The Blue Nebula Cantina

Sorry it took me so long to get back to you--I've been trying to make something of this CorelDraw that has fallen into my hands. Remember that last one above that I said I was working on? Check this out.



*Fifth Dimension begins playing...*

It is great that you're taking advantage of the opportunity, especially one that fell into your lap. Those are the best!

The drawing is coming along beautifully. How do you feel about it? I'm not the best critic, but it feels like I'm looking at the work of a professional

My brain craves intense projects like these to focus on, but sometimes they are a factor in my brain becoming unwell. I'm trying to find balance and throttle the intensity that I apply. I'm taking a class comparing Buddhism and modern psychology at the moment and my instinct is to attack it. The concepts I resonate with light my brain up. Ironically, Buddhism would say that my craving and attachment to engage my brain to such a degree is a cause of my suffering. Hmmm?

Oh, I like it. One gentleman was kind enough to render it in 3D. I'm currently working on the Consular cruiser you see in the beginning of the Phantom Menace.















I love how the Consular is turning out so far. The galley turned out really nice.

@Michael2Wolves & @fern46
I have been thinking of the two of you, and I hope you are both well. I have been offline for awhile now. Just taking a moment to breathe and reach out now.

Fern46
“As for manifestation matched with vibration the general thought is that if you pulse something out, more of it will come back. Let's say you wanted to find more joy. In that case you'd need to first create joy somehow on your own. Maybe you watch videos of puppies. Maybe you play with a child. Maybe you recall memories of your own joy in the past. Maybe the best you can do is imagine joy and fake it. You do this over and over as much as you can and then wait for a match in feeling to happen in your life. Whenever the feelings are a match, you've found it even if the package is wildly different than what you expected.”

I thought about this for some time, and to an extent, I understand what you are saying completely. I spent a lot of time thinking through my past and the times that I may have actually felt like I had new beginnings and was experiencing times of vibrational positivity, but even those times eventually became intertwined with others and ultimately would land me back in a similar state of despair. I know that I can find those vibrations on my own, but it is that I am so sensitive to others vibrations that I lose them, and without the ability to be completely on my own, in my own space, I am unable to shield myself. So, I spent time thinking about those times, and how it came to be that I was moving through time and found people I thought I could share those vibrations with in a reciprocative and healthy manner that ultimately never worked. What if, through something I can’t understand, my vibrational pulses were actually only mirrored to me by people who wanted to attract them, feed off them, hoping that they too would have them, but ultimately, they devoured them and left me empty, only being able to feel their negative vibrations. Like subconscious parasites looking for a host, hoping to manifest and partake in an energy they could feel externally but not have resonate within themselves. I do not think that it was always intentional, perhaps the opposites attract scenario comes into play, perhaps it is me subconsciously recognizing their inner vibrations that I know and have experienced and the caring person in me wants to help them as if to help and heal myself. I know if I had trusted my intuition through time, my life would be very different, but I have never been in a place where I could move through the world acting on my intuition alone because survival was too difficult.

Is there something larger in the universe that can take one person’s vibrational positivity and intentionally sabotage it, is there some form of Karma coming into play? Is it my fault that the right path for me alone, or the right person to share with was not presented to me? There is an ember of positive vibrations within me, and I cherish it, protect it, and keep it burning low, but it feels to me that the world is always trying to suffocate it and take away its last breath, deaden the glow. I can find the vibrational fields within myself on an intellectual and psychological realm, but the larger energy fields in the world around me, on the micro and macro scales seem dark and lacking the oxygen to build that feeling from an ember into a glowing fire.

I have been in a very dark space for the last several weeks, too much negative energy has robbed me of my breathe. The floods of anxiety have been unbearable. Through it I have tried to think of positive vibrations, faking it if I could, and it has been so very hard, the feeling of loneliness unbearable.
While thinking of all the vibrational energy I came across some YouTube music. Much of it was not within my resonance, far too light and tinkling to the point of headaches. I did find a few that seemed to resonate and provide some calm amidst the storm, so I thought I would share.
I hope you are both well.
Best Wishes!
I would recommend headphones & closed eyes, and no, I wasn’t using substances:
WARNING 20 Min 💜 PURE KUNDALINI STIMULATION EXTREMELY POWERFUL FREQUENCY 55 Hz (PULSE WAVE TYPE) - YouTube

DMT Activation Frequency, All Frequencies, Teleport, Telepathy, Psychokinesis DEEP MEDITATION TRANCE - YouTube

“It is no measure of health to be well-adjusted to a profoundly sick society.” Krishnamurti

