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There’s an event that happened to me about 2 and a half years ago (June 2018 to be exact) that has deeply affected me and especially my mental health. I don’t really want to give out a lot of info about that event (i’m embaressed) but basically i got harassed (received threats too) over something really bad i’d said on the internet .i think it was a trauma for me as i still haven’t forgotten about it and as it causes me a great deal of agony. Because 2 years after the event, the thought of it still haunts and agonizes me i think it has caused PTSD.
Though i can’t really recall exactly how was i feeling right after the event, i remember that i was sweating, my heart was racing, my hands were shaking, i was confused and didn’t know what to do. So i told about it to my mom so she tried to calm me down. For about a year, it didn’t really interfere with my daily life but it would pop up to my mind time to time. On April 2019, things started to go downhill. I got a call from a stranger and that triggered me. I couldn’t concentrate at class and i’d always think about that event 24/7. I couldn’t sleep, the thought of it would always bug me. On May 2019, i started to dread going to school because i was scared. On June 2019,it got even more worse as it was the 1 year anniversary of that event. I got really depressed, i had never been this sad. I was anxious and would always think about that event. I started to stay at home because i thought my friends didn’t like me. So my mom dragged me to the psychiatrist and i was **** scared of her idk why. The psychiatrist told me that i was a bit anxious and depressed but there was nothing wrong. She offered me to do CBT and told me that there was no need to take medication. I didn’t go to the therapy btw. On July 2019 and August 2019, i couldn’t leave the house. I felt scared. I was comtemplating about suicide. I would catastrophize the future. I’d lost hope in everything. I couldn’t sleep alone,i’d share my bed with my mom. I wouldn’t eat, i couldn’t leave my room, i wouldn’t shower and i’d have intrusive thoughts. I left my house to go out once and i got dissociared. Around the end of August 2019 with the help of my family, i got better, started seeing an another psychiatrist. Since i wasn’t comfortable talking about that event, i wasn’t 100%. honest with her. On September 2019, school started and i was **** scared at school. I was nervous, i felt lost and hated to be there. 2 weeks into school, i started therapy. As i was still not comfortable talking about that event i wasn’t being honest with her. So she prescribes me Sertraline. When the effects of it started, i got better. I started caring less about that event. However, the effects of sertraline are starting to wear off (dosage 75mg, i’m really sensitive to substances btw) . I’ve been having nightmares correlating to that event every night. I feel anxious and i feel like i’m going into my depressive episode again. P.S. I’m 16, going to highschool and seeing a psychiatrist, going to therapy. I’m not diagnosed with a mental ilness.. And 4 months into therapy i still can’t open up to my therapist about that event. That event has shaped me a lot and changed my personality. So do you think i have PTSD? or something else? notice that my therapist/psychiatrist hasn’t diagnosed me with something in fact she tells me that she can’t really figure me out but she told me that i didn’t have an axis 1 mental ilness . Last edited by bluekoi; Jan 24, 2020 at 07:53 PM.. Reason: Add triggger icon. |
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Hello lucidmoon: I see this is your first post here on PC. Welcome to Psych Central. The Anxiety, Panic & Phobias forum, here on PC, may also be one that will be of interest to you. Here's a link:
https://psychcentralforums.com/anxie...c-and-phobias/ I'm sorry but we here on PC cannot offer mental health diagnoses. Plus I'm not a mental health professional. So I can't suggest whether or not what you are experiencing might constitute PTSD. That is a determination that is going to have to be made by your psychiatrist & therapist. What I can say is that as long as you persist in not talking about that event two and a half years ago (as well as what has gone on since) the longer you're likely to continue having problems with this. Take it from me. I have a very long history of keeping secrets. I'm an old person whose been doing it all his life. And I'll tell you it has taken its toll. Perhaps, with the passage of enough time, what you are struggling with will all simply fade by itself into the background of your life. But clearly, so far at least, it is still causing you large amounts of anxiety along with (it sounds like) guilt & shame. Whatever it was you said on the internet that got all of this started, believe me, the odds are the mental health professionals in your life have heard much worse. The time has come to throw open the doors & windows, so to speak, & let the sunshine in. I hope you do. Here are links to 3 articles, from Psych Central's archives, that (hopefully) may be of some help: 6 Ways to Open Up and Talk in Therapy How to Deal with the Aftermath of Shame Coping with Guilt | Psych Central I hope you find PC to be of benefit. __________________ "I may be older but I am not wise / I'm still a child's grown-up disguise / and I never can tell you what you want to know / You will find out as you go." (from: "A Nightengale's Lullaby" - Julie Last) |
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I think that it is possible that you could have pstd. For two years I been a victim of cyber bullying because I posted an opinion about a YouTube video without realizing that it would create any future problems. |
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