Why would the "thoughts" change?

My therapist is sort of on the fence about DID for me. She diagnosed me, took it away, then says I dont know. So we just do our own thing in therapy. Im fine with it. Unfortunately though when I have questions sometimes she doesn't know the answers because she knows very little about dissociative disorders. She admitted that (I do have a DID diagnosis from a specialist in my area but some red flags have been raised so I dont trust her opinion) Anyway, I have thoughts. I call them that because they sound like me (me just thinking) but they arent coming from me. They comment on things or say things I dont think like thoughts but are foreign to me. I have not been diagnosed schizophrenic and I dont hear voices. My therapist thinks I may hear thoughts because things were so overwhelming I didn't want to feel them when I was little. Im going to ask her more about that next week. Why I'm here after writing all my history is that my "thoughts" sound different. They arent as loud as they were. They kind of just blend in a little (I can still tell them apart) but they blend in with my regular thoughts more. They arent as scary. I dont remember having them in childhood or at all really until 2 1/2 years ago. So I was 41 then. My therapist said that its possible I wouldn't have recognized them (the foreign thoughts I call chatter). Im wondering why they have changed in sound? Dhe doesn't know much about DID like I said so any thoughts would help. TIA

I do, or did, have Dissociatve Disorder, but had a lot of therapy for it from a good T. What you think and feel about it sounds like you are right about your inner division, and T doesn't have enough experience to know. If you aren't too attached to T , maybe you could find a T who really does know instead of keeping you wondering.

I'm very attached to my T.

I think it's ok that your T doesn't have all the answers. Even an expert in dissociative disorders isn't going to know every single thing about it or about their client.They are not living your individual, unique experience to fully comprehend. They can guess by what they've learned but they definitely cannot know it all.

That being said,what do you think the thoughts are and why do you think they've changed? That's what matters.

All your answers are already inside you. You just need to keep working on looking inside to find them.

Problem is I dont know. My therapist and pdoc dont know either. One speculates dissociation and one speculates psychosis. So who knows.

You've been at this for a long time,the not knowing what your actual diagnosis is.

It wouldn't hurt to find someone new. It doesn't mean you have to stop seeing your T ,I understand you're attached,but maybe see someone else along with her?

Idk. If you don't feel you're making progress that's something to consider

I can sort of relate. I've been wondering about myself although I never got an official diagnosis. I hear my thoughts, I've heard voices ( including things that would never come from me ( offensive and disturbing), plus a bunch of other " symptoms" . I was told I don't have schizophrenia. I've been told contradictory things by Ts and I just don't know anymore . Also my view on this changes- from thinking there's something to it to "You're completely crazy for thinking that" . I "mico" lose time as far as I know. It's very puzzling. I guess time will show. Keep us posted here