[LucyD]

Originally Posted by Blueberrybook

Doing a bit better, but my antibiotic is giving me diarrhea...just wonderful Though that has kept me from the scale because with this much diarrhea, there's water weight loss, no point in it.

Oh, and I am due to start my period on New Year's Day. Nice.

Glad you are starting to feel better. Periods...oh I remember them well..there's a good side to Menopause.

[LucyD]

It's almost the last day of the year and I am so grateful for an end to 2018. Too many problems for me. My obnoxious neighbors have moved and it has been quiet and peaceful here, thankfully! I can't even begin to describe the abuse invoked by them. But it's' over! I can look forward to a new day now!

[Blueberrybook]

Originally Posted by LucyD

It's almost the last day of the year and I am so grateful for an end to 2018. Too many problems for me. My obnoxious neighbors have moved and it has been quiet and peaceful here, thankfully! I can't even begin to describe the abuse invoked by them. But it's' over! I can look forward to a new day now!

Oh, LucyD, me too. 2018 SUCKED! MIL's funeral was in early Jan. I swallowed a dental burr getting a crown in January, turned 40, got a perforated ulcer on Valentine's Day and all that entailed, my old pdoc is retiring and I had to start with a new one and beg her to get me in at that clinic after seeing a horrible pdoc. Financial worries. H didn't get the job he was promised at the university in the summer, didn't get it in the fall. Two car repairs. A giant AC repair. The dryer broke. The garbage disposal broke. The CPS investigation, the ride to the psych ER in a police car, the psych ER itself, the ED relapse (triggered by losing 10 lb. during my ulcer stay). Nothing but bad luck, never any good news until mid-December when H found out he got on at this university for January. Though he found out the day before the university closed for winter break and knows nothing about the new job. The new HOA "sweeps" person noticed our window unit AC in the garage (we've had it over 10 yr) and reported it as a violation. It is a violation, we know, but it hadn't bothered the stupid HOA for 10 years! H had a back and forth hassle with the HOA. Talk about a sucky year! Oh, and my bipolar is mixed and has been mixed since freaking March, I am so tired of mixed!

And to cap off the year, I got a strain of strep throat that was flu-like too and now I'm on an antibiotic giving me diarrhea. Great way to start the new year!

[LucyD]

Originally Posted by Blueberrybook

Oh, LucyD, me too. 2018 SUCKED! MIL's funeral was in early Jan. I swallowed a dental burr getting a crown in January, turned 40, got a perforated ulcer on Valentine's Day and all that entailed, my old pdoc is retiring and I had to start with a new one and beg her to get me in at that clinic after seeing a horrible pdoc. Financial worries. H didn't get the job he was promised at the university in the summer, didn't get it in the fall. Two car repairs. A giant AC repair. The dryer broke. The garbage disposal broke. The CPS investigation, the ride to the psych ER in a police car, the psych ER itself, the ED relapse (triggered by losing 10 lb. during my ulcer stay). Nothing but bad luck, never any good news until mid-December when H found out he got on at this university for January. Though he found out the day before the university closed for winter break and knows nothing about the new job. The new HOA "sweeps" person noticed our window unit AC in the garage (we've had it over 10 yr) and reported it as a violation. It is a violation, we know, but it hadn't bothered the stupid HOA for 10 years! H had a back and forth hassle with the HOA. Talk about a sucky year! Oh, and my bipolar is mixed and has been mixed since freaking March, I am so tired of mixed!

And to cap off the year, I got a strain of strep throat that was flu-like too and now I'm on an antibiotic giving me diarrhea. Great way to start the new year!

Wow, what a crap year you had! I hope 2019 will be much better for you and yours. I'm not even in the mood to party or watch parties tonight on tv. I'm watching ID channel's murder mysteries. I may have to shut that off, too, it gets depressing. I just feel like going to sleep.

[LucyD]

I hope this will be a better year for all of us!

[Blueberrybook]

I hope 2019 is a great year for all of us!

I didn't stay up for the fireworks. I'm very tired lately. I've only exercised yesterday & today, though I may have overdone it today. Think that weird strep I had with more flu-like than strep symptoms might have me taking a week, week & a half to get completely well. Not to mention, I will be glad when I am done with the antibiotic.

ED thoughts have me feeling guilty over not dieting and not losing weight. I exercise a ton, eat generally normally - with the exception of breakfast, don't know why, I often skip it, and I don't think I possibly eat enough calories to sustain my weight. I don't binge eat at all and suspect Seroquel is keeping me weight stable or it's a set point weight. Makes me want to stop Seroquel cold turkey and see what happens, which would no doubt be mania, but I get those thoughts of just tossing all the meds but the Adderall & Wellbutrin & keep some Klonopin around. I'd do it, except I have a family & responsibilities. Most especially I need to be careful not to pass this screwed-up disease to my daughter. I felt so guilty over having around 2 servings of Wheat Thins as a snack late morning when I hadn't had breakfast, what kind of messed up thinking is this anyway?!

[Blue_Bird]

I'm happy for 2019. I'm hoping to get stable again with the schizoaffective/bipolar symptoms. The past several months things have gradually been falling apart with my mental health. Psychotic symptoms again, not sleeping, panic attacks. I'm wondering what's happening to me. I mean, I've experienced this stuff before but I had a 6 month period of remission, it just seemed like I'd never have to deal with it again.

