advertisement
Reply
Thread Tools Display Modes
birdcrazy
Veteran Member
 
birdcrazy's Avatar
birdcrazy has no updates.
 
Member Since: Sep 2009
Location: Southern Michigan
Posts: 516
10 yr Member
Default Aug 10, 2019 at 10:23 AM
  #1
I'm such a complex case that I wish I had real help in my main problem...

I know that part of my MI is Bipolar because I've had severe depressive and I had severe Mania too with psychosis mixed in.

My meds basically do a good job of preventing the severe mood states and psychosis, but I still have extreme, unstable emotions and something that is either meltdowns or some sort of outburst disorder since I was a kid... That's what is killing me right now. I am trying to find answers. I am also diagnosed with borderline personality, but most people think I have Asperger's, though my doctor disagrees (but my talk therapist thinks I'm mentally ill, have a personality disorder and I'm on the autism spectrum)

No matter what my label is my meltdowns is the major disability I face. Sometimes I get meltdowns just thinking about it... Mental health wants me to go through DBT therapy, but the meltdowns happen so fast I can't apply my skills before I am angry or too sad.

I wish I had a different doctor too. I felt good on Zoloft, but she said I was feeling "too good", called it hypomania, took me off the med completely, now I'm depressed... And I'm not depressed enough to go to the psych ward, but they can't move up my appointment... So I have to suffer in depression and meltdowns....

__________________
It's as simple as I love birds...
birdcrazy is offline   Reply With QuoteReply With Quote
 
Hugs from:
Breaking Dawn, downandlonely, MickeyCheeky, Open Eyes, SlumberKitty, TunedOut, zapatoes
 
Thanks for this!
MickeyCheeky

advertisement
downandlonely
Legendary
 
downandlonely's Avatar
downandlonely has no updates.
 
Member Since: Mar 2018
Location: United States
Posts: 10,760 (SuperPoster!)
5 yr Member
10.6k hugs
given
PC PoohBah!
Default Aug 10, 2019 at 10:27 AM
  #2
Sorry you're suffering. I also think I may be on the autism spectrum but haven't officially been diagnosed. I don't really have meltdowns, but I am socially awkward.
downandlonely is offline   Reply With QuoteReply With Quote
 
Hugs from:
zapatoes
Anonymous32451
Guest
Anonymous32451 has no updates. Edit
 
Posts: n/a
Default Aug 10, 2019 at 11:15 AM
  #3
(((((hugs)))))
  Reply With QuoteReply With Quote
 
Hugs from:
zapatoes
TunedOut
Grand Poohbah
 
TunedOut's Avatar
TunedOut has no updates.
 
Member Since: May 2019
Location: USA
Posts: 1,523
3 yr Member
6,983 hugs
given
PC PoohBah!
Default Aug 10, 2019 at 02:03 PM
  #4
Quote:
Originally Posted by birdcrazy View Post
I wish I had a different doctor too. I felt good on Zoloft, but she said I was feeling "too good", called it hypomania, took me off the med completely, now I'm depressed... And I'm not depressed enough to go to the psych ward, but they can't move up my appointment... So I have to suffer in depression and meltdowns....
Can you talk to her about putting you back on it? Tell her how bad your depression and meltdowns are without it. Why did she say you were feeling too good? Isn't feeling good, good? Or was it causing a problem? Also, how long have you been off it? Maybe the depression will lessen when you get used to being off it. If not, tell her it was a mistake. Only we know how our drugs make us feel.
TunedOut is offline   Reply With QuoteReply With Quote
 
Hugs from:
zapatoes
*Beth*
catches the flowers
*Beth* is practicing healthy breathing for brain, mind, body, spirit.
 
Member Since: Jul 2019
Location: Downtown Vibes, California
Posts: 15,701 (SuperPoster!)
3 yr Member
23.7k hugs
given
PC PoohBah!
Default Aug 10, 2019 at 05:29 PM
  #5
I had many, many years of dubious diagnoses and it was extremely frustrating. There were times when it felt to me like the mental health professional who was trying to settle on a dx would even become frustrated with me because I didn't fit somewhere that was convenient for them. I had medical practitioners say they were "pretty sure" I had bipolar disorder and blah, blah.

I truly do not know why any of them had such difficulty diagnosing me, when my dx was pretty clear to those who knew me well.

