How are you feeling right now #3

Anxiety and lonely feels are through the roof. I broke the silence first. Such a dumb idea. He's just ignoring me and it's making me feel worse. I just wanna go to sleep and never wake up.

Kind of disappointed.

I’m feeling kind of bugged about something that may or may not have happened at work.

Overwhelmed, anxious, drained and tired

Basically indifference towards just about everything. One big state of meh.

I'm excited! I just ordered my new mattress. After years and years and years of research, thinking, planning, trying to figure out what to get. No clue when it will get here, I'm doing "white glove delivery" so they'll need to send it to someone locally who can deliver it here, but I'm happy. And hopefully. And a little nervous. But definitely feeling like a weight has been lifted!

Frustrated trying to meet new people but I'm injured and cant do anything. Meetup isn't very helpful since I hardly see any clubs with people my age there

Tired,sad and lonely......I want love,attention and companionship.

Better. I'm cooling down with some salad. I'd eaten ice cream earlier and it turned me into an emotional mess.

like a failure right now

like I want to overeat

Up and down, Kind of in a pit, trying not to sink too low. Coping and functioning, but not fully.

I feel good just came back from a short bike ride to the dog park

I feel on top of the world!

Tired. Alone. Anxious. Hurting. Pretty much the norm nowadays.

Extremely anxious and hurt. Friend was supposed to be on to talk to me before the high, he only just got on within the last half hour and hasn't said anything to me. I did say he didn't have to talk to me if he would be too busy or didn't feel up to it, so it's possible he's using that option. It still hurts. I shouldn't have said that. I guess I need to just bottle everything up and work towards numbness. I'm so tired of feeling like this. I want to feel nothing.

I am feeling really low,I feel overwhelmed with all that I have to do on a daily basis.I must make time for exercise,yoga and to do some art,we agreed I would with my therapist.I can't help but feel sad about not having love,attention and companionship.I am scared that I will always be alone but that might not be the case.I might find love before I die.

Today I had to sort the kitchen out again.I had to empty the fridge freezer and defrost it,cos it is being taken away and a new one being delivered tomorrow,I am quite pleased about that...the old one was over icing and freezing the vegetables in the fridge.

I am trying not to be depressed but that is something I do not have much control over,all I can do is ride over the dark times and pray,I pray I will feel brighter and more positive tomorrow and sometimes that works for me.

Today was my last day off (vacation) - and I woke up with a headache. Headache all day, mostly laid around in bed and played on the kindle or watched TV. I feel kind of crappy and depressed. Not looking forward to going back to work tomorrow - there was a ton of drama last week when I left for the holiday, and I hope that the people involved figured it out (a couple of them were using me as a stand-in therapist, which I am really not well-suited for! It was exhausting!)

I wanted to work on eating better (less sugar) today and exercise, but my head still hurts... the thought of trying to exercise doesn't seem like it would make me feel any better... though a nice warm shower before bed might help.

At least there are only 2 days before the weekend.

I'm also in a bit of a panic... I'm going Monday for a brain mapping with a new neurofeedback person that I met this week. I liked her, but I'm freaking out now... mostly I'm worried that the neurofeedback to "relax" parts of my brain will end up flooding me with crappy memories that I've successfully suppressed, making me non-functional

I don't know what else to do though.. I don't want meds, and therapy has not helped at all. This seems like something that could get me to a better place, which would be amazing. But, omg... the anxiety!

Amused with myself. Bought a mini SNES classic with 21 games. Half hour later, it now has 100 games.

I want the toilet

but too lazy to get up