We're falling apart and I have no game plan

You have to wonder, what makes someone with DID require hospitalization? If one is suicidal, does that justify it or not - because another personality can step in and assist. What if one of the personalities is falling into a psychotic episode? What do we do about that? It's getting increasingly difficult for us to take over when he's having his episodes.

Does this need to be treated with hospitalization where they will dope us up, say that we're not real and probably send us to state at this point. Or do I need to stay home and try to treat this myself. Like I always do. Holding all of this crap together. I'm so tired of it. Sometimes I want to let it fall apart.

- Mile0.

Im sorry we cant tell you what to do for you, but I can tell you what I did when something similar happened to be. I contacted my treatment providers and spent sometime in a hospital to get stabilized.

this was not a bad thing for me because the fact that others were not taking control and letting one or me handle the situation actually showed improvement, healing and part of the integration process.

I tried so many times to get my therapist to tell me how to get the others to take control. she said it doesn't work that way. when the alters are not taking control no matter why, its because I have healed enough to handle things by myself with out dissociating every which way. she even asked when the suicidal / psychotic one was in control why others could not do so, and that alter said because they cant handle this I am the one that knows how to handle being psychotic and suicidal. that what I do.

while inpatient we talked about what possibly could be triggering the psychosis (hallucinations and delusions) adjusted my meds. and we discussed why I was suicidal what triggered that response, in other words why was the psychotic/ suicidal alter in control. that was when I was diagnosed Bipolar disorder. after I was stabile on antipsychotics / antidepressants for my bipolar disorder my brain naturally switched back to my normal awareness instead of the dissociated side of my personalities.

my suggestion if this continues to bother you contact yours or a mental health treatment provider who can help you get stabilized for what ever the trigger may be that has caused this psychotic/ suicidal alter to be in control (in other words their sense of agency and what in your life caused your brain to switch into being this alter)

I find being doped up scary. But there are additional reasons for me I find this scary. It’s beyond disrespectful saying you are not ‘real’
Some who Know All Things have told me I am not real.
But they don’t even know me
And they never will..
I have no reasons to respect them with their lack of insight, cruelty, malignant narcissism and callousness (irl)
However as I am not (and never was) what they said I am I don’t harm them as they have harmed me
I don’t have answers but i’m Here to support you.

I have no game plan either. I think you know what forest we live in
It sickens me, their repeated and intentional invalidation and disrespect (irl)
Even if I was not real the ‘host’ is a person who has endured repeated violations and abuse. And repeated injustices and wrong disgusting labelling. It makes me

feel sick. And there is a lot of sick.
Sorry for the long post.
The cave (yeah I know none of us including me were ever real, so none of us have ever been alive..)

Ps I just made papa bear feel sick
He very rarely likes to hear from me. All I said was ‘there is a lot of sick’

He does know I’m a bear

((((Fuzzybear))))

Why do you think you would go to a State hospital? Have hospitals threatened you with that before?

This caused much internal discussion. We didn't always know there were others we could call on for help. Then it took a long time to learn to ask who can help. Longer still to allow them. Should say there is beneficial & nonbeneficial assistance. There are quick ways to stop it but they usually result in a different set of problems. This reminded me of something my T said. We didn't tell him something that was going on cuz we were sure he'd try to hospitalized us. He said that would be very unlikely. He said he would accompany us if we went voluntarily & he may try to convince us to do go. But if he tried to force us, we could just convince the hospital it wasn't necessary. Thought he meant we were a good talker!! But yea, we could just have another disaffected do the evaluation. Other than something systemic say meds..we don't take psych meds.. can see how it would be difficult now to force hospitalization.

If I can help it I will never, never enter another psych hospital. Last time, I was arrested to the hospital in hand cuffs for absolutely no other reason than I told someone (who called 911 on me, against my very sincere request not to) that I thought I was going to die that night. The cops insisted I intended suicide. I did not intend that, at all. I was just overwhelmed and truly was afraid I would die that night.

But that's just me, and of course *they* (hospital staff) don't know that they cannot force The Sleeping One to be hospitalized. But the separation from each other is literally painful for us. Some people, however, feel safer in the hospital.