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Coat advice - if you don't expect it to get too dirty too often, invest in a great quality on sale, or used/goodwill, that requires dry cleaning. For regular wear, this is a deal breaker for me! But for a nice sale coat - worth it! Never wash it, just wipe off the occasional splash or drip, dry clean once per year, and have them repair any pesky buttons/zippers/minor tears while they're at it. If kids are still growing, try buying a size up. For grown-ups, one could last you decades. Good luck!
My eating is horrible. I am so riddled with anxiety i feel paralyzed. I buzz around doing a million things, but i accomplish zero. Which makes me more anxious. I am horribly depressed. I don't know how or why to care about much. But if that # is smaller, small win! 30 second euphoria!
And now we return to the dull black, with occasional sharp intervals.
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Yea, I'm real cheerful, sorry.
I'm sorry you're struggling Gr3tta I hope things get better for you. I understand the doing a million things but accomplishing nothing, that happens to me a lot when I get really anxious.
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I'm actually doing well. I ordered takeout and didn't binge. I don't even seem to have the desire to binge anymore. It's strange, very nice though. Like someone turned off the switch. I eat when I'm hungry and stop when I'm full, I don't go overboard at all. And I haven't been restricting. Even when I feel like it I've been making myself eat
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I'm actually doing well. I ordered takeout and didn't binge. I don't even seem to have the desire to binge anymore. It's strange, very nice though. Like someone turned off the switch. I eat when I'm hungry and stop when I'm full, I don't go overboard at all. And I haven't been restricting. Even when I feel like it I've been making myself eat
I am glad to hear you are doing so well. That is awesome!
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The ED is bothering me tonight since I did not exercise today. Ugh, why do we tie our self worth to a stupid number on the scale? And itís never low enough for the stupid ED. I have been hovering around the same weight awhile, wanting to lose more sometimes, but not daring to. Pdoc and H would be in a fit, so that at least keeps me at a weight that is not dangerously low even though if I lived alone, I know I would just give in fully to the ED. I am lucky I that this time around, I donít restrict, maybe I will say no to dessert some nights, maybe not. But the over exercise is the killer! I already canít wait to get out tomorrow and run.
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Less exercise than I wanted today due to my daughter feeling ill over the weekend. I didn't want the school to call and not be able to her her up right away. Since I've broken 4 or 5 cell phones in walking/running falls exercising, I no longer carrying a phone with cell service while jogging, it just plays music and has a super cracked screen. I suppose it might have the ability to call 911 in a pinch as cell signal tends to be good in the area I run in.

Quiet here lately...
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Posted about this in the bipolar section, but OMG, H finally got a new job he's applied to. He will be a 1 yr. visiting professor in industrial engineering. He was told the visiting professorship is usually the door in to the tenure track at this university. Fingers crossed...it is a long commute, but there is a chance he may be able to work from home some days, especially as this university is really pushing online courses, and it doesn't matter where you if you teach online so long as you are getting the work done.

Big changes coming for us. He will start in the spring semester, so in January. Don't know any details about healthcare too much else. H will get a substantial pay raise. We will not be rich, but hopefully, if a car breaks down, we can fix it, same with the air conditioning or another major appliance, be able to eat out at more than McDonalds for birthdays and anniversaries, maybe actually go to a museum or a night hike at the local bayou nature preserve.

We have not had good news in a long, long time. I so hope tings will go well for us.
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Congratulations for your good news Blueberrybook! That's wonderful!

I'm having some health problems that are leaving me with no appetite, but it is truly physical and not mental. I haven't been on the scale except at the Dr and i didn't look. Looked firmly at the wall instead. Trying to focus on what really matters to me. Easier said than done, always.
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Congratulations for your good news Blueberrybook! That's wonderful!

I'm having some health problems that are leaving me with no appetite, but it is truly physical and not mental. I haven't been on the scale except at the Dr and i didn't look. Looked firmly at the wall instead. Trying to focus on what really matters to me. Easier said than done, always.
Sorry about the health issues. I had that too in the late winter/early spring when I had that perforated ulcer. After surgery, everything except water tasted wrong. Thankfully, I can now eat most foods again except very greasy food and foods that are high protein using whey to up the protein (like protein bars and shakes). It's the whey that's the problem. It messed with me a little before I had the ulcer issue, but now, it's beyond awful. See the GI doc again the day after Christmas and then hopefully not again for a long while.

No exercise today which is already leaving me anxious. I have to mail off H's new professor contract when the post office opens then go to my daughter's school to help with the Christmas party. I wish I hadn't told the room mom I'd help, but then yesterday she texted me saying she was having a panic moment and hoped I could still help. I think a lot of parents who told her they could help backed out at the least minute. She has been room mom for my daughter's class since kindergarten, and now that our girls are in 5th grade, it's unusual for her to be worrying about the Christmas party. (Our daughters are in a dual language program, which only has 2 sections, so those 2 classes combine & mix a little but not with the rest of their grade. However, every year, both our daughters have been in the same section.) I think the room mom is also co-room mom for her son, who is younger, maybe first grade, something like that. At least, this year the school is doing early releases again; last year, they did not. So that means the party ends at noon when school is dismissed. I can make 9 to noon, probably closer to 9:30 to noon due to the post office stop.

H & I have not finished Christmas shopping for our daughter yet either. And I have an extended family Christmas on Saturday. We only give gifts to the kids, but my daughter has 5 cousins between my 2 sisters. It's expensive. H will have better pay once he is teaching at university level, but he is still on high school teacher pay, and money is tight, especially since my daughter had a birthday earlier this month.
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I'm not sure how to feel about this, when I was talking about my christmas day dinner to someone and was saying I was going to have 8 sausages, they replied to me- well... wouldn't it be easier with 4?

I'm not sure if that was a comment about my weight (that's how it felt), or if it was something else

but it did anger me a little
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I've been in quite a lot of pain today (back and leg), so honestly I've not wanted to eat much

at breakfast time I tried to eat my food but felt really sick and nautious and couldn't eat it all- through out the day I've eaten little bits, and a small dinner (just a little toad in the hole with nothing else on the plate), but I don't have any appetite- not when I'm in so much agony I can think about nothing else.
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