I know that this is awful...but I’m jealous of those that are physically disabled.

Just because some of them can live happily... I cant.

Sorry.

[MickeyCheeky]

((((AlwaysChanging2)))) I'm sorry you're feeling this way. But please, remember that you can live happily as well. Try not to be jealous... be inspired instead.

There's no need to be sorry! Some of us (somewhat) physically (and also somewhat mentally handicapped) are striving for all of us to live together in harmony.

don't feel sorry.

I have been envious of people too (usually people without anxiety disorders), who can go to concerts and stuff

[amandalouise]

Originally Posted by AlwaysChanging2

I know that this is awful...but I’m jealous of those that are physically disabled.

Just because some of them can live happily... I cant.

Sorry.

I can tell you from having many physical disabilities that having DID was actually easier on me then the physical disabilities.

example using grounding, breathing I can control my dissociating. once i was able to handle all my problems on my own with out dissociating my alters merged together to form one whole personality again.

my MS well thats a physical health problem where the covering over my nerves are breaking down, this causes pain, hallucinations, trouble breathing, trouble walking, talking, seeing, hearing, I am legally not permitted to drive because of the MS ... a whole mess of problems, Im in medication but thats not a cure, eventually I will die from this as my lung muscles no longer work, nerves and muscles that help my organs no longer work.

this is just my most severe physical problem, I have others too that limit my mobility and daily functioning.

Before my alters were all integrated they did not hinder my daily functioning, I just did things based on triggers and which alter took care of that trigger. yea I never remembered everything I did from day to day but again I was this way since before I was 5 so not being able to remember things before I was integrated was no big deal, everything that came with being DID was my normal. just the way I was. just like this friend has red hair and that one has blue eyes and that friend can be a bit obnoxious and that one likes to pull pranks... I was the way I was, since before age 5 and that was my normal, what wasnt normal for me was integration and after integration .

my suggestion is maybe since you know your internal system you can ask them to help you more.

unless of course this feeling bad to you is you integrating (I cant remember who on here is integrating and who isnt at the moment) in that case contacting yours or a treatment provider may help you to get through this not your normal side of things.

[dlantern]

Yea really it could be worse...