[DfendrOfEmilysHeart]

Years ago, when I was on a school trip to York, on the last night in the hotel, I heard a little girl saying me too, me too. I told the girls I was sharing the room with and my mum, but they didn't believe me and the girls made fun of me.

This has happened a few times since, with people calling my name while I was in town. Since the York incident, I haven't told anyone about it. I just pushed it to the back of my mind.

I also have a fear that people are going to do bad things to me and the people around me. When I see cars go up the drive where I live, my mind takes me on a crazy journey of kidnap and rescue. I see little kids wondering around without their parents and I watch to make sure they're safe, always thinking the worst.

I had a dream or image once that my mum had left me in my pushchair and then I was being pushed away. I looked up at a woman who wasn't my mum.

My cousin was ill as well a few years ago and I was terrified she was going to die. I convinced myself I'd be able to cope, but deep down I knew I wouldn't.

I constantly have thoughts of death and friends and family dying. It's like if I expect the worst I'll never get hurt, but I always do.

What does your therapist say about this?

[DfendrOfEmilysHeart]

This is the first time I've ever told anyone about all this. She doesn't know.

Maybe she should?

i have had wonderful break through today! and i have realized that all of these "charaters" are me. i think i have been sterotyping my self and trying to organize all of the things that make me who i am into different people. i can be a reckless person, i love dressing like a cowboy, i am indeed bi-sexual. now i just need to adress my depression and social phobia. thanks to everyone who commented on my threads!!!

sorry i don't know how this got here i'd delete it but it won't let me.
very very sorry.

[VickiesPath]

Originally Posted by WarmSeptemberSun

This is the first time I've ever told anyone about all this. She doesn't know.

These sound like the very things that you should be discussing with your therapist. I would be willing to guess that you would gain great insight into it all by doing so.

[DfendrOfEmilysHeart]

Well she's a counseller and I'm not ssure if that's the same thing ?

[VickiesPath]

Originally Posted by WarmSeptemberSun

Well she's a counseller and I'm not ssure if that's the same thing ?

If she's a life counselor, or a school counselor, or someone who you tell your troubles to and helps you solve problems and is a certified professional, then yes, that would be the same as a therapist.

[DfendrOfEmilysHeart]

She's a college counseller