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Default Sep 28, 2018 at 11:53 PM
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I did not exercise. So target is 2200 calories. I ate 2349 calories, so I am over by 149 calories. Not too bad. I will exercise tomorrow. What does not help is my McDonalds app lets me by all of their sandwiches except their artisan series for $1. I think I can also purchase a soft drink for $1. If I put in a mobile order and use Apple Pay, I get a medium fries for free. So an entire meal for $2. I find this attractive to me. Too attractive.

PS Now you have me thinking of doughnuts.!

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Thought I'd join this thread. Quick backstory: I was a professional dancer and then an endurance athlete (hobbyist, but serious). I was a personal trainer at one point, I know all the ins and outs of nutrition and exercise, and was very healthy, physically, up until 2014 when all hell broke loose because of the bad reaction I had to psych meds. Very quickly I put on about 70-80lbs and the last few years I've struggled with. At first there was nothing I could do I had to focus on my mental well-being and dealing with the medication merry-go-round. Then in 2017 I started actively trying to get back to where I was, at least weight-wise, maybe not strength-wise, and I had lost nearly 30lbs before I lost my job and downward spiraled back into depression and put it all back on.

Fortunately, I will say that when I topped out at about 225, and got off meds, I haven't been gaining any, at all. My daily routine and attempts to eat healthy keep me very steady there. I have noticed that when I am extra careful with portions and healthier choices, that it starts to tick down the scale. Add on top of that regular walking, gets even better.

The problem I've had lately is that I used to be able to do this all on my own. I have plenty of motivation but my discipline for it, while I'm very disciplined in other areas, is very low, probably because I have to be so disciplined in other areas, it's like you can't push yourself on everything you are doing in life, right?

The last 3 weeks I have only had junk food once, and that was a stop at Wendy's in a hurry because I hadn't eaten and I felt disgusting and sluggish afterwards and felt adamant that I never wanted to eat there again. It just completely killed my productivity in the day, which means it's not useful to me to eat there. (Interesting how when it affects my bottom line my thought process totally changes. This is how I ended up quitting smoking so many years ago too!)

Yesterday I tried a kickboxing circuit gym. I had done kickboxing years ago and loved it. I enjoyed this gym so much I joined right on the spot. They were so supportive and nonjudgmental. I'm getting ready to go again this morning. They were great in allowing me to take it at my pace. They said just let us know when you need us to push you. At my level, which, even though there is muscle memory, there is no stamina or strength, so I'm doing the "granny" version of everything for a while until I feel some strength come back.

I have been doing good on my walking/hiking every day, but I really needed something with other people around to give me energy and keep me accountable.

My eating has been pretty healthy, but I haven't been consistently tracking, so I'm trying to track more carefully using my Fitbit app. I'm trying to stay between 1500-1800 calories a day, but I can go up to 2000 if necessary. According to the monitors I'm burning around 2500-2800 a day, and provided I eat the right foods, 1500-1800 calories does not feel like starvation. Plus I stay hydrated and drink tea, which helps fill me up.

I've also been adding a lot of spice and seasoning to my foods, and that has definitely helped get me fuller faster.

Thanks for this thread to share my journey.

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Default Sep 30, 2018 at 02:35 AM
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Over 10,000 steps. My depression slowed me down allot. I managed to walk and run for about three niles. I have burned 283 calories. 149 calories overage carried over from yesterday, leaves me with 134 toward ny target, which makes for 2334 target. I have consumed 2326 calories, so I made my target.

I had to stop off at a salon to catch my breath. They kicked me out as an undesirable, like a homeless person just walked in. I have never been treated like this in all my life. This young twenty one something with a real attitude who had a very arrogant opinion of herself because she was working in an expensive salon wearing chic clothing. Where do these people come from? Very professionally immature. Here she is managing a business.

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Soon I will head off to the gym. It's the only time I get to myself all day.
 
