[kmlindgren.13]

Hi, lately I feel kinda lost. I have been out of treatment for 3 months and I feel like this is such a odd stage of recovery. I was at a great treatment center for over a year and I’m not sure if it’s that just now the transition is affecting me or what’s going on. I was doing quite well. Only a few mild ED thoughts a week. My team believes in me, so much that my therapist felt comfortable not having weekly sessions anymore and my dietician felt comfortable only seeing me once a month.

When you’re in treatment you don’t for second think, what should I be doing because they’re constantly telling you. Now I ask myself that question. And a few weeks ago I came to the conclusion(and maybe I was in clean mind) that I don’t have to do all this work constantly. “I’m better now”. I think I want so badly to just be done and completely better and when things are so mild it’s easy to convince myself this is true. But then I have my bad days and something happens and I grieve because I know I’m not. I think I want so badly to be normal but at the same time I felt like I was just done with it all. This is a new sensation for me because im known as someone who is fiercely in recovery and will do whatever it takes, but now I guess I just don’t feel connected to recovery and feel a little lost.

I hope someone can relate to this and that it made sense.

[Skeezyks]

Hello kmlindgren: I see this is your first post here on PC. So... welcome to PsychCentral.

There's not a lot I can share with regard to the experience you're having. Hopefully there will be other members, here on PC, who will have thoughts they can share. What I can tell you is that I've been hospitalized twice & so I know that the period of time after returning home can be a difficult one. (It is also not unusual for people on psych med's to stop taking them when they begin to feel better because they imagine they don't need them anymore.) It may well be that your therapist & dietician simply pulled back too soon. And, in that case, perhaps it would be a good idea to reach out to them.

One other forum, here on PC, that may be of interest to you would be the psychotherapy forum. Here's a link:

https://forums.psychcentral.com/psychotherapy/

I hope you find PC to be of benefit.

[Gr3tta_0]

Its difficult to transition levels of care. It's difficult too, to transition your thinking to interests other than ED thoughts, or non-stop focus on recovery. Are you engaged in enough other activities? Work, school, or volunteering? Interests such as music, art, woodworking, gaming, sewing? Scheduled social activities with family and friends?
I wish you continued recovery, and hope you feel better soon.