The Woods, White Buffalo
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_0mlPCr_s7U

@StrugglingMama, I am sorry you're going through a rough time. You're swimming through deep and dark waters and it can be difficult to make sense of such an adventure. I admire you for taking the time to contemplate the causal aspects of your journey. Such analysis can be painful and confusing and there is never a clear answer. Nothing I say here is the truth, it is all just my opinion so get out your salt. You'll need at least a grain or two

You are spot on in your thinking that purely positive feeling vibrations can become entertwined with others creating a muddled overall effect. This happens constantly and it is difficult to experience anything pure especially for those who are sensitive to such things as I imagine you to be. It is a mix of your own energy and that of those around you and it can be difficult to discern where those boundaries lie. It can also be difficult to control. Maddening even because it is unseen and because we can only control our own energy.

As for shielding you can do exercises to imagine yourself in a semi permeable bubble. You can imagine one that allows in specific things and recognizes and sounds the alarm for others. This sort of mindfulness can help, but it isn't foolproof. The best we can do sometimes is just step away for a moment and analyze the situation. Work to recognize what energy is yours and what isn't and then set your intention to detach from becoming entangled in the emotions of others.

Energetic vampires... Well yes. It happens all the time. I often miss it at first and only then recognize it later when I am again alone and feeling drained. It takes practice, but sooner or later you can pick up the discernment. Also, do not beat yourself up for it or feel like it was a huge loss. They were in need of some sort and you are able to regenerate what was lost. You can make note of it and avoid it in the future. Dwelling on it feeds the downard spiral.

I tend to believe karma is very complex and the result of physics playing out in unseen ways. When we pull, it leaves a void that must be filled. Same for when we push or when there is attraction or rejection. Energy cannot be lost or created. It simply flows and it is constant. Trying to anticipate karma that seems to work on its own timing is maddening. I find it more valuable to just focus on what the next right thing to do in the present is. From that standpoint you'll at least be minimizing what you add to your tally.

The Buddhist way is to seek ways to be mindful and avoid the push/pull. They believe everything is impermanent and our constant craving of something else other than what is in the moment leads to our suffering. They believe it is our pulling for what we want and our rejection of what we do not that leads us to experience more and more unsatisfactoriness.

That said, it may be worth while to just be with it for a while. Practice acceptance of your current state. Become curious about it and look at it from an outsider's perspective. Detach from the feelings of the emotions and thoughts and look for the patterns in them. Do not fuel them with despair or worry. Let it RAIN (acronym from the link below)
Feeling Overwhelmed? Remember RAIN - Mindful

In theory, rejection of the experience of despair may be the exact catalyst for more despair. I know that sounds dumb, but if you're pulsing out rejection, you may get more and more to reject in return. Acceptance can help to neutralize it and then once you're in a neutral state you can perhaps try again to work to manifest something else.

Is it your fault? I do not think blame adds a lot of value. Is it a baby's fault that they cannot calculate the square root of a number? We cannot see what we do not yet understand to look for. If the 'right' person was in your path at the 'wrong' time it was still wrong. It may help to just be in acceptance that things have worked out as they have and to be curious and maybe even a bit excited about what the future could hold for you. Keep an open mind and heart and know that if karma is at play it could be linked to previous lives you have no memory of. Why feel guilty about it? All you can do is seek to live morally upright and be responsible for how you react to the moment as it comes. That's the only choice. That's all you can affect. If your choices somehow pay some sort of outstanding karmic debt allowing you then to find that perfect person, then that's awesome but there's no way to know any sort of previous wrongdoing is even at play. Perhaps it is best to just enjoy what you can of the ride and learn all you can from the yucky parts.

Music can be a big help. Sometimes you need to step through various stages. It is hard to go from one side of the pendulum straight to the other. It needs to swing through all of the other stages to get there. Leaping can be too painful and feels fake a lot of times. Something that is somewhat dark or slow, but slightly less dark than before is a good next step. I will not be joining you on this adventure though because this kind of music is very activating for me. It leads me to psychosis town and I've been there before

Lastly, I wanted to offer that sometimes we need help beyond what we can do for ourselves. For me at least, medication has been necessary on occasion to snap me out of a phase and help bring me back to stability. Working to do all we can on our own is so commendable and it takes a lot of personal strength. I always take that road first, but it is good to have other tools in our toolbox when we need heavy lifting that we cannot do on our own. There's zero shame in that.

Sending supportive thoughts your way. It was nice to hear from you.

