i feel terrible right now!

Starkfull · 12:26 PM

this post is mostly for the sake of venting:

so here is the thing:
i met this friend on the internet. and we got really connected she became my like my other (in additional to the best friend i already had)
she was someone iknewi could trust with anything
and she knew it she could trust me

the thing she had feeling for me, and not to long ago we decided to go into a long distance relatiionship.

howerver it was very short lived:

and about a day ago she told she wanna go back together.

i told u would think about it, but it was mostly becuse i wanted to tell her this in a voice chat not in text.

here is were things getting messy, about a day ago her best friend stopped replying to her. she gone missing for two days

Possible trigger:

and eventually they found her... hanged, she also had a letter she left behind, put it simply she committed suicide.

to make it a worse its like the third person in the lost three or two month she losses that was very close to her.
this is already traumatizing enough but u can add this on top of already existing depression weed addiction previus attempts at commuting suicide. and other traumatizing events that i cannot talk about

were do i come in:in all this she asked me again about "us" i wanted to pospone my reply untill A. we can talk on voice chat B. untill she done mourning. but she pressed and i didnt want to lie so eventually she deducted that i dont want to.

at worse when she asked why, i really didnt want to tell het this at that point but well she deserves to know.

needles its hurts her.

and i feel awfull about it. becuse not she needs to deal with the death of her best friend (for the third time) now she also have my bombshell thrown right on top of that.

i feell awfully guilty about that.
and its not just guilt, i feel guilty for telling her that in the worset timing that could possibly be, i feel sorry for her loosing her best friend. i feel remorse for the father who was a single parent to an only child witch means he now being left completly (he went trough a hard attack today).

and now she stops replying to me. so im also scared, scared she might have done something to herself.

or just decided to stop talkng to me.

and im helpless to do anything about it.

bpcyclist · Jan 26, 2020 at 12:56 PM

That's an incredibly difficult situation you have described. I certainly hope and pray that she is all right. And that you are, too. Sending you support.

Fuzzybear · Jan 26, 2020 at 09:51 PM

Starkfull · Jan 29, 2020 at 12:27 PM

sorry for the delay and thank for the support
the goond news:she is alive the bed news is: she has some serius troubles coping with the loss

bpcyclist · Jan 29, 2020 at 04:41 PM

Yeah. Well, I am sorry for her difficulties, but glad you both are all right. Hang in there!!!

Buffy01 · Feb 05, 2020 at 09:55 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Starkfull

this post is mostly for the sake of venting:

so here is the thing:
i met this friend on the internet. and we got really connected she became my like my other (in additional to the best friend i already had)
she was someone iknewi could trust with anything
and she knew it she could trust me

the thing she had feeling for me, and not to long ago we decided to go into a long distance relatiionship.

howerver it was very short lived:

and about a day ago she told she wanna go back together.

i told u would think about it, but it was mostly becuse i wanted to tell her this in a voice chat not in text.

here is were things getting messy, about a day ago her best friend stopped replying to her. she gone missing for two days

Possible trigger:

and eventually they found her... hanged, she also had a letter she left behind, put it simply she committed suicide.

to make it a worse its like the third person in the lost three or two month she losses that was very close to her.
this is already traumatizing enough but u can add this on top of already existing depression weed addiction previus attempts at commuting suicide. and other traumatizing events that i cannot talk about

were do i come in:in all this she asked me again about "us" i wanted to pospone my reply untill A. we can talk on voice chat B. untill she done mourning. but she pressed and i didnt want to lie so eventually she deducted that i dont want to.

at worse when she asked why, i really didnt want to tell het this at that point but well she deserves to know.

needles its hurts her.

and i feel awfull about it. becuse not she needs to deal with the death of her best friend (for the third time) now she also have my bombshell thrown right on top of that.

i feell awfully guilty about that.
and its not just guilt, i feel guilty for telling her that in the worset timing that could possibly be, i feel sorry for her loosing her best friend. i feel remorse for the father who was a single parent to an only child witch means he now being left completly (he went trough a hard attack today).

and now she stops replying to me. so im also scared, scared she might have done something to herself.

or just decided to stop talkng to me.

and im helpless to do anything about it.

I'm sorry that she lost a friend to suicide. I lost a brother in law to suicide. Just support her.

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bpcyclist Legendary Member Since Sep 2019 Location: Portland Posts: 12,681 (SuperPoster!) 4 40.2k hugs given	Jan 26, 2020 at 12:56 PM #2 That's an incredibly difficult situation you have described. I certainly hope and pray that she is all right. And that you are, too. Sending you support. __________________ When I was a kid, my parents moved a lot, but I always found them--Rodney Dangerfield
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Starkfull Junior Member Member Since Dec 2019 Location: Israel Posts: 24 4	Jan 29, 2020 at 12:27 PM #4 sorry for the delay and thank for the support the goond news:she is alive the bed news is: she has some serius troubles coping with the loss
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bpcyclist Legendary Member Since Sep 2019 Location: Portland Posts: 12,681 (SuperPoster!) 4 40.2k hugs given	Jan 29, 2020 at 04:41 PM #5 Yeah. Well, I am sorry for her difficulties, but glad you both are all right. Hang in there!!! __________________ When I was a kid, my parents moved a lot, but I always found them--Rodney Dangerfield
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