[MtnTime2896]

What's happening? Why do "new ones" keep showing up? How many are there? Why the hell is this happening? How is this okay?

Am I just crazy?

[amandalouise]

Originally Posted by Só leigheas

What's happening? Why do "new ones" keep showing up? How many are there? Why the hell is this happening? How is this okay?

Am I just crazy?

One of my therapists once told me.... DID type alters do not just suddenly appear one day, this kind of alters are there the persons whole lifetime. when I feel like new alters are showing up it can be one of two things in me....

1. they have been there all my life I just was not co conscious with them, to know they existed.

2 they were not one of my dissociative type alters but related to my other problems like medication induced, psychosis induced, physical health problems induced...

I have had both situations happen to me. the first kind was never triggering or upsetting to me because whether I knew it or not I had alters since before I was 5 so finding out another one was there was nothing new or triggering to me. but I did sometimes wonder why I was not co conscious with all my alters all at once instead of part of the integration/ healing process. in me it was ok because it showed great progress and healing and that one day I would no longer be DID.

my suggestion is talk with your treatment providers they will be able to answer your question as to why "new alters" keep coming up for you, and get you on the right treatment plans so that this does not keep happening for you.

[MtnTime2896]

Product of trauma counseling and you not being stable, maybe? Not trying to be rude, but it seems like that'd make sense. Anyone agree or disagree?

[MickeyCheeky]

You're not "crazy", Sò leigheas. You're just struggling, and it's not your fault. DID can have many causes, and yes, what you mentioned may be it. It's clear that you're trying your best to cope with it. I'm so sorry you're struggling, my friend. I hope your situation will improve soon. Please don't give up. I hope talking here helps a bit. It's not much, but at least it's something. Stay safe and take care of yourself, my friend. You can do this! You're strong, I know that. I just wish I could do more to help you or offer more advice. But I promise that I'll listen. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. You know I'm always available to talk. Sending many hugs to you

[Amyjay]

Maybe because "This is trauma?"

I don't know... if you had always been hurt and denied and suppressed and abandoned and then suddenly the person that had denied you (you) was suddenly more open to knowing, wouldn't you want to step forth into the light?

The good news is you can talk "aloud" to them (it doesn't matter if you are aware of "them" hearing you or not) and tell them you know they are there, they are important, they matter and you do want to know their stories, but you need them to go slowly and gently and it is going to take time.

When a new one seems to *appear*, we try to figure out what their job is. We found some hide the trauma. It takes several to present *normal*to the world. One deals with doctors. A couple work etc. In our system each was created for a reason. When we find the reason not only can we better understand but we know who to call on when we need help. One we joke about a lot is OCD & a clean freak.She keeps our place orderly & clean.A place for everything & everything in it's place. Call her our live in maid service! But she's acutely aware of a change in our environment which in our traumatic past was a clue to danger. Is it ok? No. But they helped us survive when others in our same situation didn't. Kept us functional when others ended up institutionalized. You all can work together. There are just days when we want to scream enough is enough. Go away. So we do. Even kick & scream & throw things & lecture God. Then we calm down & greet the new one.

[MtnTime2896]

I'm just feeling really overwhelmed as of late. I'm sorry.

[Amyjay]

No need to be sorry. Some times are just like that.
Try and remember in amongst it all to do self caring things, gentle and kind things, to balance out the hard bits and keep it all a bit more bearable.

[kecanoe]

Originally Posted by Só leigheas

I'm just feeling really overwhelmed as of late. I'm sorry.

This stuff is overwhelming. Post here anytime.

[dlantern]

I protect a few thoughts words from the other for the time being until you can safetly know what is lost for those moments when there is reintroduction. The mind doesn't have to get soo big unless it actually needs too.

In our case....we endured our antogonistic abuser till we were 18 years of age, and quite a lot of splitting off we did...parts looking for identities.... I swear we had several parts growing up at the same time like multiple childhoods and aging...

But hidden parts layered in and buried...maybe triggered out by thought or sense...Idk...I often feel that there is more then you know or think.

Idk your experiences and length of circumstances....but after a lifetime of nonstop daily abuse...you are going to have a bunch of alters.

[MickeyCheeky]

Don't be sorry, Sò leigheas. It's not your fault if you're struggling so much. Feel free to write here as much as you want. We're here for you. I hope you'll feel better soon. Please don't give up. Stay safe and take care of yourself. You can do this! You're strong, I know that. I believe in you. I'm here for you, my friend. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. You know I'm always here for you. I'll listen to what you have to say. I care about you. I won't judge you. Stay strong, Sò leigheas. We all love you here. Sending many hugs to you

[Fuzzybear]

(((((((( So leigheas ))))))))

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by Só leigheas

Product of trauma counseling and you not being stable, maybe? Not trying to be rude, but it seems like that'd make sense. Anyone agree or disagree?

This makes sense to me. You’re definitely not “crazy”....... and neither am I.