[LucyD]

Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

Thanks, I hope you're able to get a nap and the medication works for her

I got a 3 hour nap. Been so worried lately my energy is zapped. I am relaxing more after seeing the Vet. He gave me some much needed answers.

[LucyD]

[LucyD]

Where'd everybody go? I hope I haven't chased anyone off; I love you all here! How are you all doing?

Suzy had an almost normally formed poop today~Yay for poop~lol.

I'm feeling relaxed and good today. Took a longer walk with Suzy. The weather here was nice for Winter, hope it stays that way.

[Blue_Bird]

Glad you're doing well Lucy and that's great to hear about Suzy

I'm doing okay. I was prescribed seroquel so I take that tonight along with my other meds. I was on it several years ago but don't remember how it affected me. I'm kind of worried about weight gain, I lost a lot of weight getting off Invega and I don't want to gain it back because of being on an antipsychotic again. I guess being stable is more important though. It's just been making me a little nervous and having eating disorder related thoughts.

I ate normal today. I've been eating chili which I love. It's just the crappy canned kind. I mean it's not that bad, it works since I'm really craving chili so bad but I would like to get the stuff and make an awesome homemade pot of it sometime , nothing beats that lol

[LucyD]

Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

Glad you're doing well Lucy and that's great to hear about Suzy

I'm doing okay. I was prescribed seroquel so I take that tonight along with my other meds. I was on it several years ago but don't remember how it affected me. I'm kind of worried about weight gain, I lost a lot of weight getting off Invega and I don't want to gain it back because of being on an antipsychotic again. I guess being stable is more important though. It's just been making me a little nervous and having eating disorder related thoughts.

I ate normal today. I've been eating chili which I love. It's just the crappy canned kind. I mean it's not that bad, it works since I'm really craving chili so bad but I would like to get the stuff and make an awesome homemade pot of it sometime , nothing beats that lol

I hope the Seroquel works for you. I take Risperdal for sleep and mood. I think being on a low dose of it helps me with the overeating aspect. I love chili and have been thinking about making some for about a week. I bought some turkey breast, though, and want to make that first. Been eating baked pork chops with a mix of quinoa, brown and red wild rice and brussel sprouts.

[Blue_Bird]

Originally Posted by LucyD

Suzy helps me so much with just being here. She has a health problem right now I am working on. May be taking her to the Vet.

Making wiser decisions is something I need to do to and not be impulsive. Sometimes I have acted on impulses and regretted it. Stress relief yoga sounds great! I'd have to start with beginners. I am so out of shape. Everytime I start to exercise my body hurts so bad that I quit. Got to get some cold packs to put on the aches and start the exercise again.

Originally Posted by LucyD

I hope the Seroquel works for you. I take Risperdal for sleep and mood. I think being on a low dose of it helps me with the overeating aspect. I love chili and have been thinking about making some for about a week. I bought some turkey breast, though, and want to make that first. Been eating baked pork chops with a mix of quinoa, brown and red wild rice and brussel sprouts.

Sounds good! I love brussel sprouts

[Blue_Bird]

So I've been doing well today. Have urges to restrict along with urges to binge which is strange, but I've been able to eat when I'm hungry and mostly healthy stuff. Part of me wants to go to the store and buy......a lot of junk food. But I can't do that. I'm really hungry right now and am not sure why, I ate like an hour ago

[LucyD]

Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

So I've been doing well today. Have urges to restrict along with urges to binge which is strange, but I've been able to eat when I'm hungry and mostly healthy stuff. Part of me wants to go to the store and buy......a lot of junk food. But I can't do that. I'm really hungry right now and am not sure why, I ate like an hour ago

I know what you mean about wanting to restrict and binge. I struggle with that too. Been eating healthy for the most part. Hope to continue that but who knows. I haven't been keeping any junk food in my apt. If I do I eat it and all or most of it.

