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#81
I have to contact my doctor's office tomorrow and try to get an earlier appointment due to being under heavy stress and also try and find a therapist who will accept my insurance.
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#82
keep forgetting where I am and what time it is
had a really severe pannic attack today and I think it's made all my other psymptoms 10 times worse |
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Poohbah
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Location: Long Island NY
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#84
I am struggling today. I can't focus on any particular thing so I get nothing done. The house is very quite and that makes my thoughts louder. My brain feels like it is spinning endlessly spinning. I have my dog by my side and that makes things a little better. Right now I am waiting for time to go by so I can go to bed and hope that tomorrow is different. I really need to see a therapist. I will try to do that after the holidays. I wish I had one now.
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Grand Magnate
Member Since Feb 2016
Location: Mississippi
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#85
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(((claritytoo))) I hope you are in a better place now. The holidays can be very taxing and straining. I’m glad you have your dog with you! Giving love can sometimes feel good when you are needing some yourself. I’m sending you holiday well wishes and wishing you a very Merry Christmas!! __________________ "What is denied, cannot be healed." - Brennan Manning "Hope knows that if great trials are avoided, great deeds remain undone and the possibility of growth into greatness of soul is aborted." - Brennan Manning |
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#86
yesterday was okay.
mainly because everything fell in to place where it should be and that never happens to me ever |
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#87
we are a little depressed today because of the whole no gift thing
but.. we also have our christmas dinner being delivered today, and from stuff we've heard from others the food is 5 star. so it should be really nice |
Magnate
Member Since Mar 2017
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#88
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#89
I am very triggered today. I see T soon. Working through this trauma stuff is so hard and overwhelming.
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Poohbah
Member Since Dec 2011
Location: Long Island NY
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#90
I am supposed to visit a friend on Saturday. She lives 3 hours away. I will push myself to go. I am having a lot of anxiety. I haven't been sleeping to well just worrying about going that far from where I live. I know I won't get lost. I just keep thinking that I am not ready to do this. This is the first new year she will be without her husband so I don't want to bail. She needs me and in some way I think it will be good for us to get back to doing things we used to do. It's almost 2am and I still don't want to go to bed. I just want the noise in my head to stop. It can be so loud sometimes.
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Amyjay
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Location: michigan
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#92
I'm alright today. Still not being switchy, but getting more accustomed to having all these hours in a day to myself. Really, 24 hours feels like forever when it's just me here, but I have a lot to do right now, so it's fine I guess. I'm keeping busy, dealing with the breakup when I need to, keeping busy when I am not dealing with that. Yeah. Been dealing more with external life than the stuff in my head these days *shrugs*
-Avery __________________ no hugs or prayers pls n thx (dx list: DID/PTSD, ASD, GAD, OCD, LMNOP) |
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#93
we were very impressed with a question we got earlier in the week
someone actually asked us (and not in a patronizing way either), I hope the fireworks didn't get to you too much on new years? they know fire is a trigger, and we're pleased they actually used their brains and asked us properly about it. (now all people have to learn is to call us by the names of the alter, not the body name) but we've posted about that and our annoyance about it. we feel we've lost a lot of time today (or at least this evening) it just seems really late in the evening, and their seems to be a lot of hours unaccounted for |
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#94
their are alters fighting for control this afternoon.
their is lots of arguing inside urg not again. we hope we don't lose time over this, and I can just front |
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#95
we are depressed too.
not suicidal but depressed |
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Grand Magnate
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#96
(((ss)))
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#97
There’s a lot in my head right now.
I’ve been reading about phobia of attachment and it’s all “me”. It’s very validating to see how I came to be this way, but it’s also very saddening to actually own it. The two reviews that I’ve read both really address the description of it and the reasons why of it. They both also focus on early intervention in a Childs life to correct it. I haven’t come across anything to address correction or healing from it this far down the road. It’s pretty late for me for intervention. I do believe there are steps to heal this. I just don’t know what they are right now. When I feel like this, I look for something to do. Something productive. So. I’m whitewashing my fireplace tomorrow. It’s something that I’ve been wanting to do but I’ve just put it off. This weekend I’m going to do it!! I hope you’re in a better place now (((ss))) __________________ "What is denied, cannot be healed." - Brennan Manning "Hope knows that if great trials are avoided, great deeds remain undone and the possibility of growth into greatness of soul is aborted." - Brennan Manning |
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Poohbah
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Location: Long Island NY
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#98
I am trying to focus but my mind is all over. I am having a hard time falling asleep and when I do I wake up several times to use the bathroom. I got up earlier this morning so I would be tired and go to bed earlier but 2:34 in the morning and I can't stop my brain long enough to go to bed. I know I should be talking to someone but I don't have the money. It scares me a little not having someone to talk to. It scares me to say it scares me. This is what I go through over and over again. I have been trying to vacuum my home for two weeks and I just can't. I don't know why. I just feel fear and than I sit and do nothing. I have a dog and have had to force myself to take him outside. I was walking him but now I just let him into the yard. I don't want to be seen by anyone. I don't even know what that means. I have to get some help. I want to get some help. i will try on monday. maybe
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Poohbah
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#99
Having another really really bad day. right now I feel like crying. i don't know why. I feel deeply sad. so sad. i need help i know that. i am doing things to create debt and i don't know why. i am trying to figure out a way to focus. i do not have the structure i have had had in the past and without the structure i can't focus. everyone is every where. i need help. a lot of help. i need to see a dr. i will try tomorrow to get a dr. i need to start my life but i dont know where it should start. i can't breath. it's anxiety. i know that. i just want all the sounds to stop so i can think. no good
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Solnutty
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Poohbah
Member Since Dec 2011
Location: Long Island NY
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#100
Ok so I went out to the store to get curtain rod things. I began to feel light headed and started to feel panic. I drove straight home. Not to far. I got in the house and can't go out right now even though my wants to go out. I just can't do it. no no no no no. I wish my ears would stop ringing. This has been going on for weeks. usually the ringing isn't as loud as it has been these past few weeks. I am exhausted. So tired
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