I was finally fortunate, 3 years ago, and connected with a pdoc who had no problem diagnosing me. She was spot on and her treatment has been accurate.

I've come to understand that there are far too many pdocs who aren't very talented. I don't know, of course, what your exact situation is. Your dx might truly be difficult to assess. Or perhaps you have 2 or 3 diagnoses going on.

Whatever the case, it sounds like maybe you don't have confidence in your current doctor. For me, that's a very unnerving feeling. Any chance you can look elsewhere? Something I will add is that the excellent pdoc I now see is through a low-income clinic. I don't pay anything to see her, but she sets me up with appointments 2 or 3 times/month.

__________________




*Beth* is offline   Reply With QuoteReply With Quote
 
Hugs from:
Breaking Dawn, zapatoes
 
Thanks for this!
Breaking Dawn, TunedOut
birdcrazy
Veteran Member
 
birdcrazy's Avatar
birdcrazy has no updates.
 
Member Since: Sep 2009
Location: Southern Michigan
Posts: 516
10 yr Member
Default Aug 10, 2019 at 07:20 PM
  #6
My husband asked around and my doctor has a reputation of putting people on the "latest" meds... Why exactly do I need to be on Latuda and Vraylar at the same time for example???

__________________
It's as simple as I love birds...
birdcrazy is offline   Reply With QuoteReply With Quote
 
Hugs from:
SlumberKitty, TunedOut, zapatoes
birdcrazy
Veteran Member
 
birdcrazy's Avatar
birdcrazy has no updates.
 
Member Since: Sep 2009
Location: Southern Michigan
Posts: 516
10 yr Member
Default Aug 10, 2019 at 07:37 PM
  #7
Quote:
Originally Posted by TunedOut View Post
Can you talk to her about putting you back on it? Tell her how bad your depression and meltdowns are without it. Why did she say you were feeling too good? Isn't feeling good, good? Or was it causing a problem? Also, how long have you been off it? Maybe the depression will lessen when you get used to being off it. If not, tell her it was a mistake. Only we know how our drugs make us feel.
I go into her office and say I'm feeling great but she claimed she saw hypomania and she took me off the Zoloft and put me on Vraylar "to stop the Mania"

My meds are Latuda, Vraylar, Trazodone and Depakote... And the Latuda and Vraylar are high dose... And my mood is still messed up and I still get horrible meltdowns, but I had these problems since I was very young. I felt much better on Zoloft and she took it away. I still have the med bottle, my husband keeps saying "take them anyway" but I can't or I'll get in trouble.

Most strangers meeting me, and pretty much every therapist I had including my current one, thinks I'm autism spectrum and with my special interests and the fact as a child it's even recorded I went through social skills therapy. But my doc says no and even told me to stop going to a couple of past therapists that wanted me to have autism testing.

__________________
It's as simple as I love birds...
birdcrazy is offline   Reply With QuoteReply With Quote
 
Hugs from:
SlumberKitty, TunedOut, zapatoes
birdcrazy
Veteran Member
 
birdcrazy's Avatar
birdcrazy has no updates.
 
Member Since: Sep 2009
Location: Southern Michigan
Posts: 516
10 yr Member
Default Aug 10, 2019 at 07:46 PM
  #8
The closest I think to the truth I ever got was once I was inpatient and the doc there said "I got bored and read all your records, even those childhood reports you have, and I've observed your behavior in the unit, I think you have Bipolar Disorder and Asperger's"

My current doc has me down as Schizoaffective, bipolar-type and Borderline personality.

__________________
It's as simple as I love birds...
birdcrazy is offline   Reply With QuoteReply With Quote
 
Hugs from:
SlumberKitty, TunedOut, zapatoes
TunedOut
Grand Poohbah
 
TunedOut's Avatar
TunedOut has no updates.
 
Member Since: May 2019
Location: USA
Posts: 1,523
3 yr Member
6,983 hugs
given
PC PoohBah!
Default Aug 10, 2019 at 09:12 PM
  #9
Quote:
Originally Posted by birdcrazy View Post
I go into her office and say I'm feeling great but she claimed she saw hypomania and she took me off the Zoloft and put me on Vraylar "to stop the Mania"

My meds are Latuda, Vraylar, Trazodone and Depakote... And the Latuda and Vraylar are high dose... And my mood is still messed up and I still get horrible meltdowns, but I had these problems since I was very young. I felt much better on Zoloft and she took it away. I still have the med bottle, my husband keeps saying "take them anyway" but I can't or I'll get in trouble.

