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Default Jun 18, 2020 at 02:10 AM
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I would love to go back to being dissoicated all day every day. Go through life not feeling a damn ****ing thing. Feelings, emotions FU !!
Dissociation, I had no idea the wonderful work you did for me, and now that your not around much, I want you the **** back! you are my best friend !! I want to go back to when you and I had not clue as to what was going on in life. I miss you dissociation. Please find your way back to me...I am here waiting...
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Default Jun 19, 2020 at 04:44 AM
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Hey just2b, I felt the same as you feel now about two and a half months ago. Emotions that I didn't feel for I don't know how long came back, and I felt that I would give anything just to go back to being dissociated. The first month was difficult, but the second one was almost unbearable. I can absolutely identify with what you are saying. It was a torture. I haven't even been aware there is such an array of emotions to feel, I think that for most of my life I have been illiterate about what do I feel. After two and a half months it is comparatively better, even though I still wish for dissociation to come back sometimes. Hang on in there. Best, A.
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Default Aug 13, 2020 at 10:56 PM
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Well dissociation certainly found its way back, and is often with me everyday now.
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Dissociation, you make my life a living HELL.
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Default Sep 29, 2020 at 02:36 PM
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Dissociation, you make my life a living HELL.
I'm sorry you're struggling. I hope things ease up for you soon.
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Default Oct 05, 2020 at 07:36 PM
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Dissociation, just make me numb, but functional for my 6th grader. He needs mom at times not the many younger ones you feel like at times. 90 days or more with no T, i feel as if you want to bring on Depersonalization at times, but if needed just do on the weekends when the 6th grader is with his dad. then you can do whatever you want. numb. and drink. D & D get me throught the next 90 days or so......
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Dissociation and Numbness, thank you !! You have done so much for me. The moment that I am able to feel, is the moment that I realise that I miss you.
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Default Nov 10, 2020 at 10:27 PM
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a friend that will never ever leave...thanks dissociation!
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Dissociation has invited disconnection to stay a while, its a good thing as therapy is all most over...and never ever will i have to put up with the emotional roller coaster my T makes me feel. She is stronger than me, as i wish i could hold her belief that one day i will feel like i am my age and not a child.
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Default Dec 02, 2020 at 10:04 AM
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Been a good week so far, ... as far as I recall lol. Knock on wood! Just trying to get used to switching headaches, especially in the mornings since a lot of them like to switch then. I learned they're called TITH, Transitional Interpersonality Thunderclap Headaches. Mine are always in the forehead frontal lobe, which is where these DID switching headaches are, but also feel it on top of my head (only in front though) a bit, but maybe that's only from spreading from forehead.
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hope all is better with you @stahrgeyzer
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Default Dec 15, 2020 at 04:20 PM
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@just2b Thanks I'm okay today. An angel part in the system took over and pretty much saved me. Made an emergency appointment with psychiatrist. Now I'm on meds again and feeling much better.
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Default Dec 15, 2020 at 09:25 PM
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Dissociation has invited disconnection to stay a while, its a good thing as therapy is all most over...and never ever will i have to put up with the emotional roller coaster my T makes me feel. She is stronger than me, as i wish i could hold her belief that one day i will feel like i am my age and not a child.
I am also hopeful for you (I have also experienced some emotional roller coaster experiences with T's...)

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Default Dec 23, 2020 at 05:22 PM
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after my appt with T we talked through email and she agreed to reply to a check in email atleast once a week until I can see her more regularly we are on a monthly basis for now.
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Think my dissociation has turned into chronic apathetic mood or something....oh well.
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