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Old 02-02-2019, 12:06 PM #31
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I had a moment today of reflecting upon this thread during one part of my drive out this morning. Typically there's a difference in the eye gaze between my region and my observation around Hollywood last year. Not today, not after this cold snap.

The thing about your son as I see it, is the help is there if only there's a willingness to change. Would your son snap to attention if you weren't giving him money?

I'm left wondering about willful stubbornness.
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The thing about your son as I see it, is the help is there if only there's a willingness to change. Would your son snap to attention if you weren't giving him money?
His dad would agree.

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I'm left wondering about willful stubbornness.
Me too. I feel like I am too emotionally enmeshed in the situation to objectively evaluate and I don't want to go into all of the details of what is going on here. Thanks for your thoughts.
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Today is the anniversary of when I kicked my son out. (I have not talked about the details of the third time he was kicked out--I did it, not my husband). He has been homeless for an entire year. I am not trying to get sympathy for this. It was something I needed to do because his behavior that day was unacceptable. Everyone (my husband, FOO and therapist) told me I did the right thing but I cried and cried after I did it. I gave my son mixed messages that I should not have given him.

I talk to my son everyday. Still feed him, etc. I tell my husband everything about what is going on with him. My husband is a good father, I would blame him for not being perfect and for getting aggravated at my son and me but we both tested him and his love all of the time.

I finally see better where I need to set boundaries with my son. He has charmed me his whole life to get what he wants. I still love him very, very much. That I let him get away with so much was not good but I see that now and I pray that through love and by staying united with my husband, we can work together to someday get our son on a better path.
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Yesterday I talked to my son about the "anniversary", I said I was sorry about the manner in which I did it (I was hysterical) wishing I had just calmly kicked him out; however, what he did that day was wrong and the decision was right. Lately, because my boundaries are clearer with my son, he looks at me differently (his expressions have actuallly changed for the better) and doesn't try to "pull the wool over my eyes" as much. I want to help him always and he knows it.

When I told my H these observations yesterday, he immediately thought I was blaming us for being bad parents. That was not the point I was trying to make. I am trying to do what I should have done long ago but didn't recognize needed to be done. During that conversation yesterday I did not talk about long past events (I was only focussing on the conversation with our son) but that my husband kicked our son out suddenly when he was 18 (he is now 24) and that my son was on his own (with our daughter) for one and a half years with me not confronting my husband over it (tried but he did not listen so I was seeing the kids behind his back) made it harder for me to see the big picture. I was so depressed over what had happened when I should have been helping them more. Sadly, though we were good to our children when they were young we ruined their transition into adulthood. I acknowledge this to our children but my husband does not. My children feel wronged and it is not without merit. My family might always be broken if he doesn't acknowledge their feelings. Our children's feelings are just as valid as my husbands. This is my POV.
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Actually, thinking back, I was not hysterical. I was afraid of my son and preserving myself first and not him. I was impulsive though and in my extreme anxiety I immediately did what my thoughts first told me to do.

Shortly after the event, my son gave me a copy of the book Frankenstein saying I treated him just like Frankenstein was treated. I would read the book and cry thinking there were parallels. I am not a very good or strong mom.
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Though 'they' say adolescence ends at 24, I truly believe that it takes two to tango and that though teenagers into young adult are the responsibility of parents by what the law says, kids do form into their own people during these years and frankly, they do play a part in the functioning or non functioning of the family structure. And it could very well be a first world guilt trip on parents? Teens rebel against parents everyday and in almost every home. Whether big or small rebellions, is unique to each family unit.

Soooo...stop beating yourself up. There's more at play than just parenting. How fortunate for those that rarely struggled with their older child. Good for them. Don't let their judgement hang like a rainy day cloud over your head. Kids fail well intentioned parents every day. Kids squander the land of opportunity every single day. You've done your best. You've done what you've felt right in your heart.

My only suggestion is to stop accepting their blame of you. They've played their parts.
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I was feeling depressed yesterday and when I am depressed, I blame everything on myself. I have gotten better at figuring out when my son is unfairly blaming us and playing me. I am available to speak to him once a day (either I call him or vice versa). When he calls multiple times a day, I do not answer anymore--of course he can leave a message and if it is something that truly has to be dealt with immediately--I will drop everything and go. My therapist has said we are too enmeshed. I cannot speak for my son (kids do not tell their parents everything nor should they) but, yes, I am too enmeshed. I am immature (not being over critical of myself--just an observation that fits).

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My son enjoys laughing at me after he has made me upset. It is only when I am on my antidepressant that I am able to see it more quickly and can walk away earlier. When I have told my T stories about situations where he has laughed at me, she has said, "He has contempt for you," but I don't hold it against my son because I think there is something wrong with him. I love him anyways; he has no one but me.

When I spoke to him yesterday, he said he only had $5 left on his grocery gift card (and hadn't eaten yesterday) so we agreed to meet for breakfast today. I was also going to buy him another grocery store card after breakfast. My daughter wanted to go so I said, "Yes." I thought it was good for the three of us to eat together and support each other. When I let my son know she was coming, he said, "I will only eat with you if she agrees to eat kosher" (no meat/eggs and cheese together--he has never been to a Synogogue, we are not Jewish). My daughter is the type who refuses to be controlled and it is reasonable for her to be able to order what she wants. Anyways, it was obvious that breakfast would have been a disaster. I can tell when being with my son will be torturous. I met him at the close grocery store (it is a more expensive one) and just got him $25 in cash. He kept trying to employ tactics to keep me from leaving plus argued why it was wrong for me to want to bring his sister. His sister is a strong willed person who refuses to take his bs.

When I finally walked away with him still insisting I stay in the meat dept of the store he was laughing at me and discussing my mental illness issues in front of the cashier. I am not that embarrassed for her to know; the issue is his disrespect. A part of me felt like I shouldn't give him the money but in the past, he seems to get really crazy when he goes without eating. He has no job. Lives in a tent. Etc. I know I feed him in order to soothe my own conscience but there have been periods of time where I have let him go hungry. The hunger did not change his behavior and he became completely pitiful.

I still talk with my son daily and try to eat with him once a week (lately, I see if his father will go instead). My husband and I still hope and pray that he will see he needs help. We can only help if we stay in touch. I have not wanted to be specific about my son's problems but want people to understand that both his dad and I have really tried to support him. The problem is either I spoiled him (I was spoiled so that seemed normal to me. ) or he has a serious mental issue. I really do not know for sure.
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The above post was a good last post. Sort of wanted to set the record straight about my son. On many occassions, I didn't admit how bad he treated me and all of my reactions to it. Raising children can be heartbreaking. Accounts fade into the background a bit when you delete them. That is what I want right now. Trying to work more though I feel guilty about that with what happened with my children. Not proud. Still trying to make amends, am taking my medication and hope that by working, I am being a better example for my children. I have been working more closely with my husband which will hopefully help. Maybe some of my posts might help someone dealing with something similiar. Moving on. Hoping that my family has a "win" soon. (Reallly don't like the username Nowinners.) Wish everyone the best.
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What does he do with his day?
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