[stahrgeyzer]

Feeling unusual and dissociated as usual but fine. Going to my DBT therapist in awhile.

[Breaking Dawn]

Doing much better today than yesterday.

[stahrgeyzer]

Ok. Hanging in there. Learning about subsystems. Learning about alters who're not aware they're an alter. Alters who are living in the past at a hospital. There's an alter everyone is asking me to please save. He's just an infant suffering too much. So it's heartbreaking.

[Breaking Dawn]

I have been trying to figure out a way to end this nightmare experience so I can be the way I was before. I was doing so well & then this happened. I wish so much I could get back to where I was.

[Taylor27]

Today was a rough start but it got better as the day went on. I had trouble with my bank and my step Mom is very unsupportive. She really upset me and i still have to process it. It's hard to let it go. Day program helped me get my mind off of it and my husband is making a good supper tonight. I might call my therapist and let her know about this morning. She is very supportive.

[stahrgeyzer]

Overall fine today. Searching for a new DID psychologist. There're some scary weird things about him. I've told other people with DID. They say get away from him. Ugg, took so long to find him! Bought 2 books today on amazon. Can only read 1 at a time. Buying makes me feel better lol.

[Breaking Dawn]

I had fallen asleep & discovered when I woke up that I had eaten an avocado. The evidence was there but with no memory of having eaten it. So I think my suspicion of having a dissociative disorder is kind of trying to send me a message. I was told years ago that I was "dissociating". It was very sad & painful back then. I don't understand what is happening now. Is it because of the pandemic?

[Fuzzybear]

I feel sick. I don’t know why I am here

[Fuzzybear]

As I am a bear, maybe papa bear can put me to sleep. I hope so

[Taylor27]

Lazy day here another 10cm of snow fell last night making the roads very icy. Tomorrow i go to day program.

today, a member of my care team emailed me saying that she wanted contact with my mother to keep her updated on how I was doing.

I kindly informed her that this wouldn ot be possible, as she is not in the country, and we've not spoken in years because of abuse

she insisted more, and I got sort of nasty about it. well, it is a touchy subject and a part of my life that I see as over now

chapter abuse from my mother: closed

flashbacks this morning, and 2 panic attacks today

adding to the 2 I had on both wednesday and thursday

[Breaking Dawn]

I understand, @raging vortex. You're right. Hang in there. Hugs to you!

[Amyjay]

Originally Posted by raging vortex

today, a member of my care team emailed me saying that she wanted contact with my mother to keep her updated on how I was doing.

I kindly informed her that this wouldn ot be possible, as she is not in the country, and we've not spoken in years because of abuse

she insisted more, and I got sort of nasty about it. well, it is a touchy subject and a part of my life that I see as over now

chapter abuse from my mother: closed

flashbacks this morning, and 2 panic attacks today

adding to the 2 I had on both wednesday and thursday

Goodness no, what was she thinking? You're a fully grown adult, right? How bizarre. Good on you for telling her no.

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by raging vortex

today, a member of my care team emailed me saying that she wanted contact with my mother to keep her updated on how I was doing.

I kindly informed her that this wouldn ot be possible, as she is not in the country, and we've not spoken in years because of abuse

she insisted more, and I got sort of nasty about it. well, it is a touchy subject and a part of my life that I see as over now

chapter abuse from my mother: closed

flashbacks this morning, and 2 panic attacks today

adding to the 2 I had on both wednesday and thursday

Why are these people so incompetent? ugh. I do not get it

Good that you told her NO.

Originally Posted by Amyjay

Goodness no, what was she thinking? You're a fully grown adult, right? How bizarre. Good on you for telling her no.

people don't think, amyjay. people don't think and it's sad

Originally Posted by Breaking Dawn

I understand, @raging vortex. You're right. Hang in there. Hugs to you!

I wish their was a thread for people who hated our mothers/ family.

I'd use it a lot just to rant

my back still hurts.

locked this morning at like 4 A.M and it was agony

not as bad as it was (I couldn't even move), but it still hurts a dam lot.

I hate you fibro

[Fuzzybear]

Maybe some people do think... and are malicious.

I find it very hard to believe any ''professional'' could be THAT incompetent

Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

[Amyjay]

Originally Posted by raging vortex

I wish their was a thread for people who hated our mothers/ family.

I'd use it a lot just to rant

You could make one. I am sure there would be more than a couple of people who would welcome the opportunity to rant!

[Amyjay]

Originally Posted by Fuzzybear

Maybe some people do think... and are malicious.

I find it very hard to believe any ''professional'' could be THAT incompetent

Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

And yet, here we all are with our stories.