I'm freaking out. Am I losing my mind?

I don't know if I'm going crazy or there are ghosts in my apartment or what the hell is going on and no one will take me seriously, but there's seriously no explanation for what happened last night.

I was in the bathroom and I started hearing this woman's voice, followed by the beginning of Elvis Presley's Only You, and then the sound of the radio being turned off. It happened like, three times with a few minute breaks. My radio was on when I went to the bathroom, but it must've turned off before all of that happened because it was on sleep mood, and it was on a folder that did not have that song or the woman's audio. In fact, I checked last and just checked it again, and those files are NOT in my pen-drive (although a few months ago they were). Turns out the woman's voice (as I learned the last time it played) was from a scene of the TV Show Scream. It's just Emma talking, about feeling like she's shattered glass. But it only ever played the ending of the audio. And with Elvis' song it was always just the beginning. I wouldn't listen to any other files during the breaks. As I said, those files were not in my pen-drive. They are not in my pen-drive. And that Elvis' song was a song that I used for a scene in a SL a few weeks ago, in which the villain played that song in his head like a musical to ruin it for him ('cause he loves Elvis). I don't know, maybe being a writer is messing with my brain. Maybe because I wrote a character that has once been possessed by a demon (on the TV Show) I am attracting that sort of thing. Did I miss with the wrong thing? But I don't do any scenes of that sort, it's just her backstory. Anyway, I don't know if it has anything to do with any of that or not, all I know is I'M FREAKING OUT BECAUSE I CAN'T FIND A REASONABLE EXPLANATION, AND I WAS NOT DREAMING AND NO ONE ELSE IN THE HOUSE HEARD IT, WHICH I FIND IT STRANGE BECAUSE THEY WOULD'VE WOKEN UP, THE RADIO WAS REALLY LOUD.

And it's not the first time I listen to a song that's not there. But the other time (a few weeks ago), I heard it coming from another room and it lasted for like 5 seconds. When I did some research on Google, I figured (hoped) it was because I had listened to that song one too many times. That song also was a part of the story for which I used Elvis' song.



P.S: I have been diagnosed with personality disorder, depression and anxiety not too long ago. I've never taken meds, but I've been to therapy before. In the past (when my depression was at my worst), I've seen ghosts (never talked to them, only saw them), as well as the Grim Reaper. I've had ghosts lying lying or standing not to me in bed, flying over my bed, or walking freely on the street (I watched it from my window). That was years ago though. Never had another episode again, and I couldn't figure out with my therapist what that really was about... if it was real or I was seeing ghosts because I desperately wanted to believe there was an afterlife.

I see this is your first post so welcome to Psych Central. I have no idea if it was an otherworldly occurrence or if you were simply hearing things. Hopefully someone with better insight comes along.

I'd suggest to reach out to another therapist if you can, likeagreyrainbow I'm not sure what this may be but there may be various causes. Perhaps it's your MI, perhaps you're VERY stressed out, perhaps it's your anxiety, perhaps it's your fear. Definitely reach out to a professional as soon as you possibly can. Hopefully they'll be able to help you. Taking meds may be helpful as well although I'm not sure about that. You DEFINITELY need to talk to a doctor ABOUT ALL OF THIS! Wishing you the best of luck BOTH in your healing and in your life! Please DO keep us updated on your situation and let us know how it goes! We ALL do care about you! THAT'S A PROMISE! Please stay safe and take GREAT care of yourself! YOU ARE IMPORTANT AND YOU MATTER! Keep fighting! Sending many safe, warm hugs to you, likeagreyrainbow!

How late are you up watching these things because I think what you are experiencing is directly related. Something of course must be triggering these thoughts but they are not 'new' or foreign to you. I know I get repetitive night time thoughts about prior experiences - especially those that have occurred late in the evenings or had a powerful impact on me. They race in my head waking me up. I swear they are real at times and then I realise I am just recalling something I had previously experienced or seen.

I also am curious about your sleep hygiene practices. Poor sleep hygiene can contribute to what you are describing.

In other words, what I am trying to say, is no you are not crazy. There are possible explanations for this.

My psychiatrist has me now taking a big dose of anti-anxiety medication at bed-time and I have yet to have such experiences since.

Hi,
That is a strange experience. I hope the voices and ghost go away! I too have been seeing things that aren't there. When i turn my head to look, there is nothing there. I told my therapist. I just try not to pay attention anymore.Good Luck!

Raindropvampire: Thank you for the warm welcome! And thank you for taking the time to read my post.



MickeyCheeky: A while ago I tried to find a new therapist, but she refused to take me as a patient unless I did therapy alongside with the help of a psychiatrist and took antidepressants. I've been afraid to go to another therapist since. I want to do therapy without taking meds, you know? I've done it before and it helped. I know it's long process, but I'm sure my condition would improve with the help of a therapist as it has in the past. Thank you for taking the time to read my post and for being so sweet!! Also, thanks for your helpful input.

WishfulThinker66: I don't really watch any of that stuff late at night, but I do write, all the time. When I'm not writing on a screen or a piece of paper, my head is writing. I'm very passionate about this story, but the fact that it has turned into obsessive thoughts that won't leave my head even when I try to focus on other things has become a problem. I'll have the same words playing in my head over and over again until I get the chance to write them down. It gets to the point where it affects me physically and I find myself exhausted. (But if it's not that story, it'll be something else. I'm sure the words of this text will play in my head over and over again long after I've posted it.)

Sooner or later, everything I love becomes an obsession. The only way for me to make it stop is to cut it off completely, which means that I always have to give up on the things that make me smile and that's just not fair. Then I'll find something else to hold on to and the cycle starts again. This time I didn't want to have to give away what I love. I've been trying to find a different way to cope and turn my obsession into something healthier, but when something like what happened the other night happens, I find myself not knowing how to go on. Am I being irresponsible by holding onto this thing I love that's causing obsessive thoughts?

Possible trigger:

Lately I've had suicide scenes pop into pretty much everything I watch (accidentally. I definitely wouldn't have watched any of it had I known there would be that kind of scene), and that's something that affects me because I have a history of suicide thoughts and have contemplated it before more than once, but managed to stop myself before going any further.

Maybe that has triggered my anxiety to the point of hearing things that are not there?

As for my sleeping habits, I haven't slept much or healthily. It's like my head never stops and I keep writing even in my sleep. I also have the habit of using the bathroom in the middle of the night, which messes with my sleeping hygiene.

Thank you for taking the read to read my post and for your helpful input.


Ladylullaby: Thank you for taking the time to read my post and for sharing your experience! Did your therapist tell you to not pay attention? I have tried telling my mother and my sister about this experience, but they didn't take it seriously. My mom said 'anything can happen late at night,' whereas my sister said I pay too much attention to things that I shouldn't be paying attention to.