Most strangers meeting me, and pretty much every therapist I had including my current one, thinks I'm autism spectrum and with my special interests and the fact as a child it's even recorded I went through social skills therapy. But my doc says no and even told me to stop going to a couple of past therapists that wanted me to have autism testing.
I think you should tell her that you disagree and make a case for why you need it including that your husband thinks you need it.

Do you want to go to autism testing?

My POV is that you should have a vote on these things. She should reconsider--at least give it another go if you are sure it helped. What about compromising with a lower dose?
TunedOut is offline   Reply With QuoteReply With Quote
-jimi-
Jimi the rat
 
-jimi-'s Avatar
-jimi- is a vermin. Please feed me anyway.
 
Member Since: Dec 2008
Location: Northern Europe
Posts: 6,234
15 yr Member PC PoohBah!
Default Aug 14, 2019 at 10:35 PM
  #10
We're supposed to fit in just one box? Oh man....

I have both aspergers and ADD. Plus mild-moderate depression and several anxiety disorders and a huge sleep disorder.

I somehow didn't see that as a complex case or not fitting in. I do fit in my boxes even if no one fits like to 100 %. I only have one brain and the way psychiatry is set up is to have several names for what I have. I'm OK with that.

I couldn't stop meltdowns either. I just have to try to not ignore my stress levels as I have done in the past. If I see where my stress levels are, it is easier not to have meltdowns when further stuff is suddenly placed on me.

__________________
-jimi- is offline   Reply With QuoteReply With Quote
sarahsweets
Threadtastic Postaholic
 
sarahsweets's Avatar
sarahsweets has no updates.
 
Member Since: Dec 2018
Location: New Jersey
Posts: 6,006 (SuperPoster!)
5 yr Member
192 hugs
given
PC PoohBah!
Default Aug 15, 2019 at 09:22 AM
  #11
Quote:
Originally Posted by birdcrazy View Post
My husband asked around and my doctor has a reputation of putting people on the "latest" meds... Why exactly do I need to be on Latuda and Vraylar at the same time for example???
Maybe because there is no generic and she gets kickbacks or something dubious from pushing them?

__________________
"I carried a watermelon?"

President of the no F's given society.
sarahsweets is offline   Reply With QuoteReply With Quote
sarahsweets
Threadtastic Postaholic
 
sarahsweets's Avatar
sarahsweets has no updates.
 
Member Since: Dec 2018
Location: New Jersey
Posts: 6,006 (SuperPoster!)
5 yr Member
192 hugs
given
PC PoohBah!
Default Aug 15, 2019 at 09:23 AM
  #12
Have you asked her why you need to be on two atypical antipsychotics?

__________________
"I carried a watermelon?"

President of the no F's given society.
sarahsweets is offline   Reply With QuoteReply With Quote
Breaking Dawn
Legendary
 
Breaking Dawn's Avatar
Breaking Dawn Thankful for my blessings.
 
Member Since: Sep 2019
Location: USA
Posts: 16,689 (SuperPoster!)
3 yr Member
42.2k hugs
given
PC PoohBah!
Default Sep 27, 2019 at 12:47 AM
  #13
Hi Birdcrazy, I just wanted to agree that maybe you could try a different doctor. And request zoloft, because you did so well on it before. Also, I love birds too. Don't forget to go where they are & feel happy. Hugs to you! I wish you all the best.
Breaking Dawn is offline   Reply With QuoteReply With Quote
 
Thanks for this!
TunedOut
All times are GMT -5. The time now is 04:52 PM.
Powered by vBulletin® — Copyright © 2000 - 2024, Jelsoft Enterprises Ltd.



 

My Support Forums

My Support Forums is the online community that was originally begun as the Psych Central Forums in 2001. It now runs as an independent self-help support group community for mental health, personality, and psychological issues and is overseen by a group of dedicated, caring volunteers from around the world.

 

Helplines and Lifelines

The material on this site is for informational purposes only, and is not a substitute for medical advice, diagnosis or treatment provided by a qualified health care provider.

Always consult your doctor or mental health professional before trying anything you read here.