Originally Posted by Amyjay

Raging Vortex I amy be way off base here but is there any possibility at all that it might be an introject alter that is emailing you as your ******? Just wondering as it seems you take lots of precautions against her being able to contact you but she always seems to find your new email... or could it be that a loyal alter is contacting her to let her know your new email addresses?
Sorry, I hope that isn't upsetting for me to ask. Ignore if you need to.

not in this
case.

actually it's just her contacting people I know to ask for the new email, and because she threatens them if they don't give her it, they do.

of course their's the option of cutting comunication with those people, but it will make the abuse worse- and I'm not sure it's a good idea

I apreciate your response

spent the night awake and in pain.

actually don't have much to say

showered today and I feel gross (so gross it is a crime), ate breakfast (less than average), now just posting on here

tonight feels like a proper winter's evening.

I like it..

[Amyjay]

I like winter evenings too!

3 am. A part is blaring music and everyone is yelling and aggravated. Drinking a beer to relax enough to sleep. I hate coming home, it just triggers being mad mainly because of the lazy boy messing and marking up the place. I leave the apt clean and come home to a mess. Red ink marks on walls and doors. WTF?

I’m going crazy insane.

When did all the sticky's appear?

Originally Posted by Amyjay

I like winter evenings too!

weather forcast says that the heatwave we've been having may come back for a while

but I hope not.

this winter weather really helps with me being present

Here in the south, we don’t get cold fronts, we get dry fronts that drop tempetures from the 90’s to the high 80’s. It’s sure amazin what a few degree points a difference it makes. I sure hope it don’t rain.

Originally Posted by AlwaysChanging2

Here in the south, we don’t get cold fronts, we get dry fronts that drop tempetures from the 90’s to the high 80’s. It’s sure amazin what a few degree points a difference it makes. I sure hope it don’t rain.

if it does.. you can send it my way!

love rain..

I am doing okay.

not really the type of weather I wanted yesterday (a bit too warm), but blah, what should I expect, the weather man said it might be a bit hotter at the weekend

greyer today though. trying to rain but it's not yet.

no sleep

Every Sunday...my only day off...my anxiety is so high, it feels like imminent doom. I feel nervous and unsure. My voice sounds a mile away in a tunnel...my body walks stiff...I hate going anywhere and tend to migrate back to the apt like being pulled by a magnet into hiding.

I don’t know who I am or what I be....is it real or fake expecting the worse.

Just another typical Sunday.

ended up raining all day- it was lovely

didn't get too much done- I didn't even have a roast dinner (I ended upp having scampi which was less than average)

but an okay day- very little to complain about

again no sleep last night, but hey... that's just how it is

Things are different in our system today it seems. The fems that have been out have stopped coming after our minor seizured med withdraw, and our Christian brother has reawakened.

Our spiritual quest has once again resumed after watching you tube videos of endtimes and demonology.

For some reason...I feel peaceful.

Well, all I got to say is that they were wrong.

legs hurt like ****.

that is all

*mumbles something under her breath about getting the picking up wand*

Well, haven’t been present in days...and they let this bodies appearance go to crap and clothes are everywhere.

Fixed mos of that last night....

Omg...it’s time to go...

mother emailing abuse today

Possible trigger:

this time saying she would pay a good friend of mine to kill me

what?

so she's now too scared to do it herself and trying to bribe others?

sick

feeling horrible after that

An oddity was noticed at work yesterday putting us in a weird lite....was brain storming at 2:30 a.m. everyone freaking out thinking scenarios on damage control, outing ourselves, or running and hiding.

Had to go buy beer to go back to sleep...got an hour of sleep...now sucking down coffee to sober up for work where all this stress began. Can’t quit can’t get fired.

Oops, drank too much last nite.