Borderline Personality Disorder, and more?

I don’t really know how to go about my day. I can be having a wonderful day or week and something as simple as someone disagreeing on an answer in a random conversation can change my mood for the next week. Not to mention i know I suffer from an anxiety disorder of some sort and am on medication for it. I fear there is a lot more to me then me just “being crazy”. I’m an honest genuine person but I feel that something is just holding me back and hiding who I am, I feel like I’m screwed up and I just want to fix it because I’m 16 years old and should feel safe within myself. Does anyone else feel like that in any way?

Hello Roseygirl: I see this is your first post here on PC. Welcome to Psych Central. Here's a link to the Anxiety forum, here on PC, just in case you haven't already found it:

https://psychcentralforums.com/anxie...c-and-phobias/

I'm sorry you are having such a difficult time. One thing you might do, here on PC, is to take some of the quizzes & tests that are on offer. There's a link to them in the banner at the top of the page. However here's an additional link as well:

Psychological Quizzes and Tests

I'm not a mental health professional. So I can't suggest anything in the way of a diagnosis. However two concepts you might look into further would be that of the highly sensitive person as well as childhood emotional neglect (CEN). Here's a link to the CEN forum:

https://psychcentralforums.com/child...ional-neglect/

Here are links to 6 articles, from Psych Central's archives, on these 2 subjects along with links to 5 articles on anxiety & 1 link to an article on coping with your emotions as a teen. Also included is a link to an article on BPD which is something you mentioned in your title:

What Does It Mean to Be a Highly Sensitive Person?

What Makes a Highly Sensitive Person?

https://psychcentral.com/blog/10-tip...sitive-people/

https://psychcentral.com/blog/invisi...ional-neglect/

https://blogs.psychcentral.com/child...e-and-passive/

https://blogs.psychcentral.com/child...ional-neglect/

https://psychcentral.com/anxiety/

https://blogs.psychcentral.com/life-...dium=popular17

https://psychcentral.com/lib/9-ways-...ere-right-now/

https://psychcentral.com/lib/15-smal...iety-symptoms/

https://psychcentral.com/lib/top-10-...s-for-anxiety/

https://psychcentral.com/blog/techni...your-emotions/

https://psychcentral.com/disorders/b...lity-disorder/

I hope you find PC to be of benefit.

You said you are on medication for an anxiety disorder. Did you see your GP or a psychiatrist? Can you see a therapist or talk to your guidance counselor at school. They may be able to get you some resources that you didn't know about. Hope you feel better soon. Best wishes, Kit

Hi Roseygirl03,

I just wanted to say, yes, I feel like that in almost every respect. I may have slightly different mental health issues to yours though, but still - all I've ever wanted was to feel stable within myself.

I see you mentioned BPD in the title. Well, a doctor once gave me a tentative diagnosis of BPD because, like you, someone might say something to me or I might get triggered by something, and that's okay - BUT, my emotional response is very intense and complex and despite my best efforts, it takes a long time to come back to a stable baseline of emotion - a key symptom of BPD. I do not like it.

I don't think we're screwed up any more than the average person out there Rosygirl03, because we can see what the problem is and are quite rational [in your case anyway, ha]. But at your age of 16, you stand a very, very good chance at getting through and overcoming these things.

That feeling of being secure within yourself - and being okay with NOT feeling secure within yourself at times - will happen. Just keep on the good path of self development.

Good on you Rosygirl03, and thanks for sharing.

Welcome to PC.