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Wow, Happy Crafter, what a well-written post! It honestly makes more sense than your first thread.

You seem like a nice person, so I'll give you an insight of my experience.

I didn't know I lived in poverty until middle school. My parents worked SO HARD to give my brother and I the best life possible, more often than not sacrificing their own needs. My parents later would tell the story of how all they could afford for Christmas was one jacket, and it was during the coldest winter "in history" where they lived, and after Christmas the weather quickly warmed up, so they spent most of winter freezing just to say they had something to give each other for Christmas. And I don't remember the entire conversation, but my Dad was dropping me off at school, maybe I asked him for some money, I don't remember, but I remember him sadly telling me "I'm sorry, we can't, we're poor". Up until that moment I NEVER knew there were ever financial struggles in our family. I never knew how much my parents struggled until that moment and even then it wasn't until after high school when my parents opened up about how hard it was to support us. They worked so hard to make sure that my brother and I never felt poor, and we never did, we always thought we had the absolute best possible childhood.

Money as an adult is something I've always struggled with, especially during manic phases. I could save up hundreds, sometimes thousands of money for months, and blow it all in a week on a whim without even a second thought as to my end goal. Yes, that I can definitely blame on my bipolar, but I've done exceptionally well at overcoming this. The past three years I've worked so hard on correcting this behavior, it seems like I'm getting a handle on it. You should have seen me this year, I tried so, so hard to be diligent about saving. Every paycheck I set money aside. I had weak moments, but nothing so drastic that I screwed up my plans entirely. It wasn't easy, and it was on a step above minimum wage salary, but I saved up enough money to take a few months off of work.

I think I experience more stigma for my mental illness than I do for my poverty. I don't consider myself in poverty anymore, just a lot of struggling because I don't have an education and never had a passion. I've found my passion and plan to go to school so I can follow my dreams.

Your post was very inspiring. I'm very interested in what more you have to say.

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Nope, not a teacher although I am asked that irl more often than I ever imagined I could be. I work with the "nutrition" program as they now call it these days. It was a way into employment after not only divorcing and losing my mom to illness and a stint on unemployment after a daycare conflict but also it is municipal employment.
I interact with children of all ages pk-12.

Ground up employment in this department for me. The undercurrent has been where I had obtained my bachelor's degree. It has one of those local region name drop types of curiosities.
From ground up employment is where I am lost. Please, help me understand.

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Wow, Happy Crafter, what a well-written post! It honestly makes more sense than your first thread.

You seem like a nice person, so I'll give you an insight of my experience.

I didn't know I lived in poverty until middle school. My parents worked SO HARD to give my brother and I the best life possible, more often than not sacrificing their own needs. My parents later would tell the story of how all they could afford for Christmas was one jacket, and it was during the coldest winter "in history" where they lived, and after Christmas the weather quickly warmed up, so they spent most of winter freezing just to say they had something to give each other for Christmas. And I don't remember the entire conversation, but my Dad was dropping me off at school, maybe I asked him for some money, I don't remember, but I remember him sadly telling me "I'm sorry, we can't, we're poor". Up until that moment I NEVER knew there were ever financial struggles in our family. I never knew how much my parents struggled until that moment and even then it wasn't until after high school when my parents opened up about how hard it was to support us. They worked so hard to make sure that my brother and I never felt poor, and we never did, we always thought we had the absolute best possible childhood.

Money as an adult is something I've always struggled with, especially during manic phases. I could save up hundreds, sometimes thousands of money for months, and blow it all in a week on a whim without even a second thought as to my end goal. Yes, that I can definitely blame on my bipolar, but I've done exceptionally well at overcoming this. The past three years I've worked so hard on correcting this behavior, it seems like I'm getting a handle on it. You should have seen me this year, I tried so, so hard to be diligent about saving. Every paycheck I set money aside. I had weak moments, but nothing so drastic that I screwed up my plans entirely. It wasn't easy, and it was on a step above minimum wage salary, but I saved up enough money to take a few months off of work.

I think I experience more stigma for my mental illness than I do for my poverty. I don't consider myself in poverty anymore, just a lot of struggling because I don't have an education and never had a passion. I've found my passion and plan to go to school so I can follow my dreams.

Your post was very inspiring. I'm very interested in what more you have to say.
I thank you for your kind words, LL. To me, it sounds like you did have the most wonderful parents and the best childhood possible!

Please, how did you set money aside? I would love to hear more about that. I am dreadful managing money! And what is your passion?

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I thank you for your kind words, LL. To me, it sounds like you did have the most wonderful parents and the best childhood possible!

