Do I have a mental disorder?

I need help and i dont know what to do and that s Why i Signed up (english is not my first language So im sorry if there are some misspellings or something else)

It all started some months ago (about 7) when i began feeling more disstress than usual. In my Head i always knew that i had the symtoms of an anxiety disorter but i Did not really thought about it. I just lived with it thinking it was normal. Until i had an episode which i belive it was an anxietty or pannic attack. I dont know what it was and i dont remember much other than not being able to breathe, shacking and beliving that i Would die. I Told my mom about it and about How i was feeling overall. I went to a psychologist a few Times and then i stopped because i thought that i was Making a big deal and no one cared.
Another important thing that i think is going to relate in some way about what im going to talk about NexT is the fact that i have trouble sleeping. Not because of nightmares or insomnia, my sleep schedule is messed up and it has been that way since i remember. I go to bed tired, i go to school tired, i Take a nap thinking it will help, i wake up tired, i make my homework while being sleepy, i go to bed and the cicle continues. Because of this my mom belives that those symthoms Associated with anxiety might have Developed because i have chronic fatigue(i belive). I MUST (re)ADD that i have not been diagnosed these are some belives. I dont Want to make further research until other people give me some advice.
All and all these things bring to the dissociative thing
Lately i feel like im not living. Like im on autopilot. I dont feel like im in the prezent like my body is moving without me, Like im being possesed and im just being here but im not i dont know How to explain. I am not doing well. Nothing brings me joy like it used to. I try going to the gym(maybe it will help) and i started painting my Wall. I dont know what is going on and im scared. I hope this is not reality and it will go Away. I started feeling like im not myself, i dont know who i used to be .I feel like im not here i just dont know. I need advice from someone. I will Take anything.
Thank you for your Attention!
Have a happy day.

Welcome to PC

Chronic Anxiety IS exhausting.. I think seeing a Therapist would help, they would be able to help you with learning coping skills and dealing with what is actually causing the anxiety to begin with

When did you last have a physical exam and full blood work?? Its always best to rule out any physical health problems. Lots of things can cause a person to feel tired all the time, Thyroid, Low blood counts, Hormones, Lack of vitamins etc etc etc.

Hope you find some answers and are feeling better soon

Yes: anxieties, panic attacks, dissociation's, always worrying, and you're probably feeling depressed as well, too, Zenona, right? Well, I think you're doing very well considering all these quite significant symptoms you've described here. I feel for you because it must be very awful.

If I didn't know any better, I would say, yes, you do have a disorder of some sort. But, of course, I'm not a doctor so it's obviously just my opinion.

I don't think you're making a big deal out of nothing. It's easy to sweep it all under the rug, pretend everything is fine and just hope it will all go away. But if it doesn't go away, Zenona, and if it's effecting your ability to live life and achieve your goals in any way etc., then please, reach out to the psychologists again.

Stay strong,

Thank you.

Hi @Zenona

First of all, none of us can diagnose you. Even if we were doctors, we haven't had time to meet you and talk to you extensively.

That said, it does sound like depression and anxiety, but I agree with @~Christina that it would be a good idea to get blood work done to rule out anything physical. If it's affecting your life this much, it is a big deal. It's not making something out of nothing. If the blood work comes back normal, maybe you can see a doctor about trying anti-depressants. They have helped me a lot.

Take care.

In regard with the blood work
I forgot about it but before going to the psychologist and after telling my mom about everything we went together to a clinic and did absolutely everything that had to be done to be sure that I dont go to a specialist. The rezults were perfect, except some problems regarding the liver.
Trust me I thought that i have like a weather-depression (or winter depression) and, again, i was making a big deal out of it.
Thank you for your responses. I did not think that anybody would answer

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I deal with exhaustion because in part my liver has been damaged from Psych meds having your Liver functions test not in normal range can certainly cause extreme tiredness and it must be followed up with your Medical Doctor.. I did have to see a specialist for further testing, this is not something to ignore..

Hope you feel better soon

Stop going to the gym if you must exercise than go for a walk in the woods.Eat foods that make you feel comfort..Ask the doctor for a sleeping pill that knocks you out a few mins after you take it.You are important and you need to sort out your priorities like what helps,try listening to music or drink some milk before bedtime-go to bed no sooner than 9-10pm and rest your body.Sounds like you need rest and a hug..Yes I think you suffer..and things get bad for you than that's a mental illness don't dout yourself just because you don't self harm or do crazy things to make you crazy even not sleeping properly can be a disorder in its self.be kind to yourself