What could cure or help me?

Basically, I have a morbid fear that God/the universe will make every girl reject my attempts to kiss her, either because it wants me to be lonely/sad/miserable/for fun/sadism, so I'm terrified that if I actually start meeting women and go for the kiss, and get just rejections, I'll start believing it's actually true and that I'm destined to be alone. Also, I can't start new habits because almost every month day year combination has a number that I fear is permanent bad luck (4 and 9 (Asia) and 13), and what makes it bad luck is either God/the universe or many people believing it which I fear can give it negative energy. I have no evidence for or against any of this so I have no idea how to solve it. I'll do basically anything to get rid of this. I don't think they're delusions because I don't believe in them 100%; I'm just afraid of the possibility that they're true. What type of therapy or whatever do I need? I feel like I wouldn't be able to "face" my fears at least right now because, well, I'm way too afraid, so I guess Exposure and Prevention Therapy isn't an option.

Hello, obsessivelyafraid, and welcome to Psych Central! I suggest you go to a regular talk therapist and start from there. Then that person could recommend what you could do, based on what you can handle at that time.

When you call for an appointment, you can ask what kind of treatment/techniques they use and see what's said. If that person can't help, then he/she can refer you to someone who can. Okay?

By the way, my personal belief is God wants the best for people. After getting to talk to a girl for awhile and seeing if she is interested in you, you can always ask at some point if you can kiss her and then go from there.

I am SO SORRY for what you're going through, @Obsessivelyafraid! I am not sure what type of therapy may be most suited to you. There are so many options out there. I'm also not a professional. My advice would be to contact a therapist and ask THEM what you think may be the best option for you. Certainly they'll know how to help you. Don't give up! It takes time before finding the right therapist. I am sure you'll feel better at some point if you seek the help you need. Wishing you good luck with it! PLEASE NEVER GIVE UP HOPE! Remember that you're important, you matter, you're wise, you're worth it and YOU'RE WONDERFUL! THAT'S ABSOLUTELY TRUE AND YOU KNOW THAT'S ABSOLUTELY TRUE AS WELL EVEN IF IT'S DEEP DOWN INSIDE YOU! Feel free to PM me ANYTIME as well if you need advice and support! I'll ALWAYS be availabe for you when you need it and I'll try to get back at you AS SOON AS I POSSIBLY CAN! THAT'S A PROMISE! I am SURE plenty of people will also GLADLY help you if you just ask! I AM SURE OF THAT! Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @Obsessivelyafraid, your family, your friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking!

Hey, thank you so much for your positive reply to my post. Believe it or not, that was the most positive-vibe message I've ever gotten from anyone. Thanks for being a part of the community and helping others. I'm a little freaked out because of a helper on another site who said she'd get back to me I think I got ghosted me, and this morning for some reason I vomited a little, which hasn't happened in a long time, and I'm afraid it's a side effect of a new pill I'm taking, and now I'm scared to leave the house. I want to somehow acquire faith that there's a light at the end of this tunnel.