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I’m currently living in pain and confusion. I wanted guidance and answers, but am now need to come in trust and patience.
I’m going to be alright. I know I will. New things do come and I will have to adapt it. I will. True love will come. I’ve never known that and only a perverted way of love, where I was abused, raped and molested daily. Yes of course it will. I just have to calm down and believe. There’s nothing I could do now, as I even have done all that I can to seek direction. I don’t want to be confused anymore. Very soon I will be known as I’m known. I still haven’t told all that I’ve remembered to anyone yet. The traumatic memories of my ritual abuse needs a lot of trust and safety. I didn’t know who I am, but now I know. There’s no way I’ve done what I’ve done against my abusers during the survival. It can never be initiated by me, but my other parts also, for such accuracy in both timing and plan. I didn’t planned it. I’m glad I’m safe now and have survived. I’m alive and I’m glad. I want a world without pain, sorrows and hopelessness. I want a world without death altogether, that not one would suffer. I believe. __________________ Official Psychiatric Dx. Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, Complex Dissociative Identity Disorder |
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Hi abusedtoy.
How beautifully, eloquently and poignantly you write. Your words are so vivid and visceral and I can certainly identify with what you wrote. Thank you so much for sharing what you wrote. I also hope for so many of the things you hope for. My English is not very good but hopefully I have been able to express myself well enough for you to understand what I said. I wish you only good things! -- Yaowen |
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