@Michael2Wolves, how are you? I've had a tough week so far. Mostly, I've had someone questioning the core of my morality structure. That's difficult, but I'm not so attached to it that I will break if I cannot publicly defend my own honor. It just isn't worth it and it seems like another lesson in humility for me. Thanks for letting me dump that here. You've been a good friend.

I'm hoping you're well, and sending supportive vibes either way.

this sounds like a fun place, so I thought I'd just jump in and see what's going on here. I'm really REALLY new to the community, so please forgive me if I say something stupid, which certainly wouldn't be the first time I've done such a thing.

@fern46 That's why this is a CANTINA, not a cafe. lol You are always welcome to dump in here. To quote the ineffable Mr. Carey, "Oh, you hate your job? Why didn't you say so? There's a support group for that. It's called everybody, and they meet at the bar."

And welcome to the madhouse, @prettymccute. This was supposed to be a lobby-like splash pad for people to hang out and talk about anything they like. I just happened to be a self-taught graphic artist with a Star Wars obsession. lol

LMAO.. Pour me another drink, my friend. I need it Thanks.

If I only got paid for all of the stupid things I've said Welcome.

Well, it's near the Christmas holiday, so eggnog and rum it is! :P

I've managed to get ahold of Richard Chasemore, one of the artists behind the original Cross-Sections book, and he messaged me just to let me know it was Hans Jenssen I needed to talk to about the Consular-Class cruiser. D'oh!

I've also accumulated a hoard of toilet paper and ramen noodles. I'm prepared for anything. I've got enough toilet paper to last six months. lmao Cups O' Noodles, too. Just wish I could find the California Vegetable flavor...

It is really great to hear you're doing well, and that you're well stocked! I bought some Ramen on my last outing. Just in case...ya know.

It is very cool that Chasemore pointed you in the right direction. I'm glad to know someone in the Star Wars community was ego stable enough to do you a solid. I am excited to hear where this leads. Your renderings are truly fabulous!.

My husband, my brother and my mom usually handle all of the eggnog. It has been a while since I have hit the rum, but perhaps it's time to go back to the classics I needed some fun. Thanks!

Oh and I have NEVER seen the California veggie flavor. Ever. I live in the south though. I'd expect bacon flavor first. Hahahah

California Vegetable is one of the best flavors! Not spicy, not too salty. I should make a shirt with a picture of a ramen noodle pack on the back with WHAT FLAVOR ARE YOU? on it and on the front it says, BODY BY RAMEN. lmao Yeah, unfortunately, Jenssen doesn't seem to be on fakebook, and I don't think my contact email went through to him. Still, I need those notes to figure out what he was intending.

I have to pursue this a bit. There's a UK number, but I'd like to find an actual email rather than using their Contact Us page.

For us, during New Year's, its Grasshoppers, not rum. lol

You need to get on this Ramen T-shirt idea. It would be a big seller 😂

So much to do and learn, so few years to do it in.

Just have to get the license from Maruchan. I wonder if I could pay them in UPCs from their noodle packs...? *gazes at closet packed completely full of empty wrappers*

I used to make this one hookup with ramen. Two packs of ramen, smashed up a bit, one flavor pack, one strip of squeeze cheese (jalapeño), a half a bag of dried refried beans and rice, and a small summer sausage diced up. Served with tortilla chips. lmao

Burritos were worse. I'd use three strips of squeeze cheese (the length of the rectangular bowl), four packs and two flavor packs, a whole bag of refried beans and rice, a bag of rice, a bag of bbq beef (this crap was all foil-bagged where I was) drained and rinsed black beans (to get rid of the salt--1800mg my backside), a whole summer sausage, and served on tortillas with habañero cheese and onion dip spread on them, and topped with diced yellow peppers. Scooby-Snax™ Burritos, cooked to perfection, sealed in a ziplock in a sterile garbage can full of water, boiled with a stinger made from the AC cable of a electric razor. Rofl

Who wants some burritos?! 😂

I have heartburn and all I did was read about it. Oh my.

But they were soooooo good! If you ate two of them, you weren't moving for an hour. Each one weighed like a pound. lol The onion dip seemed to smooth the taste and bite of the habanero cheese.

OOOoo Star Wars! doesn't get any better. I haven't read back posts, but is there a particular era of that fantastic show? There are so many, from the original to the recent movies they've come out with.

And I recall an awesome Cantina on one of them. Was that the famous Blue Nebula?

On the subject of drinks, I would have a kamikaze, though I know I would say something REALLY stupid then.

I recall a blue volcano was a drink from my halcyon days as a student. After one of those you could dance rock and roll very very well. Does the blue nebula carry those? They come in a volcano glass with a ring of fire in the moat. One is all it takes.