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Default Dec 20, 2019 at 09:00 PM
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I keep thinking about posting about what has been really bothering me lately, the trauma that is surfacing again and has led to two recent sui attempts. But then I open Tapatalk and get all the way here, and can't type it out. I can't put the words out there. I can barely talk about it, but talking about it is getting easier. I feel like if I can put it on here or on my blog or something like that, I will have this feeling of... IDK... like I'm stronger.

I guess I just want some encouragement that it will be okay, if I do post about it...

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Sometimes, I think, writing about what is troubling you can be really therapeutic. And after all supporting one another, through our writings here on PC, is what we're all here for. I guess, realistically, only you can know whether or not posting about the trauma that has surfaced again will be helpful to you. But I, at least, would like to encourage you to try. I hope you're okay...

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Default Dec 22, 2019 at 08:37 AM
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I sometimes feel, that writing stuff down helps me to get it out of my head and process it, or at least make a little bit better sense of what I'm feeling.

If you're worried about sharing publicly you could try writing it down in Word, and then if you feel like it, copy it in here to share.

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Thanks for the replies skeezyks and splits.

I do want the support you're talking about skeezyks, that's the main reason I want to post about it. Support, I think, would help me feel better about the fact that it happened and I could possibly get ideas to move past it. Possibly.

I like the idea of writing it down in word first splits. I may do that this afternoon. If I can... It may still be hard to write it there.

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I went ahead and just jumped... I posted before I could change my mind.

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Default Dec 30, 2019 at 05:53 PM
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Thank you for this post. I so much want to write about my CPTSD, but I have all kinds of fears about doing so. I have to make a type of list for my therapy appt. on Friday; maybe then I'll be able to post here. For one thing, I have to figure out how to condense everything so it's not the longest post ever written on PC.

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Thank you for this post. I so much want to write about my CPTSD, but I have all kinds of fears about doing so. I have to make a type of list for my therapy appt. on Friday; maybe then I'll be able to post here. For one thing, I have to figure out how to condense everything so it's not the longest post ever written on PC.
In the end, it was easier to post it than I thought it would be... I was still scared, but once I had it written, I just hit post without really thinking about it.

That list for your appointment may really help with the post. Especially with organizing it all.

I hope you are able to post about soon.

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Default Dec 30, 2019 at 09:16 PM
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I have experienced that challenge many times myself. I have a hard time sometimes writing out the challenges I am facing and have just sat here staring and feeling blank. Then sometimes I get too many thoughts all at once and find I can't possibly keep up with all that I have in my mind to talk about. Then there are times when I do manage to write things out and to be honest, I often feel that when I do that either no one will respond or I will get a response that is critical.

I find that I just don't want to feel so isolated with these deep challenges I have been facing. When I do share to ease the pain of feeling so isolated, the one thing I don't want to experience are either no responses or responses that tell me to "just ignore, don't allow, let it go, you have to accept, walk away, and just, just, just or even stop thinking about it and don't feel this or that". It's because when I get these kind of replies, it silences me and once again makes me feel isolated and "why even bother to talk about it".
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Default Jan 23, 2020 at 02:13 PM
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I too sometimes find that writing stuff down helps me get it out of my head... I am also wondering if it is ok for me to post. I have a harsh inner critic which multiple abusers “facilitated’...It takes something I can’t easily define with one word to share openly about painful and traumatic feelings/events/... some events etc are things I don’t share.

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