I am having a bad time of overeating.

I don't know what baught it on (if anything), but I've been like it nonstop since yesterday

only 10 A.M, and I'm making myself sick with all these sweets

[Blue_Bird]

I'm doing very well. I feel so much better even after just a few days of eating normal, sleeping and not obsessing about weight. I looked and acted like a zombie for the past few months

[Blueberrybook]

Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

I'm doing very well. I feel so much better even after just a few days of eating normal, sleeping and not obsessing about weight. I looked and acted like a zombie for the past few months

Awesome! Now you have to keep it up

[Blueberrybook]

I felt OK today, but overexercised a lot again. Anyone else here with that problem? I ran an insane distance, walked a normal distance (but overheated, which is a no-no for a couple of these psych meds I take). I did a lot today. I don't know if it's the start of hypomania or not. The problem is I actually like the hypomanic phases of bipolar, very productive, no need for a ton of sleep, not doing risky stuff that destroys my life like full-blown mania, and depression is definitely the pits. But I think during mania and even hypomania, metabolism increases. There are times when I feel like I burn off things I eat very quickly. I did so much today that I didn't even have breakfast or any snacks today. One thing after another. I got a lot done, don't think I got enough sleep either. I woke up at 3 AM in a full-blown panic attack; I'd been dreaming about things connected to some of the PTSD. I've had a lot of PTSD-worthy instances for a lifetime, more than my share to be sure. I tried to calm & control my breathing like all my past therapists have advised. I don't see a therapist right now because of lack of money, and honestly, after over 10 therapists, I have never clicked with one, though some are admittedly better than others. Also, there comes a point where I've just felt "talked out".

[downandlonely]

cln, have you tried support groups for eating disorders or bipolar? I like support groups better than individual therapy. And there are free ones.

[Blueberrybook]

Originally Posted by downandlonely

cln, have you tried support groups for eating disorders or bipolar? I like support groups better than individual therapy. And there are free ones.

I tried one for eating disorders in college, but it was very triggering for me. I instantly put myself into competition with all the others there, wanting to be skinnier than Suzy, eat less than Jane, be threatened with hospitalization like Mary, etc. And though numbers, sizes, times that trigger were not allowed while in group, it's not like we didn't talk about them going to group or leaving (oftentimes several of us on the same campus shuttle bus).

I don't think I'd ever do an ED group again. There is a church not too far from where I live that has bipolar/depression group support, not NAMI, some other organization, but it's national, I think, can't remember the name. I need to bite the bullet and go to a meeting, and it is free I believe.

[downandlonely]

There is the Depression and Bipolar Support Alliance. In Houston, they have renamed it reMind. I really like it.

[Blueberrybook]

Originally Posted by downandlonely

There is the Depression and Bipolar Support Alliance. In Houston, they have renamed it reMind. I really like it.

Where does it meet? I live near Houston, but I hate driving in most parts of it, except the very strange parts of Houston that are really more Pasadena, Webster, or Clear Lake. Don't mind Friendswood either, but driving in Houston proper causes me high anxiety & panic attacks. I think it is the amount of traffic, one way roads, constant construction veering off of Google Maps, and the fast speeds on freeways. I used to drive there (admittedly hated it) but haven't in years. I drive a Subaru Forester (the smaller older model, it's a 1997), and it does not accelerate very fast at all, especially compared to the tons of much larger trucks & big rigs on the freeways.

The local group that meets at the church is in Pasadena and about a 10 minute drive from my house. I don't think they are religious, but if they are, that is OK as I am a Christian and from time-to-time do manage to attend church (mostly when hypomanic).

[toomanycats]

Hi... I've never posted on this board before, but I need somewhere to talk about this stuff... so... here I am.

I've been diagnosed a few times with ED-NOS... but my primary issues are restriction and purging ED behaviors of multiple kinds (I used to have binging problems many years ago too, though.)

I've just started working with a dietician for the first time (she specializes in EDs), and I've been in therapy for forever it seems (ok, like 4 years) but am only just starting to really acknowledge that my "food stuff" has a name.

Anyways, I'm mostly just saying hi. So...hi!

[Blueberrybook]

Originally Posted by toomanycats

Hi... I've never posted on this board before, but I need somewhere to talk about this stuff... so... here I am.

I've been diagnosed a few times with ED-NOS... but my primary issues are restriction and purging ED behaviors of multiple kinds (I used to have binging problems many years ago too, though.)

I've just started working with a dietician for the first time (she specializes in EDs), and I've been in therapy for forever it seems (ok, like 4 years) but am only just starting to really acknowledge that my "food stuff" has a name.

