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Trig Dec 25, 2019 at 07:54 PM
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After two months I was feeling better, doing almost everything I used to. That is what I was about to post.

But today they found her body. In theory this changes nothing, it was exactly as I had imagined. She went into the woods and took her poison.

But my brain doesn't care. Now it is more REAL. The pain is renewed, the tears flowing again, the world is bleak again.

Thank you universe, thank you so much. How nice to make me find my soulmate and then take her away.

Thank you all for your kind support, now and then.

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Default Dec 25, 2019 at 09:58 PM
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stefano It must hurt so much now. I am sorry for your loss.

I am sorry it sounds like the wound that was healing was torn open. It is almost like when they debride a wound and really open it up and clean it up so it heals properly.


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stefano It must hurt so much now. I am sorry for your loss.

I am sorry it sounds like the wound that was healing was torn open. It is almost like when they debride a wound and really open it up and clean it up so it heals properly.


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Yes, exactly what it felt like.
I had spent the day with family and relatives. I was glad I had recovered enough to enjoy the Holydays.
Then I went online and BOOM.
It is so unfair.
I know a lot of unfair things happen but this is like being wrecked and made fun of.
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Default Dec 29, 2019 at 07:41 PM
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The second stage of grief is even worse than the first one. I can't even spell her name without crying. I feel so bad I can't distract myself in any way.
The days are endless...
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Default Dec 29, 2019 at 09:37 PM
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I'm so sorry, my friend. That is absolutely heartbreaking.

When I got the news about my still-much-loved ex, I was beside myself. I went to a local pub and drank whiskey and cried and cried (which is not like me at all) . The people there must have thought I was crazy.

It's just so unbearable.

My heart goes out to you.
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I'm so sorry, my friend. That is absolutely heartbreaking.

When I got the news about my still-much-loved ex, I was beside myself. I went to a local pub and drank whiskey and cried and cried (which is not like me at all) . The people there must have thought I was crazy.

It's just so unbearable.

My heart goes out to you.

Thank you, really.
I had been considering to PM you especially to let you know I was doing better. But then...

I'm trying to contain myself, I don't want to freak out my parents.

One more day is half gone.
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Default Dec 30, 2019 at 08:40 PM
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Yes, PM me any time.

I'm doing a lot of sleeping at the moment, but I'm never far away.
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Default Dec 30, 2019 at 08:43 PM
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I've been thinking a lot about how terrible it must be for you. One becomes fixated on imagining the worst possible scenarios. Our own minds can be very cruel.
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Default Dec 31, 2019 at 04:50 AM
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After two months I was feeling better, doing almost everything I used to. That is what I was about to post.

But today they found her body. In theory this changes nothing, it was exactly as I had imagined. She went into the woods and took her poison.

But my brain doesn't care. Now it is more REAL. The pain is renewed, the tears flowing again, the world is bleak again.

Thank you universe, thank you so much. How nice to make me find my soulmate and then take her away.

Thank you all for your kind support, now and then.

I am so sorry that your friend killed herself. This is beyond horrid. Shock is kind of like a buffer zone until the reality of it all sinks in. Sending you gentle hugs.
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Default Jan 05, 2020 at 08:48 PM
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Two months grief for my suicidal best friend
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Default Jan 06, 2020 at 08:03 AM
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Stefano, she is absolutely beautiful. What a sensitive and wonderful face. Thank you so much for sharing this.
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Default Apr 09, 2020 at 03:41 PM
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After two months I was feeling better, doing almost everything I used to. That is what I was about to post.

But today they found her body. In theory this changes nothing, it was exactly as I had imagined. She went into the woods and took her poison.

But my brain doesn't care. Now it is more REAL. The pain is renewed, the tears flowing again, the world is bleak again.

Thank you universe, thank you so much. How nice to make me find my soulmate and then take her away.

Thank you all for your kind support, now and then.
I'm very sorry for your loss. I lost my brother in law to suicide. I wish that I had acted sooner. Call someone. Had it ever occurred to me that this would happen.
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