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Default May 07, 2019 at 12:01 AM
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I recently hit the front my head pretty hard. I have now done myself the wonderful favor of looking up the link between acquired sociopathy/psychopathy and head injury and it’s sort of keeping me awake. I mean I haven’t really had any violent thoughts or impulses since the injury, I still think I love my parents, my cat, my nieces, no one in my family has a history of serious criminal behavior that could potentially be amplified by this but I was recently diagnosed with GAD which may what this is really about. I guess I just needed to say this out loud someplace to get some advice or reassurance. I’m going to message my online counselor about this soon and try to find an in person counselor as well. I frequently worry that I am or will become a bad person.

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Default May 07, 2019 at 10:35 AM
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I recently hit the front my head pretty hard. I have now done myself the wonderful favor of looking up the link between acquired sociopathy/psychopathy and head injury and it’s sort of keeping me awake. I mean I haven’t really had any violent thoughts or impulses since the injury, I still think I love my parents, my cat, my nieces, no one in my family has a history of serious criminal behavior that could potentially be amplified by this but I was recently diagnosed with GAD which may what this is really about. I guess I just needed to say this out loud someplace to get some advice or reassurance. I’m going to message my online counselor about this soon and try to find an in person counselor as well. I frequently worry that I am or will become a bad person.
Don't think you've become a psychopath/sociopath. Expressing concern over being a bad person imo seems to be a solid indicator, and that same concern makes you less likely to become a bad person.

Im not a proffesional though, no harm in messaging your online counselor. Unless you have to end up paying..
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Default May 12, 2019 at 06:32 AM
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Dr google will do you no favours. Did you lose consciousness? Have you noticed changes in your behaviour? See a doctor/neurologist if you think something wrong.
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Default May 12, 2019 at 01:50 PM
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Hello annoyedgrunt84. So sorry that you hit your head. Ouch! I think most people would naturally find a head injury jarring or concerning because our brains are so important. Do you have a concussion? Did you black out? Vomit? Visual disturbance or dizziness or headaches (beyond basic surface pain from the injured site itself)? Confusion or memory changes or problems finding your words?

Never hurts to have a MD check you over if you hit your head. They know exactly what to screen for and would only order expensive tests or a neuro consult if something is seriously wrong.

Your thoughts, per your post here, are coming across very clearly and articulately. That's a good sign though of course I am not a doc and could not evaluate you.

I think you are indeed struggling with anxiety....anxiety can take me to some strange ideas at times....worrying about the worst possible outcome or very unlikely occurrences. Perhaps that is what's happening with you? Though I am not diminishing your feelings. Checking in with your therapist is a great idea. I also recommend a prompt doctor visit for a check-up. Even if the doc says your head is absolutely fine, that professional reassurance would likely help to ameliorate your anxiety. If the doc thinks something needs to be addressed, then you can get prompt help.

I agree with Possum that it would be good for you to skip internet searches regarding head injury....can easily send anyone down a rabbit hole. Psychopathy is itself uncommon. While I do not know the numbers you read on head injury and acquired psychopathy, I imagine that is rare. Remember that true psychopaths do not worry about being "bad" people, as Iliovar astutely mentioned, because they lack empathy. So, if you are sitting there worrying that you may become a "bad" person, you must not be a psychopath if you see what I mean.

I wish you peace and good health. Take good care of yourself.
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Default May 12, 2019 at 05:18 PM
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I hit my head when I fell off a bike. Not wearing a helmet at the time. Didn't lose consciousness or get a concussion. Five weeks later I had my first psychotic break. I'm 63. No signs of mental illness before then. My psychiatrist thinks my psychosis resulted from the fall. Guess I'll never know.
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Default May 20, 2019 at 11:48 PM
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I really think it goes back my GAD, or perhaps a form of OCD. I know I’m on the anxiety spectrum. I’m terrible about ruminating about things that I have no control over, or that are very unlikely to happen. I think what bothers me most about it is that
if it were true there’s no treatment or cure. But anyway I haven’t looked it up in long time (a few weeks) I just wanted to get on here and respond to the kind and supportive comments, thank you.

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Have you tried guided meditation for your anxiety? It can be really helpful. Lots of options on YouTube.
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Default May 24, 2019 at 09:29 PM
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Psychopaths have lots lower anxiety than others. I would say your anxiety proves you didn't hurt yourself that bad.

When I was a kid I smacked my head onto the asphalt while biking, almost knocking myself out. Of course it is hard to say, but I don't feel that I became any different after.

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