Came out again

Thorne came out again today. There was a little baby that got upset and she laughed. I am supposed to be seeing my DID specialist next week. I hope she can give me some guidance on all the stuff I am experiencing. Someone told me Thorne is there to protect me. How is she protecting me when she makes me feel bad? I am going to my moms some over the summer. She talks about horrible things. Mainly stuff on the news and I dont like to watch the news it activates Thorne and I am stuck trying not to smile at awful things she thinks are funny. I definitely think my mom picks up on my facial expressions. I cant tell my mom about Thorne. Well I could be I wont. She already thinks the worst of me in regards to my mental status. How can I keep Thorne in check around my mom?

I cant tell you how to keep your alters in check. only you and your alters know how your system is set up and what to do about things inside and outside your body.

what I can tell you is what .............my............treatment provider and I did for ..............my own................system of alters....

when I was worried about my alters doing things my treatment provider asked me a question.... "How have you lived for the past 20 plus years? getting a diagnosis doesnt change anything but answers how my body and mind has been since before age 5, so how have I survived since I was 5 on up through adulthood?

having DID and alters isnt something that just happens one day out of the blue as an adult or teen. its a dissociative disorder that begins in very early childhood. all the problems and answers are there already. to answer what I should be doing to control my alters I had to look at how I managed all my whole life time before age 5.

the answer for me and my alters was I could not control my alters and shouldnt even try. they already were who and what they were and hand their own sense of agency. and if I could survive before age 5 all those things that cased me to have DID to begin with, and then survive into adulthood, then survive getting a dissociative disorder diagnosis and have the kind of life I already have then there was nothing for me to do in the way of controlling my alters.

my suggestion look at your life... since you are here posting you know you survived. though you have had the diagnosis OSDD only a few years if you have dissociative alters they have been there your whole life time already doing what and being who they are in order to ensure your survival. only you and your alters can know how you managed to survive all these years and have the kind of life that you have, have all the things you have...

my suggestion is ask your alters how you all managed to survive what ever it is that caused you to have a dissociative disorder, ask yourself and them how you managed to live to the age that you are, with out someone, not even treatment providers being able to know they were there and diagnose you until now.

that will give you an idea of what you need to continue to survive like you have all these years since before you were 5.