -3 Fixes for Feeling Nothing

https://psychcentral.com/blog/when-y...ur-depression/

https://blogs.psychcentral.com/child...-of-emptiness/



P.S. One thing that might be helpful would be to take some of the quizzes & tests that are on offer here on PC. There's a link to them in the banner at the top of the page. However here's an additional link as well:

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I did not read the details of your relationship stuff... but I saw the part about feeling like a sex addict. I can relate to that feeling because I felt like that once during a very strange year of my life about 3 years ago. I honestly still don't get what was going on with me back then. I would recommend seeing a therapist because they can probably help your sort out what is going on with yourself. I waited a long time and finally decided I'd try the therapy thing. I'm still not sold on it after two months because I can't figure out if it is helping. I also feel like I'm holding back and not able to be open with my therapist about some of the more embarrassing stuff that I've done. I kind of glossed over it a few times. I kind of don't want to get into it and dredge up all that pain. I don't know if that would help me. Maybe it's better to let sleeping dogs lie? I can't decide. Another issue is my therapy sessions are over a web meeting and I'm at home with my whole family (because COVID-19 they are here all the time) and even though I'm in a different room with a locked door, I still feel like I have to watch myself because they are around. It makes it difficult.

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