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Default Sep 30, 2018 at 06:12 AM
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Yesterday, I hiked a couple of miles, went to my dog training class, and managed about 20 minutes at the kickboxing gym. I had intended to do tell full 30 minutes workout, but I had some scheduling issues that resulted in me only having had a granola bar a few hours beforehand and I started to get lightheaded while working out, so, considering I was also battling a migraine, I decided to stop while I was ahead.

I managed to stay within my calorie intake goal, around 1800. I had a craving for Taco Bell for dinner and understood that it's not that I needed junk food but that I wanted a certain flavor, so I stopped on my way home from the dog park and got some ground beef and other stuff and I made some nachos for dinner, except I used healthy ingredients and instead of chips I used a cut up cucumber. I tried that on a whim, never even heard of it, just wanted to swap out for a veggie, and it was actually good. It definitely tasted a little different but I actually quite enjoyed it. Absolutely covered the craving I was having and stayed on calorie budget.

Kickboxing gym is closed today, so it will be mostly be walking my dogs and hiking for exercise, which is okay because I'm a bit sore now from the kickboxing workouts.

I feel really good, like getting stronger already, but it was super depressing to look in the mirror before hopping in the shower yesterday evening. I wish I could black out all my mirrors for a bit so I can focus on feeling good and not on the huge belly I have right now.

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Default Sep 30, 2018 at 09:45 AM
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Nice to see some new posters coming and and wanting to share to stay on track. Welcome!

I ended up going substantially over - nearly 500 calories - yesterday. I feel like I am playing a stupid head game with myself. I set my goal low, always go really conservative on my calories burned when I have been pretty active, then I go over goal with little or no consequence. yesterday after paddling I weighed 156.

Today is an exercise free day. Tomorrow I will be in the gym early and probably do 90 minutes of treadmill and circuit training.

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I weigh 171 pojnds. My dpression is getting the best of me. so I will run around my townhome complex. I also see new posters here working on their weight. I think this is good for all of us here.

PS I apologize for the off topic post. I should of not added that to what was going to be my original post,

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161.8. 5 pounds since last Tuesday. And 9 pounds since coming back from vacation if that was even accurate. Next step is to get below 160. Today I want to eat a can of chicken and dumplings and then we are having turkey for dinner. I’m having a couple lite lemonades from Burger King right now. I don’t know how many calories lite lemonade has. They are large and they kind of have a lot of ice so I put them at 60 calories each. I don’t know if that’s accurate or not. I tried googling it but I couldn’t find it. The Coke Freestyle website didn’t have any info either. So my calories for the day is 1,070 and then whatever for the drinks.

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Today was day 1 of using my Jillian Michaels 30 Day Shred program DVD

It was a difficult work out since I'm out of shape but I managed to do it!

I am not sure of my weight. The last time I was weighed was almost 2 months ago and I was 137.6 lbs. I know I've gained some weight since then just not sure how much. I don't have a scale at home for a certain reason but I might end up getting weighed at my doctor when I see her this coming week. If not I'll weigh myself sometime during the week when I go to the gym.

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No exersize. My target is 2200 calories. I have consumed 2130 calories.So I am 70 calories short. This is OK.

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I went crazy over again yesterday, worked out this morning and will once again try to keep it in check. I really need to come up with more accurate goals and tracking. My goal is too aggressive and my exercise tracking too conservative and I know that. The result is that I pretty much ignore goal lately which is a really bad thing to start doing. Weight has been stable and staying in range though. I will weigh tomorrow.

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I've been pretty good this weekend. I'm trying to not weigh myself until Friday.

Yesterday was a pretty light day on the exercise. Just some walking. I was supposed to go hiking this morning but it was raining so I switched my schedule around to start work early and try to hike this evening.

I stayed mostly on my calorie budget except I had popcorn last night so went over, but was still in deficit overall.

I'm feeling pretty hopeful now that I started kickboxing. I've got it scheduled in almost every day this week.