So to relate this to my ED, I haven't been eating anywhere near enough and a large percentage of the time it's not intentional. My mind races and hours go by before I realize I haven't eaten. Days just kind of blur together. I'm going grocery shopping tomorrow though. I haven't had food in the house the past week, just crackers and pretzels and a little bit of oatmeal. Again not intentional, I mismanaged my food budget last month. My fridge is empty, same with my freezer and cabinets. I've basically been living off that and coffee.

I plan on having a bagel with cream cheese in the morning though as soon as I run over to the store. I can't wait. I've been so dizzy and cold.

I hope I'm not triggering or upsetting anyone

[Blue_Bird]

Originally Posted by LucyD

So how is everyone doing at this the end of the year? Anyone have any resolutions? I seem to always break mine but I still can try again. I want to continue to eat nutritiously, I do allow for some snacks at times that may not be the best thing but that's life..lol. I think we all need a break at times. My main focus this coming year is to continue to try and improve my health. I take walks with my dog but this time of year it's cold so maybe I can start exercising indoors. I have been prescribed some physical therapy for my knees and neck. Haven't arranged for it yet, though. Hoping to get another car that is better than what I have so I don't have to worry about driving a beater so much. That's because it is falling apart..lol..not so much how bad it looks.

That's great that you have a dog. I have two cats and they love to run around the house and play so they keep me active.

I want to improve my mental and physical health, and make wiser decisions.

Just started doing stress relief yoga at home

[Blue_Bird]

Originally Posted by Blueberrybook

I hope 2019 is a great year for all of us!


I didn't stay up for the fireworks. I'm very tired lately. I've only exercised yesterday & today, though I may have overdone it today. Think that weird strep I had with more flu-like than strep symptoms might have me taking a week, week & a half to get completely well. Not to mention, I will be glad when I am done with the antibiotic.

!

Try to get some rest, pushing yourself to run when sick isn't good

[LucyD]

Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

That's great that you have a dog. I have two cats and they love to run around the house and play so they keep me active.

I want to improve my mental and physical health, and make wiser decisions.

Just started doing stress relief yoga at home

Suzy helps me so much with just being here. She has a health problem right now I am working on. May be taking her to the Vet.

Making wiser decisions is something I need to do to and not be impulsive. Sometimes I have acted on impulses and regretted it. Stress relief yoga sounds great! I'd have to start with beginners. I am so out of shape. Everytime I start to exercise my body hurts so bad that I quit. Got to get some cold packs to put on the aches and start the exercise again.

[Blue_Bird]

Originally Posted by LucyD

Suzy helps me so much with just being here. She has a health problem right now I am working on. May be taking her to the Vet.

Making wiser decisions is something I need to do to and not be impulsive. Sometimes I have acted on impulses and regretted it. Stress relief yoga sounds great! I'd have to start with beginners. I am so out of shape. Everytime I start to exercise my body hurts so bad that I quit. Got to get some cold packs to put on the aches and start the exercise again.

I hope Suzy will be alright

I'm out of shape too so I'm starting small

[Blue_Bird]

I just had a bagel for breakfast, first actual meal in several days. I feel so much better!

[LucyD]

Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

I hope Suzy will be alright

I'm out of shape too so I'm starting small

I hope to get an appointment to take her in today. I've been cleaning up diarrhea off the carpet for 3 days now. I feel real bad for her; not sure why she is sick. This is the second time in 2 mos.

[LucyD]

Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

I just had a bagel for breakfast, first actual meal in several days. I feel so much better!

Bagel sounds good~

[Blueberrybook]

Woke this morning to a low weight, made the stupid ED happy. Starting to obsess more over the bones and stuff, did really bad and went on a pro-ana site, then thinking OMG, my weight isn't low at all; I'm fat. I'm a mess. I ran in the rain for an hour this morning, wanted to keep going, but I had to get back in to make lunch. Contemplated another rain run in the afternoon but resisted and read some of my library book. Need a better day tomorrow.

My emotions are all jumbled up; I have no idea how I feel right now. H starts his new job tomorrow, and hopefully, we will get the insurance stuff sorted quickly.

[Blue_Bird]

Originally Posted by Blueberrybook

Woke this morning to a low weight, made the stupid ED happy. Starting to obsess more over the bones and stuff, did really bad and went on a pro-ana site, then thinking OMG, my weight isn't low at all; I'm fat. I'm a mess. I ran in the rain for an hour this morning, wanted to keep going, but I had to get back in to make lunch. Contemplated another rain run in the afternoon but resisted and read some of my library book. Need a better day tomorrow.


My emotions are all jumbled up; I have no idea how I feel right now. H starts his new job tomorrow, and hopefully, we will get the insurance stuff sorted quickly.

Do you think you should have a scale at home? I'm just wondering because I know it's very triggering. I have one and I'm trying to use it less.

[Blue_Bird]

How are you today Lucy?

[Blue_Bird]

I ate completely normal yesterday and got groceries

[LucyD]

Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

How are you today Lucy?

Doing okay, thank you. I'm just tired. Need a nap. Took my dog to the Vet and got some medicine for her. Been so worried about her. The Vet was very nice and helpful.

I hope your day goes well.

[Blue_Bird]

Originally Posted by LucyD

Doing okay, thank you. I'm just tired. Need a nap. Took my dog to the Vet and got some medicine for her. Been so worried about her. The Vet was very nice and helpful.


I hope your day goes well.

Thanks, I hope you're able to get a nap and the medication works for her