Please, how did you set money aside? I would love to hear more about that. I am dreadful managing money! And what is your passion?
My passion is to work with the elderly, but caregiving alone won't suffice with living comfortably on my own, so I am going to school to become a geriatric nurse.

I will comment later on my budgeting skills. I am still waking up and have things to do today, but I enjoy sharing how I learned how to budget and definitely want to share something insightful and well-worded.
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Hi! Terrific thread. I'm feeling dense today, so forgive me...is this thread part of a social group? If it is, the social group format has changed and is SO much better. I used to belong to a couple of social groups, but gave up posting on them because of the awkward format.

I have a lot to add, but have to get ready to walk over to a rally for opposing the stigma around mental illness. NAMI rally. It's not really a rally, so much...it's more about hearing peer speakers and free pizza and ice cream...thank God for the latter because (speaking of poverty) my only food for breakfast and lunch today has been my last cup of coffee from yesterday, a peanut butter sandwich on my last 2 slices of stale bread, and a yam I bought a few days ago (another blessing!). Oh, and I had some kitty salmon treats (little pieces of vacuum packed salmon)...gave those to the kitties and ate little piece one myself. Pretty bad, I know, eating cat food...but I love them & give it to them, so...). I have no more food until tomorrow, when I can finally go to the grocery store.

HC, thank you so much for bringing up an issue that is an enormous one.
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Oh - okay, I see that this thread is on the Finances board. That's fine, too!
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From ground up employment is where I am lost. Please, help me understand.
Started at the lowest employee level of the contract/department and am now the highest paid of that contract's/department's employees.

Edit: to add clarification. My boss is not on that contract although she's the same department.
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Speaking of meals, there had been times that my employee meal benefit was my only meal and I've been creative at home with recipes. Not having been too proud to receive staples from my church either, they would come to my home.

Though today, I'm not in need of charity, I'm still aware of where these two communities offer food to many. There's more than one location in the community that I currently live in. Where I work, I've been part of a Food Rescue program as assisting the volunteers in a limited capacity, for instance ensuring the bags, etc are diverted effectively.
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I was on SSI until I married my husband. Never qualified for SSDI because I didn't work long enough before becoming disabled.

Poverty is a hard cycle to break out of. If I hadn't married a man with a middle-class income, I don't know if I could ever have done it. Part of the problem is that the systems in place are designed to keep you dependent. Try to improve your circumstances, and some social worker somewhere is going to warn you not to. I can't count how many times I was warned I shouldn't try to get a job, or I might lose my SSI.

You're allowed to make some income on SSI before the check stops. Also, you can always get that check back again, if the job doesn't work out. But some people are led to believe, whether on purpose or not, that any income at all means your check instantly and permanently stops. If your condition worsens, too bad for you. You'll never see that check again. If you thought that was how it worked, wouldn't you be afraid to even try? Well, it doesn't work like that, but I've been in mental health programs where the staff would lead their clientele to believe it works like that. People were terrified to even look for a part-time minimum wage job. When I took one myself, I was actually told I was doing a stupid thing, rather than being congratulated on trying to improve my situation.

Sometimes people just don't do the math. I'll use round numbers for easy calculation. I don't even know what the actual figures are now, since I haven't been on SSI in ten years. So let's say I draw $600 a month. Then I get a part-time job making $1200 a month. They don't do anything about the first $100, but then for every two dollars on top of that, they take one dollar out of my check. So that's an overage of $1100, which would be $550 that they pull out. Now they're sending me a check for $50, in addition to the $1200 I'm earning. That's $1250 total, as opposed to the $600 I used to get, and I've still got my Medicaid. But ALL some people are going to look at is, "Oh, my gosh, they took almost my whole check! I better stop working!"

I was even warned not to marry my husband. If I did, I'd lose my Section 8 housing. Hello! That's the whole point! I don't need it anymore! Wouldn't it be better for me to live with my husband in a house we own, and save that Section 8 apartment for somebody who doesn't have other options?
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I grew up in poverty....120-year old tenement house with roaches and rats, a criminal neighbor (who molested me and my sister), snow came in thru one crack in the wall...no phone, car, refrigerator, tub or shower....violent mother physically and verbally and I never knew my father (divorce)... I joined the army right out of high school and have been going ever since (divorced after 31 years of abuse); wrote my life story and won a scholarship at 60 and am a Sophomore at 70! Wrote a poetry book and my memoir. xoxo
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So sorry to hear of your struggles. I can't imagine living that way. I am glad you found a way out.

And good for you!!! That is Excellent! What is the name of your memoir? Is it online to be purchased? You have put a great big smile on my face!!

