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I'm such a complex case that I wish I had real help in my main problem...
I know that part of my MI is Bipolar because I've had severe depressive and I had severe Mania too with psychosis mixed in. My meds basically do a good job of preventing the severe mood states and psychosis, but I still have extreme, unstable emotions and something that is either meltdowns or some sort of outburst disorder since I was a kid... That's what is killing me right now. I am trying to find answers. I am also diagnosed with borderline personality, but most people think I have Asperger's, though my doctor disagrees (but my talk therapist thinks I'm mentally ill, have a personality disorder and I'm on the autism spectrum) No matter what my label is my meltdowns is the major disability I face. Sometimes I get meltdowns just thinking about it... Mental health wants me to go through DBT therapy, but the meltdowns happen so fast I can't apply my skills before I am angry or too sad. I wish I had a different doctor too. I felt good on Zoloft, but she said I was feeling "too good", called it hypomania, took me off the med completely, now I'm depressed... And I'm not depressed enough to go to the psych ward, but they can't move up my appointment... So I have to suffer in depression and meltdowns.... __________________ It's as simple as I love birds...
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Sorry you're suffering. I also think I may be on the autism spectrum but haven't officially been diagnosed. I don't really have meltdowns, but I am socially awkward.
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I had many, many years of dubious diagnoses and it was extremely frustrating. There were times when it felt to me like the mental health professional who was trying to settle on a dx would even become frustrated with me because I didn't fit somewhere that was convenient for them. I had medical practitioners say they were "pretty sure" I had bipolar disorder and blah, blah.
I truly do not know why any of them had such difficulty diagnosing me, when my dx was pretty clear to those who knew me well. I was finally fortunate, 3 years ago, and connected with a pdoc who had no problem diagnosing me. She was spot on and her treatment has been accurate. I've come to understand that there are far too many pdocs who aren't very talented. I don't know, of course, what your exact situation is. Your dx might truly be difficult to assess. Or perhaps you have 2 or 3 diagnoses going on. Whatever the case, it sounds like maybe you don't have confidence in your current doctor. For me, that's a very unnerving feeling. Any chance you can look elsewhere? Something I will add is that the excellent pdoc I now see is through a low-income clinic. I don't pay anything to see her, but she sets me up with appointments 2 or 3 times/month. __________________ |
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My husband asked around and my doctor has a reputation of putting people on the "latest" meds... Why exactly do I need to be on Latuda and Vraylar at the same time for example???
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My meds are Latuda, Vraylar, Trazodone and Depakote... And the Latuda and Vraylar are high dose... And my mood is still messed up and I still get horrible meltdowns, but I had these problems since I was very young. I felt much better on Zoloft and she took it away. I still have the med bottle, my husband keeps saying "take them anyway" but I can't or I'll get in trouble. Most strangers meeting me, and pretty much every therapist I had including my current one, thinks I'm autism spectrum and with my special interests and the fact as a child it's even recorded I went through social skills therapy. But my doc says no and even told me to stop going to a couple of past therapists that wanted me to have autism testing. __________________ It's as simple as I love birds...
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The closest I think to the truth I ever got was once I was inpatient and the doc there said "I got bored and read all your records, even those childhood reports you have, and I've observed your behavior in the unit, I think you have Bipolar Disorder and Asperger's"
My current doc has me down as Schizoaffective, bipolar-type and Borderline personality. __________________ It's as simple as I love birds...
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Do you want to go to autism testing? My POV is that you should have a vote on these things. She should reconsider--at least give it another go if you are sure it helped. What about compromising with a lower dose? |
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We're supposed to fit in just one box? Oh man....
I have both aspergers and ADD. Plus mild-moderate depression and several anxiety disorders and a huge sleep disorder. I somehow didn't see that as a complex case or not fitting in. I do fit in my boxes even if no one fits like to 100 %. I only have one brain and the way psychiatry is set up is to have several names for what I have. I'm OK with that. I couldn't stop meltdowns either. I just have to try to not ignore my stress levels as I have done in the past. If I see where my stress levels are, it is easier not to have meltdowns when further stuff is suddenly placed on me. __________________ |
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Maybe because there is no generic and she gets kickbacks or something dubious from pushing them?
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Have you asked her why you need to be on two atypical antipsychotics?
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Hi Birdcrazy, I just wanted to agree that maybe you could try a different doctor. And request zoloft, because you did so well on it before. Also, I love birds too. Don't forget to go where they are & feel happy. Hugs to you! I wish you all the best.
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