Second guessing myself

I dont seem like anyone here.

I'm so sorry you're hurting so much, Dnester What differences do you see between you and the others on this forum? I understand your diagnosis may be hard to accept, but try not to stress yourself over it. From what you wrote, it seems like you definitely have DID to me. I hope your therapist will be able to help you. Try not to resist the help you're getting. The sooner you'll accept help, the sooner you'll be able to get help. I'm so sorry, I know it's hard. Please don't give up. Is there anything we can do to help you? Please let us know. Remember that we're here for you if you need it. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. Wish you good luck! Let us know how it goes. I'm so sorry you have to deal with this

You're not supposed to.

Everyone is unique and has their own personal experiences.It's not a one size fits all kinda thing and it's also not a competition or a comparison.

Me neither. I feel like I just don’t have it that bad being what has happened in the past that I can remember (which would probably fit on a piece of paper): really wasn’t that bad.

I do have other personalities that take over...but the awareness goes on even through another part, but all the memories is theirs and stays with them. Since an awareness between parts somewhat exist while people with DID (assuming) don’t have this...I fit in a gray area all my own...welcome to my gray area.

Sometimes I can pull back from the front and watch, like being in the backseat of a car not doing the driving. Sometimes I think that I’m a mindless eyeball that just watches and sometimes think- interacting with life through the others or as them.

Right now, I’m in head talking through a female outward part I can tell by the way she talks and moves, typing the stuff I say and my head voice very muted. Also fading away as I lose focus to the front with the conscious as she is assuming control and awareness...which begs the question..am I just a part, too?

How is it for you? I bet it’s not the same.

I usually find a replier in my environment and re teach her from there. Usually for us best way to check an influence change

My chatter is usually minimal during the day but at night when I am not doing anything its active. It makes no sense really. I dont lose time. I dont feel like anyone takes over my body. Accept for Thorne, she smiles at bad things but I always wondered if that was BPD. They dont sound any different than thoughts really. Sometimes at night I may feel a memory getting ready to pop up and in my head I will shout No Pippa! or some other random thing. Or have a conversation with myself like today. I am congested then reply you need to go to the doctor. It doesnt sound like different people though. I realize I dont have DID. I wish there were OSDD specific forums.

Have you tried social media? Granted a bunch of it is....real?

I have looked everywhere. Reddit is the only thing close.

Anyone elses chatter only active at night?

sorry dnester my alters chatter happened in all aspects of my life not just at night.

though I do have to say my intrusive thoughts which is different than having alters and different than hearing my alters thoughts and all that did happen quite frequently at night. my own treatment providers called this normal. that everyone whether they have a mental disorder or not have thoughts / talking to their self sometimes mostly at night when there are no other distractions from them going on.

my suggestion is if this continues to contact your treatment providers. they will be able to help you to discover what your chatter is and what you need to do to stop it from interfering with your nights.

I'm wondering if maybe you're having intrusive/obsessive thoughts at night.I had that and my therapist suggested Seroquel to ease it.It was very different than hearing other parts of myself.

Ok, I will talk to my therapist about that.

My alters are not only active at night. They take over my days.

Idk, it seems like the Others likes to have a big pow wow usually at about 3 a.m. every night whilst Im asleep, or trying to, at least. I sometimes yell at them to stfu let alone beg at times.

Getting up for a minute, reading a few posts helps focuses my attention back front and then I usually get some more sleep...actually the best sleep right prior to the alarm ruining that last little tidbit of lights out.