I had thought maybe I'll start up in ballet class again, but I can't right now, not until I lose some of this weight. Not because I don't want to, but if you ever been in a dance class, you'd know you're surrounded by mirrors. You can't NOT look at yourself. And as much as I love dancing, I think I'd just find it demoralizing right now to have to stare at myself in a mirror for 90 minutes. I'll focus on the kickboxing for right now and when I'm starting to feel stronger and more confident, jump back into ballet.

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I stopped drinking soda. Not by choice but one of my new meds has this weird side effect that causes carbonated drinks to taste very flat. I tried drinking them anyways but it is to the point where I no longer want to drink them. I’m also worried about mixing coffee with Xanax. I know alcohol is deadly but I don’t think coffee is too good either. That basically leaves me with lemonade. So I’ve been drinking a lot of lemonade and brisk half and half where the caffeine content is very very low. I have heard of people dropping 10-15 pounds just from stopping soda. Does anyone have any expirence with this?

Also has anyone taken topamax before?

My old goal weight was 145. My doctor wanted me to stop at 150. I currently no longer see that doctor. I think I may want to try to get to 135. I am 5’4 and I have a large athletic build I am not sure this is ok or not but the only person who I have asked before besides my doctor was my therapist and she told me to stop losing weight when I was 185 pounds and still 13 pounds away from being overweight (I was still obese according to BMI)

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I weigh 172 pounds. 1025 steps made today. No exercise. My target is 2200 calories. I have consumed 2318 calories. So I am over by 118 calories, so exercise tomorrow will take care of this.

I am trying to finish off all of these expensive meals by having one each day. The calories can be high, like 1000 calories for todays meal. So I need to
monitor my consumption of goodies. I need to keep this under control. I still find myself looking for something to munch on. Not good.

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Yikes - this morning's weigh in said 159! I know that's a spike. I went a little fruit crazy yesterday and went over ~300 feeling pretty sure my goal was low. No exercise today, which is good since I tweaked my knee and ankle a bit yesterday. I know it was from circuit training; I tried to make sure I was more active on the step platform between machines and I did a few fast side to side step patterns at a brisk pace. I will probably be fine tomorrow and just have to go a little easier on the leg cardio (which is pretty much all cardio).

Anyway, I have to be more firm about the line in the sand today. I will be out of town this weekend and will have to really watch what I eat. It shouldn't be too hard. I will be in NY and everything costs a fortune.

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My weight is now 173. I will exercise today since at least for right now it is 77 degrees outside. In terms of Arizona, this is a bit “cold”. I am having another meal from that meal service. The meals are anywhere from about 700 to 1000 calories. So I may need to watch my snacking. Perhaps no purchase of a pie due to these meals.

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My weight is now 173. I will exercise today since at least for right now it is 77 degrees outside. In terms of Arizona, this is a bit “cold”. I am having another meal from that meal service. The meals are anywhere from about 700 to 1000 calories. So I may need to watch my snacking. Perhaps no purchase of a pie due to these meals.
1000 calories for one meal seems a bit high. What kind of meal service is that?

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I just weighed myself at 3 in the afternoon. I weigh 162.8. I don’t think that’s accurate. That would mean I really weigh 157-159. Plus I was having stomach issues before I weighed myself. I had planned on weighing myself before I realized I was going to have stomach issues. I feel like I might be getting a bug or something. I think there’s something going around at work since people are calling in a lot.

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1000 calories for one meal seems a bit high. What kind of meal service is that?
It is by HelloFresh. Their operating practices remind my of a racket, just a hair shy of this. Some of the food is really good. They ship you all the ingredients, including meats, and instructions on how to make it. Even though you do all the cooking, and their portion size can be unrealistically small, they still charge $8 a serving. There is one meal that had about 1000 calories. I have not run accross it since. Right now I have a 890 calorie meal waiting in my refridgerator for me to make in the futire. The calories for their meals normally go from lets say 600 to 800 calories, but there are exceptions.

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I didn't exercise the past two days due to being sick but might get back to it today or tomorrow

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