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And good for you!!! That is Excellent! What is the name of your memoir? Is it online to be purchased? You have put a great big smile on my face!!
There are links in my signature. I was told not to make a formal announcement, but that I could put it in my signature. But I just now thought, maybe some people don't have signatures visible, to save screen space. Do you?
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I did not forget about this thread, only been busy.

To answer your question, HappyCrafter...budgeting money is simple, yet somehow it seems so unattainable.

I am not the person who "sets aside a few dollars here and there". I've tried and only found myself dipping into it because hey, this pressing matter is why I've saved aimlessly in the first place.

I have to have an end goal in mind or why bother saving. But once I commit to that goal, I am relentless on focusing on that goal and constantly reminding myself why I'm saving in the first place and where I'd be if I didn't. It takes a lot of discipline, but to have an immediate end goal in mind that means something to you and has a date to say "I'll be saving XYZ until Christmas" is important. Having a date is important because it helps figure out how much you need to save every paycheck. And it's okay to not reach that goal in time, but if you never started where would you be?

Sorry, I felt that wasn't helpful. My mind is so restless today.
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And good for you!!! That is Excellent! What is the name of your memoir? Is it online to be purchased? You have put a great big smile on my face!!
Well, thank YOU, glad I put a smile on your face. My memoir (Ghost Child to Triumph--from a child with no voice,to someone who speaks up against injustice) isn't online (doing it the old-fashioned way);' if you pm me I will let you know how to get it. xo!
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Noone had phones, cars, refrigerators or showers in my childhood neighbourhood, so I'm reading and going - whoah did people really have all that stuff? My dad worked one full-time job and two part-time jobs at the same time - and organised community events around music, playacting, crafts and stuff. No tv or internet to waste time.
Mum and me grew all our food and eggs - just meat one day a week and a box of sugar, flour essentials. Only heating in the dining room, and clothes hung all winter over the stove in the kitchen.

They lacked ease. I don't think ease was even a remote place in their imagination. Just drive on, keep the roof on, take care of the old people.

I didn't think that was poverty. But once I got a scholarship to a fancy school, teachers started nagging me about my socks being the wrong colour, my homework book not being immaculate AND especially about my long hair being untidy. I didn't feel ashamed of my family, I just thought that the teachers were scary and crazy.

The poverty was noone confronting my dad about his extreme violence because he had also grown up with a dad and a boss (when he left school at 13) who were violent men... "because he was such a good provider".

Then more recently poverty for me was about not having any food at all but still having to pay local tax or have my stuff repossessed. The stress of being hungry, having a pot of pennies on the mantle piece, of having to walk everywhere or never being able to accept a social invitation, of never being able to make one single budget mistake or the whole month would be in ruins.

It's the constant anxiety of poverty, and not being able to get on help programs because I don't have kids so I don't qualify for needing food.

Now for the time being I'm ok, and I'm very grateful!

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I think it's difficult to become ok because improving finances requires a lot of slog and hoping for the best despite the hard evidence. Hope is hard to keep hold of when you don't have food in your belly.

And people in my current neighbourhood help more to people who appear affluent like they are. I feel excluded from consumer conversations. I feel VERY lucky to no longer live in a desperate neighbourhood where you are kept awake by violence all night, but fancy neighbourhoods can be sad too because of the general thoughtlessness and entitled behaviours
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Great Topic!!!

Yep I am living in poverty and wish I wasn't.

No matter how much I try to pull myself up there has been many barriers in my way leaving me in this poverty trap as I have called it.

I have complex trauma from my childhood. Became disabled 17 yrs ago because of it. With that I got SSDI and useless medicare.

Prior becoming disabled my life was very different. I was middle class and it was really living the dream looking back. I had a good job I was with for 15 yrs, had a nice savings acct, 401k, was very well regarded in my field and by my coworkers. Had the house the car and lost all that when I became disabled just trying to stay afloat waiting for the disability to be approved.

I don't even know that person I used to be seems so distant of where I am today.

If anyone who has been disabled with medicare for mental illness will know back in the early 2000s the co pay's were very high 40% to be exact. To see a therapist it was $300 and 40% co-pay was too much on such limited income. To see the therapist 4x a month at that rate would cost $480.
Little math 800$ a month SSDI (early 2000s) Rent 600 + medicare prem +100 =$700. $100 left for the month. There was no room in this constricting budget to do therapy. So I opted to go the medication route. It was more cost effective I thought initially. $50 4 times a year to see a Psych doc was all I could afford. It was the biggest mistakes of my life going that route. Going to make this part short as I can. As a result of taking many different psych meds it caused me to grind my teeth bad. I would report it back t doc and they switched to another and the grinding continued. In 2007 the damage was beyond repair with my teeth from these meds and I had to have them all removed. I had a charity remove the teeth as I learned Medicare covered no dental and did not qualify for Medicaid. The charity that removed the teeth had me set up with another program for dentures and unfortunately they lost funding so no dentures. This is where I learned there is two sides of being poor. A few dollars separated me from getting medicaid.
that would of helped me immensely. It has all the things medicare lacks!!!!!

