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Default May 04, 2019 at 03:30 PM
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I need to know how the observer perceives switches...

There is an internal war; and i just need to figure out what this chaos is so i can try to learn why im not able to control things so much and why it seem that the oneself keeps doing.. what im doing..? And no seeming ability to stop this


Im in pain and feel really bad about not being a person, i dont like this blank self

please give information about personal observer switching ..

im tired off watching all this...

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Default May 04, 2019 at 07:03 PM
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I need to know how the observer perceives switches...

There is an internal war; and i just need to figure out what this chaos is so i can try to learn why im not able to control things so much and why it seem that the oneself keeps doing.. what im doing..? And no seeming ability to stop this


Im in pain and feel really bad about not being a person, i dont like this blank self

please give information about personal observer switching ..

im tired off watching all this...
not sure what you mean by personal observer... is this a therapy approach and if so then your treatment provider will explain to you what that means and how to do it.

you can also reread your past posts where you have already talked about noticing when you have switched.

All I can tell you is that how one person switches may be different for another given the fact that switching is a medical and mental process associated to when someone is triggered so extremely that they have their dissociation symptoms.

only you know the hows and whys of your triggers and switching. my suggestion is talk with your treatment provider they will be able to help you figure out what is your dissociation symptoms and so on based on the fact that they diagnosed you with Borderline personality disorder which is different than how things are done with dissociative disorders.

the borderline personality board folks may also be able to help you with your borderline personality disorder switching.
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Default May 05, 2019 at 01:28 PM
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Im just very anxious about my iminent demise?
I feel as though i fail at everything and i am not consistent or reliable!

I am unable to work and support myself... i dont serm to be self sustainable... and my self perseverance skills are not good...

Im trying to hide away from everything for a few days to hopefully recalibrate and find myself

Its no therapy model .. im just trying to figure out how to put these things into english in a way that can be comprehended...

Im afraid but its tied up and put in the back, afraid because i know my challenge and see how very low the possibility of my success is... but running the up front to try, atleast, because i do want it... and believe i can do it, if i could just .. handle what ever is causing this .. problem... whatever it is...

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Default May 05, 2019 at 01:57 PM
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Im just very anxious about my iminent demise?
I feel as though i fail at everything and i am not consistent or reliable!

I am unable to work and support myself... i dont serm to be self sustainable... and my self perseverance skills are not good...

Im trying to hide away from everything for a few days to hopefully recalibrate and find myself

Its no therapy model .. im just trying to figure out how to put these things into english in a way that can be comprehended...

Im afraid but its tied up and put in the back, afraid because i know my challenge and see how very low the possibility of my success is... but running the up front to try, atleast, because i do want it... and believe i can do it, if i could just .. handle what ever is causing this .. problem... whatever it is...

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Im sorry but only your own treatment providers can help you with death issues. (your wording iminent demise)

psych central has a disclaimer at the bottom of every page that we are not supposed to be a substitute for your own treatment providers diagnostics or treatments. which means we can not tell you what to do or how to do things. all we can do is tell you how your problems fit into our own lives.

I dont have the kind of erratic mood switching that you have. in short dissociation is about not feeling, not experiencing erratic moods and plans for an eminent demise. its about surviving thanks to the brains natural process of shutting out everything traumatic and going on with life as if everything is A-ok. no problems here.

treatment for dissociation is learning how to not dissociate and stay connected to feelings and emotions.

Borderline is different its about feeling too much, erratic mood switching and a chaotic life. treatment for it is the opposite of dissociative disorders where you are taught to control your feelings, control your behaviors. not take things to the extreme of suicidal thoughts.

my suggestion is contact your treatment providers. they are the ones that diagnosed you with borderline not dissociation so they would be the best people to help you if you are worried about your eminent demise (death)
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Default May 05, 2019 at 06:14 PM
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Im going to try to get new therapist that can offer more intensive help

but... this just does not seem good
i dont know how i am here today... if i am really here 😕
Just feels like a lost cause.. like there is really nothing I can do ...

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