Anyways, I'm mostly just saying hi. So...hi!

Welcome! I have been dealing with an eating disorder since the late 1990s. First, anorexia, then ED-NOS, then back to anorexia when the DSM-V came out with new guidelines for EDs diagnosis. I have a lot of purging behavior too, mainly through excessive exercise. In college, though, I used laxatives and sometimes threw up (but I wasn't very good at making myself throw up, fortunately).

I hope the dietician helps. I worked with a wonderful group of dieticians when I was in graduate school. They had all recovered from EDs and worked on a sliding scale, which was great because I didn't have insurance. It was like having therapy and nutrition counseling in one.

I was doing OK but recently had to have emergency surgery on a perforated ulcer (not caused by the ED, caused by a bacterial infection & use of NSAIDs). The hospital treatment caused a big weight loss, I was on that course for 6 days (you can look it up) then afterwards didn't have a lot of appetite. I had been normal weight before and exercising normal amounts and then seeing the scale going down at all the followup appointments, brought out the old ED thinking.

[Blueberrybook]

Ran a lot again this morning. I think I'm a bit hypomanic as well because I did a ton more than usual yesterday and even this morning. I had to drop off cable/internet supplies because of a provider switch and did get myself a frappucino (nonfat though) and panini at Starbucks for lunch and managed them both, even if they did mess up and give me a different panini than the one I ordered. I did an online complaint to Starbucks though; they are crediting my card back for the faulty order, so that's OK.

My husband went back to work today (teaches high school). My daughter will start 5th grade on Wednesday. Hopefully, I will do OK with breakfast and lunch while home by myself during the day. I have a lot of projects I want to do, but one of them is liable to be somewhat triggering - going through my clothes. My drawers are stuffed and out of order and closet packed, I really need to do it, try on some stuff, see if it fits or not. I'm so much smaller now though. I really haven't decided what to do with the clothes that are too big. Hang on to them, assuming I get back to my healthy weight, or get rid of them and buy new clothes when that time comes?

Now I feel guilty about all the calories in the food & drink though

[LucyD]

Originally Posted by toomanycats

Hi... I've never posted on this board before, but I need somewhere to talk about this stuff... so... here I am.

I've been diagnosed a few times with ED-NOS... but my primary issues are restriction and purging ED behaviors of multiple kinds (I used to have binging problems many years ago too, though.)

I've just started working with a dietician for the first time (she specializes in EDs), and I've been in therapy for forever it seems (ok, like 4 years) but am only just starting to really acknowledge that my "food stuff" has a name.

Anyways, I'm mostly just saying hi. So...hi!

Hi! Welcome to this thread...you are not alone...everyone here has an ED.

[LucyD]

I am feeling happy right now because my blood glucose level was the lowest it has been since being diagnosed with Diabetes a few mos. ago. I am on a Diabetic Diet to lose weight. My Diabetes Educator gave me instructions and a big book all about Diabetes, how to eat, the glucose levels, medication and so much. I am not on meds. for diabetes. I'm glad none of my psyche meds are making me eat a lot.

[LucyD]

better day today.

ate a decent meal (scampi and fries), and did try hard not to eat so much candy

but then I felt bad and just went ahead and did it

I don't think as much as yesterday (I didn't feel as sick)

[half_awakexx]

My eating disorder has been dormant for awhile, until recently. I'm kind of obsessed with counting calories and note that in an app I have installed on my phone. My therapist is also worried that I am falling back into eating disorder habits (today was the first time I shared with her my story). I'm way under what I should be eating. Grr....I hate the little voice in my head that influences my habit. For the most part, I eat relatively healthy and go to the gym. Today, was the first day in quite some time I actually ran. It was nice.
I'm hoping I can find a loophole through this and not get sucked back into where I was 4 years ago.

I've eaten breakfast which was a good start.

but then ruined it with sweets.

again, it's still really early in the morning (11 A.M)

[LucyD]

To satisfy my craving for the sweets I have been getting strawberries and blackberries and blueberries. I can't eat a lot of them, still, because of diabetes. I still get satisfied with them, though. I won't lie, it was hard getting off the candy bars and pastries. I still have a bit every once in awhile, though. It's possible I could go way off too by eating a whole cake. Thought of eating a pie today but got the berries instead at the store. I can't keep any candy around my apt. I'll go crazy on it...

[LucyD]

[88Butterfly88]

Cln, you could check out NAMI (National Alliance on Mental Illness) as well.

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