[LucyD]

Originally Posted by Blueberrybook

Woke this morning to a low weight, made the stupid ED happy. Starting to obsess more over the bones and stuff, did really bad and went on a pro-ana site, then thinking OMG, my weight isn't low at all; I'm fat. I'm a mess. I ran in the rain for an hour this morning, wanted to keep going, but I had to get back in to make lunch. Contemplated another rain run in the afternoon but resisted and read some of my library book. Need a better day tomorrow.

My emotions are all jumbled up; I have no idea how I feel right now. H starts his new job tomorrow, and hopefully, we will get the insurance stuff sorted quickly.

The EDs sure can keep us wonky can't they? Mine tells me not to eat and then after I finally eat it tells me to eat more...so now I drink water and wait for the ED idea to pass and it does and I don't feel hungry then. I am sick of my scale. I stuck it under the kitchen stand so I don't jump on it so easily.

[Blue_Bird]

Not sure what possessed me to bring half a gallon of ice cream home... but here I am

[Blue_Bird]

Possible trigger:

I want to purge so badly....... why did I let this happen.

[LucyD]

Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

Possible trigger:

I want to purge so badly....... why did I let this happen.

We are so hard on ourselves, no one is as hard on ourselves as us. Try to be gentle with you, you are just human and it's okay.

[Blue_Bird]

Originally Posted by LucyD

We are so hard on ourselves, no one is as hard on ourselves as us. Try to be gentle with you, you are just human and it's okay.

Thanks Lucy How are you today?

[LucyD]

Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

Thanks Lucy How are you today?

I'm feeling alright so far. Going shopping for some food today. I made a list so I stay on target. How are you doing?

[Blueberrybook]

ED issues have decided to overtake bipolar mixed issues...overexercise, OMG. So wanting to trash the Seroquel and Lamictal, surprised I haven't yet. ED thoughts make me think I will lose more weight off them. And I really need to gain. Pdoc was not happy last time he saw me. Will schedule with pdoc again when our insurance gets straightened out (on COBRA until H's new insurance kicks in after 60 days), but H is only just getting it set up; he was a high school teacher before (now he's a visiting university professor), and the school district he worked at was closed until today, not to mention, the university got pretty deserted after Dec. 15 or so, and he was only told he had the job like Dec. 12 or 13.

[LucyD]

Originally Posted by Blueberrybook

ED issues have decided to overtake bipolar mixed issues...overexercise, OMG. So wanting to trash the Seroquel and Lamictal, surprised I haven't yet. ED thoughts make me think I will lose more weight off them. And I really need to gain. Pdoc was not happy last time he saw me. Will schedule with pdoc again when our insurance gets straightened out (on COBRA until H's new insurance kicks in after 60 days), but H is only just getting it set up; he was a high school teacher before (now he's a visiting university professor), and the school district he worked at was closed until today, not to mention, the university got pretty deserted after Dec. 15 or so, and he was only told he had the job like Dec. 12 or 13.

Sorry you seem not to be doing too good. I know what you mean about wanting to trash some meds. I have done it before but withdrew very slowly. It's best to have Dr. supervision to do it which I don't always do since it takes so long to see mine. I truly hope things get better for you. EDs are a pain in the....

[Jessabee]

Helloo. I'm Jess, 26, and sliding into a relapse with atypical anorexia after being in remission off and on for 3 years... Restriction has been real...

[LucyD]

Originally Posted by Jessabee

Helloo. I'm Jess, 26, and sliding into a relapse with atypical anorexia after being in remission off and on for 3 years... Restriction has been real...

Welcome! I know having an ED is very hard. I hope you feel free to share whatever you are concerned with here.

[LucyD]

Been on the tired side. Having coffee to wake up. I hope everyone is doing well but I do know how the EDs go...It's difficult.

[Blue_Bird]

I'm doing good. I'm almost literally not able to restrict because I'm freakin starving all the time since starting seroquel. I do have to be careful with not bingeing though, so I've been trying to eat a lot of fruits and vegetables and drink more water