[Calla lily12]

If this isn't the right place for this, please tell me.
I seem to be questioning what's real today. It's getting scary. One minute something is undeniably real, then the proof of reality is gone. I'm not sure if this is dissociation or what it is. I'm unsure what more to say, but I'm afraid.

I get like this all the time.

I just posted in your other thread too (the one in feedback)

hugs

[Amyjay]

I experience this a lot as part of my dissociative disorder too. Sometimes a lot more than others.
It's awful to be in a position where your mind is questioning the reality of everything all the time.

[Wild Coyote]

I am sorry you are going through this. It can be very scary.

Does anything help?


WC

[Calla lily12]

I just need to know if I really posted or not.

[Amyjay]

You really did. I see you.

[Amyjay]

There must be a lot of stress around right now for you to need the protection of such intense derealization.

Are there any good grounding techniques that can help you feel a bit more concrete and present in the moment? Maybe physical ones would be most helpful right now... feeling your feet connected to the earth, stretching or yoga, rubbing something soft and soothing against your skin etc??

yesterday I had a signed photograph show up on my doorstep of ross barton from emmerdale (michael par), and couldn't remember ordering it- or even writing to emmerdale

well.. someone inside must have done

I saw the signiture on the paper... ross barton, and I'm like who the ****?

I know who he is, I was..... having a wobble

yes that.

[Calla lily12]

Originally Posted by raging vortex

I saw the signiture on the paper... ross barton, and I'm like who the ****?

I know who he is, I was..... having a wobble

yes that.

Who is that? Is he in a band?

Originally Posted by Calla lily12

Who is that? Is he in a band?

his real name is michael par

he plays a character in an english soap opera I watch called ross barton (the soap opera is called emmerdale)

I wrote to the soap for a signed photo of ross

and they responded with one

yay..

I can be sitting on my bed, in my room, with my stuff- and then it’s like I might as well be on the moon because everything feels foreign with no connection to being mine.

My hand arms go numb and I feel detached to this body (which is a 100% time thing itself) but more-so when dp/dr strikes.

Anxiety is often times the culprit to its trigger, but they do happen unannounced.

Busy busy supermarkets are one of the worse....big store, bright lights, noise, people, colors in symmetry, rows and rows of items stacked....

I ground myself out of this DR daze by reading labels and with calm breathing to a point of tolerability.

[dlantern]

It just denpends on what phase of the journey I'm on. I think running into the right terms is thee greatest convincers..

let us not forget the time where we had plain tickets to greece in our hands without any recollection of ordering them

of course the worst part about that was people using our money without us knowing about it

[Amyjay]

I experience derealization a lot when I am at work, especially when stressed. like now. It's hard to care about not being able to perform my duties because I can't connect to the realness or importance of it. It is all so far away and meaningless. It just doesn't matter.