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Trig Jan 19, 2020 at 05:52 PM
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Instead of Racing thoughts, racing feelings: one, the other, another one.
In a second: now, happy; next so full of energy I am going to end up flying (redbuuuuuull); then,
Possible trigger:
AHAHAH; so tired but go runnnnnning; I am useledd worthless; stupid; the most perfect stupid human beeing; I love my dog.

It is exahusting.

I AM NOT TIRED

I have to sleep, I am sleepy

I am not

Do any of you get it?

What is wrong with my brain?!?

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I can't really relate to this. I'm mostly just sad & angry (primarily at myself) but pushing through to do whatever needs to be done on any given day. But I wanted to leave a quick reply none-the-less to say I hope that, in some way, you will be able to find deep peace in your life. (Hugs to your doggie too.)

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While nobody here can diagnose you, you might want to visit the bipolar board.

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Default Jan 22, 2020 at 07:07 AM
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I am so sorry things are so hard for you, @OliverB. How are things going for your Doctors? Are they helping you? Keep writing here. We care about you. Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @OliverB, your Family, your Friends, your Pdoc, your Therapists, your Doctors, your Nurses and ALL of your Loved Ones! KEEP FIGHTING AND KEEP ROCKING NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!
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Default Jan 23, 2020 at 05:00 PM
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I shouldn't be bipolar

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Default Jan 24, 2020 at 12:07 AM
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I want to sleep more but I do not feel really tired, if that makes sense. I have an appointment with my therapist in a week and half.

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Default Jan 24, 2020 at 04:09 AM
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I want to sleep more but I do not feel really tired, if that makes sense. I have an appointment with my therapist in a week and half.
Yes, that makes a lot of sense. I think you should call your therapist first thing in the morning and tell them what is going on with your thoughts. Please.

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Default Jan 24, 2020 at 01:58 PM
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I an going to write everything down and be sincere with him. He only works two days a week (Wednesday and Thursday). I am afraid he will think I am lying, the appointment I had on december with my new pdoc went really bad, he said she was a good doctor! And I have passed all my examns and my instructor at the hospital is pretty happy with me as a student... (I am reslly good at hiding distress)

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"Outwardly: dumbly, I shamble about, a thing that could never have been known as human, a
thing whose shape is so alien a travesty that humanity becomes more obscene for the vague resemblance."
I have no mouth and I must scream -Harlan Ellison-
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Tell him you easily hide distress and that you're afraid he'll think you're lying.

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