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Old 07-02-2017, 05:13 PM #1
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I think my underlying mental state has dictated my relationship with food for most of my life. As a child, I was forced to eat mince, at my babysitters and it was lump it or like it. I was afraid to ask for things to eat and drink at home and at the honey monsters. At school an auxiliary would observe me eating to make sure I did. I was like 5.
But it's blurry and when I hit teens I amazingly had a healthy relationship with food. I would pinch meat at Sunday Dinner when their back was turned, enjoying vegetables, potatoes and meat alike.
I was a kid willing to try things.
But as my mood sank, I just lost interest in things that brought me a spell of comfort, contentedness. Coupled with fact I spent my money on other things, food took a back seat. It was just to survive, a means of providing energy.
As an aspiring athlete I didn't consume enough nourishing food, I was quite sporadic. Get by for days on grapes, chocolate and bread then eat my weight in cake realising I was starving.
I was brought up on plain uninspiring food, and at 18 I had never even tasted a chicken korma. I never touched carbonated juice until I drank alcohol. Yeah, I musta lived under a rock.
I think my ex fiancé had a tinge of an eating disorder.
I was just a typical bi-polar, my moods dictated my habits. I did what I felt like doing. Three square meals, whatever. When I got outta hospital at 24 I survived on half a pack of biscuits a day for a month. It was only when I started seeing spiders form in the darkness, hallucinating that I ate a nutri-grain bar and began to eat again and not just drink.
My brother went to the chip shop nearly every night as my mothers cooking was not the best. He would throw his scones from lunchtime in our garden at the side - dumba%S lol should of used the bin at school.
I developed a penchant towards fast food for a while, nothing major but I was a useless cook, my tablets made me crave tasty food, I had been introduced to all sorts from a pals and old flames, making up for lost time.
I had hung around with an old pal who ate so much junk I was gobsmacked. I blame her for my bad teeth, all those sweets, ice cream, crisps, fruit polo's.
I remember two of my pals would have a Chinese every weekend I normally turned up after practice. I would go to nick a chip and they would say deadly serious "you should get your own" and they would eat what I would in four days! My ex did the same when we ordered pizza onetime. I asked for a few chips and he snapped "why didn't you get your own " and refused me.
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Default The auxiliary was unnecessary. Jamie Oliver is Fab

There was no need for an auxiliary to watch me eat for a few weeks. I simply did not like school dinners. I hated kids food like waffles, chicken dippers and I didn't like custard as a kid. Cheap and cheerful disgusting food.
Would you force a child appearing to be vegetarian to eat meat? No. That is used as material in horror films for crying out loud.
So when I changed to cold dinners and could eat sandwiches and fruit . Problem solved. Packed lunches were what I preferred. My mum was good at giving variety in packed lunch. Even if some people would scoff at Digestives and cheese.
My friend would swap with me now and again. I think she was scared to ask me lol u can have my choc biscuits or crisps if you like I'd say I didn't always eat my fruit. I remember those Onken yoghurts with a toy in middle. Loved them.
Even In high school, I didn't really like a hot meal at lunch and tea. So I stuck to sandwiches. I liked the excuse of escaping hone for lunch . Some of my friends were difficult to get along with. My skin would feel really greasy if I ate a big hot meal at lunch as a teen. I couldnt resist lamb kebab on chips sometimes mind you. Not everyday though.
I could give up meat if I needed to quite easily. Well I would get used to it. I've given up food groups in past.
Jamie Oliver has done some great campaigning in making school lunches healthier. I have much respect for him. Using his talent for a cause.
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