Hocd and crush

I’ve posted this in the past but I have had hocd since 2004 and haven’t been able to get the right therapist and I’ve been to many. I’ve had this obsession with a video game character for almost two years now. He is perfect to me and he’s taken over my life. No one understands what it’s like they jus think cause he’s not real that it’s no big deal. My obsession with him is taking over my life. I recently found out this character might have a girlfriend and it literally made my stomach hurt since hearing that and I’ve been very depressed more than ever before since. I know now I really have to get over him but I cannot. My hocd also tries to use him against me making me feel like he’s girlish when he’s not and that I don’t like him. I need to move on from him but I’m afraid my hocd is gonna get worse if I have no guy to think of it’s always been that way if I don’t have a guy to think about my hocd is worse. Now I’m feeling hopeless first that I love this character and I’m hurt over him and worry that I’ll never feel this way about a real guy and that he’s messed up my attraction to real guys seriously no real guy does anything for me now and that hurts my hocd too. I really need advice I can’t deal with this anymore. Please any advice?

What is HOCD?

Ocd theme where you obsess about being gay

I really need advice

I've read a number of your previous posts as well as this one. And so I have at least some small sense of how difficult this must be for you. Honestly, to my mind, this is not something you're going to find a solution for here on PC or anywhere else on the internet. I know you wrote you've been to many therapists & they haven't helped. But my personal, non-professional thinking is that professional mental health services may be what will be necessary for you to overcome your obsession.

I obviously don't know why none of the many therapists you've seen have been able to help you. However I'm not unfamiliar with this type of experience myself. (It's a long story & I'll spare you the details.) Perhaps though, if what you've tried has always been individual talk therapy with different therapists, maybe that's not the type of therapy you need? There's a particular type of therapy called Exposure Response Prevention (ERP) Therapy which is supposedly beneficial for OCD. Perhaps this is more the type of therapy that would be of help to you?

I believe I have replied to at least one of your previous posts. And I probably provided you with links to some articles, from PC's archives... (because that's what I do.) So it's possible I've brought these articles to your attention previously. If so, please forgive me. However here are links to 3 articles on the subject of ERP therapy:

ERP Therapy: A Good Choice for Treating OCD

Good Therapy for OCD

The Truth About ERP Therapy | OCD Reflections

My best wishes to you...

Hi I’ve been to psychologist who said they do cbt but they never did. I’m not able to see the erp therapist my insurance doesn’t cover it seems only the rich could get help. I’m a the point where I just want to stay in bed all day instead of dealing with everything . I’ve been dealing with this since 2004 I’ve lost precious years of my life and it seems I’ll miss more since this isn’t ever gonna go away. I can’t even deal with my real feelings for a guy and trying to get over him cause the hocd hurts even more. I don’t know who I am what to do this has destroyed me. All I ever wanted was a boyfriend but it probably is never gonna happen now plus they’ll think I’m too old now. I feel I had life stolen from me and no one could understand what this like no one I talk to in my life has a clue the suffering I’ve done. I feel broken and no one is gonna help me