Today

Today I talked with my old psychologist on the phone. Asked her some questions about my chatter because my therapist told me to. So I get on the phone and I am telling her things the chatter is saying and she keeps interrupting me saying that is alters and then i would say something else and she would be like alters and then she said I will meet with you and your t if you would like but I already explained to her what was going on with you. The question is I will only be seeing my t for a month and a half until she goes on a three month vacation then i will be seeing my old psychologist. Do you think it would be worth it if I am only going to be discussing it with her for one month and a half months? Or should I not worry about it?. I kind of want to make sure we are all on the same page.

How many years is it since you saw your old psychologist?

I cant remember to be honest I think it was sometime between 2003 and 2008.

Ok. So a really long time ago. And didn't you say she doesn't remember you?

She said she does. I dont know how much of my case she remembers but she has sat down with my therapist and spoken with her. I wasnt there so I dont know exactly what they talked about.

Okay. Sorry, I thought she didn't for some reason.
About your question : do your two therapists think it will be worth it? I guess they are in the best position to know about that?

Well I had a session with my T today and she encourages it. We will all be meeting next Wed.

Getting irritated again and nervous. I know I am wishy washy. So I talked to my old psychologist and my T about meeting together to talk about what is going on with me because my old psychologist is dissociative disorders and T is not. I want to know exactly what is going on so I dont waste time in therapy. I wanted to know if they both think this is a dissociative thing because in May I will be seeing old one then in August going back to this T. My T was talkimg about IFS so I was like ok you think this is normal parts not dissociative parts. I value her opinion most because she has seen me for the past year. She said I will support A (old psychologist) now I am freaking because my old psychologist is known for giving DID, OSDD etc diagnosis willy nilly. Maybe she will tell me again I have a dissociative disorder when I dont. Maybe I should see a new doc or should I just trust her because she is the best in my state? If I did see a new doc and they said I didnt have a dissociative disorder then I would wonder if they were wrong and she was right. Im NEVER just going to be at peace. Also, today I got s call from my sleep doctor that my oxygen drops to 78% at night which explains my feeling like I havent been breathing at night when I wake up but now I am afraid to sleep!

Why cant she just tell me her unbiased opinion?

only your therapist can say why she isnt giving you an opinion either way or any which way on whether you have dissociative disorders and what have you...

that said I can take a guess based on information that you have posted about yourself.... you have hypochondria.

this causes people to feel like they have problems that they dont have and to blow what they do have out of proportion.

maybe she is trying to make it so that you will settle down and accept you are how ever you are and not worry so much about diagnosis's, labeling and trying to fit yourself into diagnosis and labels.

whether or not someone is diagnosed with something or not does not change the problems that they have, it doesnt change their symptoms or even understanding all the things about a mental disorder.

all getting a diagnosis is, is throwing a bunch of symptoms together and naming them...

kind of like every cat with out a tail is called manx or every dog of a certain breed with a smushed nose and wringles are called pugs, being called these names doesnt change the fact that one pug can have digestive problems and another not have digenstive problems, one manx cat may have bone problems and other may not,

all being diagnosed says is that you have met "diagnostic criteria set by the APA" it doesnt say what kind of person you are or what your own individual problems are or even what treatments will work for you.

all it does is name what diagnostic criteria the American psychiatric association says a person has to meet in order to be called this or that disorder.

maybe your therapists are doing what millions of treatment providers around the USA are now doing.... moving away from having a mental disorder name define who a person is, and instead working with them on their problems not as a disorder.

Your treatment providers have already told you what your disorders are called according to your past posts, so now its time to move beyond looking for disorder names and work on your own problems, how your problems affect your life instead of focusing on disorder names...

mind you all this is guesswork based on your past posts. to actually get your answers to your questions you will need to ask your treatment providers why they are not talking with you in frames of disorder names and labels any more. Why they are not giving you their own opinions about what disorders you have.

I think she said she will support what my old psychologist said because she is a dissociative disorders specialist and my t knows very little about it. I am not a hypochondriac when it comes to psychological issues. The only thing I would be devastated to have would be schizophrenia. I am a hypochondriac about my health though.