**side note 2008 the mental health parity law changed those 40% co-pays to 20% + included Medicare advantage plan - that did not help with the dental nor was it cost effective for therapy copays** Side rant it amazes me the SSA grants a disability and gives a insurance that pays little to no coverage for the disability granted? yet I am the crazy one in their eyes?? IMO those continuing disability reviews need to be more frequent and do more thorough reviews to make sure the people are getting the proper treatments.

Moving forward 2018. Still no teeth. I am the poster child of what poverty looks like with the absence of teeth. I have been the brunt of jokes and dirty looks and it wears at ones self esteem. It is hard going into the world with no teeth. It has made my anxiety worse of how mean people have been. It leaves me very isolated I have no friends (no family - cut ties too toxic yrs ago) I can not get a job. Recently I submitted a resume for a job that was perfect for me. The employer was eager to meet with me. However that fell apart because of the teeth issue. I have not been in a relationship in over 8 yrs hard to date with no teeth. So that need of closeness and connectedness has been absent for so many yrs. It's hard for me to relate to people these days being I am so far pushed to the fringes of society by this poverty. I feel judged by neighbors I see them leave in morning and come home later in the day and I did absolutely nothing with my day. I miss that feeling of being productive, earning my own money and being apart of this society...

In retrospect and being a survivor of abuse and was able to get away from all that of my past.... the biggest abuser TODAY is this damn system. It gripe is tighter on me...I fight everyday (medicare/medicaid/ssa etc) I can not break free from it as badly as I want to be independent as I was so many yrs ago.

imo poverty is another form of trauma
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Noone had phones, cars, refrigerators or showers in my childhood neighbourhood, so I'm reading and going - whoah did people really have all that stuff? My dad worked one full-time job and two part-time jobs at the same time - and organised community events around music, playacting, crafts and stuff. No tv or internet to waste time.
Mum and me grew all our food and eggs - just meat one day a week and a box of sugar, flour essentials. Only heating in the dining room, and clothes hung all winter over the stove in the kitchen.

They lacked ease. I don't think ease was even a remote place in their imagination. Just drive on, keep the roof on, take care of the old people.

I didn't think that was poverty. But once I got a scholarship to a fancy school, teachers started nagging me about my socks being the wrong colour, my homework book not being immaculate AND especially about my long hair being untidy. I didn't feel ashamed of my family, I just thought that the teachers were scary and crazy.

The poverty was noone confronting my dad about his extreme violence because he had also grown up with a dad and a boss (when he left school at 13) who were violent men... "because he was such a good provider".

Then more recently poverty for me was about not having any food at all but still having to pay local tax or have my stuff repossessed. The stress of being hungry, having a pot of pennies on the mantle piece, of having to walk everywhere or never being able to accept a social invitation, of never being able to make one single budget mistake or the whole month would be in ruins.

It's the constant anxiety of poverty, and not being able to get on help programs because I don't have kids so I don't qualify for needing food.

Now for the time being I'm ok, and I'm very grateful!
(((((((((((((((((((((((((Saidso)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))) I hear you. What was your scholarship in? I am sorry you had to go through that, plus your father being violent. Is he still alive and do you have contact with your family?
I agree, poverty anxiety is constant. With no changes to look forward to, every day blends into each other and they become a long blur of depression. That is how it has been for me at times.

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I think it's difficult to become ok because improving finances requires a lot of slog and hoping for the best despite the hard evidence. Hope is hard to keep hold of when you don't have food in your belly.

And people in my current neighbourhood help more to people who appear affluent like they are. I feel excluded from consumer conversations. I feel VERY lucky to no longer live in a desperate neighbourhood where you are kept awake by violence all night, but fancy neighbourhoods can be sad too because of the general thoughtlessness and entitled behaviours
I am glad you no longer live in a violent neighborhood. Can't imagine what that must have felt like. I would have been cowering in my bedroom.

Some people do take a lot for granted and assume everyone is like them. But, if you are different or, worse, in poverty, you may no longer exist, as far as they are concerned.

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