[alm15]

This may be a long rambling post...I've been having nightmares every night for a couple of weeks. Therapy has been intense. I broke through to another layer of heavy stuff and I'm having a hard time leaving it there. This weekend I went to a place I hadn't been for 32 years. It was intense. Some of the ritual abuse happened there. I wasn't sure unitl I drove past the dirt road that went to the clearing. I had a panick attack, but worked through it. I was able to reclaim that place for myself. Which was good, but I was also flooded with images from my past. I feel like everytime I have a major breakthrough I see so much more that I have to work through. It feels overwhelming, like I'll never get through it all. I'm so exhausted and all I want to do is sleep. But I have a child to take care of. I love her dearly but I'm having such a hard time getting up any energy. Well, thank you for letting me ramble. Annie

[wisewoman]

Annie, it does take a while to first find the stuff that needs to be worked through but that is part of the process of working through it. It takes a long time and it's frustrating. The thing that I am always told is to stay in the present. Make yourself stay where you are. Notice your child and make yourself play with her. Notice that you are safe. Notice your hands, they are grown up hands. Look in the mirror and see a grown up lady. These are the things I keep hearing. It helps. Sometimes just putting it on paper and saving it for the next therapy session is good because you can give it to the paper to hold so you won't have to. I hope this makes sense. Good luck and know my heart is with you. Take time to be with you, take a bath, read a book etc.

[gloria]

You are so brave!
You must be such an amazing person...Keep up the good work. It is hard but worth it.
Vent with us any time you need, that is what we are here for.

gab

[Butterfly_Faerie]

{{{{{{Annie}}}}}}

<font color=red>~Sundance~</font color=red>

<font color=blue>"Never react emotionally to criticism. Analyze yourself to determine whether it is justified. If it is, correct yourself. Otherwise, go on about your business."</font color=blue>

<font color=black>Norman Vincent Peale</font color=black>

[alm15]

Thank you for your support and encouragement! I do a lot of stuff to try and ground myself, but it never ocurred to me to look at my hands! What a great idea! Thank you! I'm feeling a little better, but still avoiding sleep and want to crawl under the covers and never come out! But I did have a really good weekend! My daughter and I went to visit one of my sisters and her family. We had a great time! It was really wonderful to leave the yuck behind for a couple of days. Thank you again! Annie

[Fuzzybear]

(((((((((((((((Annie)))))))))))))))

[krzyk101]

((((Hugs))))
I think I have read this at least 3 times only going through similar. Been afraid to reply. Hope all gets better and you feel better today.

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~KRIS~

If you think you have totally gave up, you haven't, because you are here!