[Pretzel Logic]

It seems like my Depression and Anxiety are worse in the daytime. I will wake up feeling ok then a few minutes later I feel fear and dread. I am having memory problems and sometimes slurred speech. I have suffered bouts of depression since my early twenties. It seems like each depression is worse than the last and harder to get out of.

[regretful]

I can empathize with you; the idle times are the worst, particularly with that feeling of dread. A good friend of mine described depression as the cold, gray hand of death behind you, reaching for your shoulder at all times...the comfort that I take is that I've been through this before and come out of the depressive episode better from it. I hope that you can work your way through the depression too. I am in the throes of it now, and working like heck to get out of it...

[glok]

Hello, Pretzel Logic. Is professional help an option?

[Pretzel Logic]

Originally Posted by regretful

I can empathize with you; the idle times are the worst, particularly with that feeling of dread. A good friend of mine described depression as the cold, gray hand of death behind you, reaching for your shoulder at all times...the comfort that I take is that I've been through this before and come out of the depressive episode better from it. I hope that you can work your way through the depression too. I am in the throes of it now, and working like heck to get out of it...

Thanks for your concern, I too have been through this many of times and have come out of it. I hate the memory problems and the anxiety that goes with it. I think I am getting better slowly because last week i was an emotional wreck, I could not think straight. I hate that feeling like i am losing control.

[Pretzel Logic]

Originally Posted by glok

Hello, Pretzel Logic. Is professional help an option?

Unfortunately my insurance does not cover Mental Healthcare. I am self Employed. I have to pay for my own insurance coverage and it is not cheap. i am glad for this site so i do not feel alone. I have been through many depressions and had therapy in the past. I know it is just a matter of me thinking, what has gotten me through it in the past. I know sometimes when i am in a depression, its like i forget everything i know that has helped in the past.

[perseverance11]

Originally Posted by Pretzel Logic

It seems like my Depression and Anxiety are worse in the daytime. I will wake up feeling ok then a few minutes later I feel fear and dread. I am having memory problems and sometimes slurred speech. I have suffered bouts of depression since my early twenties. It seems like each depression is worse than the last and harder to get out of.

Was there an event that caused that?